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About Me

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On most days, I find myself wishing for perfection. And I know that you and your blue eyes wish for it too, but these dirty hands smell like spit and cookies because I was never one for standing still. In my mind, we are perfect. But this is only in my mind. I want to think that we will always be the perfect ones. But you have always been a picky eater and you always get a little bit jealous when I spend time with other people. I want for this to become forever. So that I may know the warmth of your company. You were always independent, though. And I know you never needed me as much as I needed you. But then, maybe you just needed somebody to need you. In which case, I fit perfectly. For once. You say, "We are the beautiful ones. With our cherry red lips and porcelain skin."
Picture yourself in a boat on a river,
With tangerine trees and marmalade skies
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,
A girl with kaleidoscope eyes.
Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,
Towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes,
And she's gone.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

schmeebear777: you make me smile
cassondravsshark: you make me smile too
cassondravsshark: schmeebear777:

i'd like to meet someone who loves life.

and a boy who likes to cuddle.
but a boy who understands my lifestyle.
I smoke, I drink, I laugh, I dream.
I love, I smile, I share, I live.

Yes, I do my fair share of drugs. That does not make me a bad person, it doesn't make me a cool person. All it does is make me who I am. The things I have experienced through these drugs have changed my outlook on life. They have changed the way I live my life, and how I interact with everyone around me. Don't judge me for that, love me for it instead. The world is beautiful and so are you.

My Blog

I could have been your darling sunflower,

but now we will never know.
Posted by on Mon, 03 Dec 2007 00:03:00 GMT

Tonight’s the night we’ll make history, honey, you and I.

I just wanted to apologize to anyone who feels as though i have been ditching them lately. I didn't really realize this until today. I know I hang with the same few kids everyday, and a lot of you thi...
Posted by on Wed, 19 Sep 2007 19:10:00 GMT

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life, but this one I actually think I regret.

there is nothing left to say in this blog.this girl has nothing left inside of her.just an empty person.and a heartless soul.
Posted by on Fri, 07 Sep 2007 00:20:00 GMT

I miss my brother, my best friend, my support.

There once was a time when a group of boys were all I needed in my life. Four boys that completed who I was. One of them is gone forever, and I'm not going to get into that since most of you know why....
Posted by on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 21:36:00 GMT

when they turn their backs on you you’ll get the chance to put the knife in.

I have faith in the human race. Obviously our species will always be here, that is not what I mean. According to science our bodies will survive, what I'm worried about is our heart...
Posted by on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 19:46:00 GMT

Back to lungs pumping blood and a heart taking in oxygen.

"What happened to you?""I don't even know why we continue to stay friends, we have nothing in common anymore.""Wow. Please just stop.""You aren't the girl I fell in love with anymore, and you have no ...
Posted by on Sun, 02 Sep 2007 15:02:00 GMT

For the want of the price of tea and a slice the old man died.

(you can reply to this in a message instead of comments if you wish)steve told me i'm never going to get what i want.he said i'm asking too much.and at this point, i just dont know.i want a boy that i...
Posted by on Mon, 20 Aug 2007 23:48:00 GMT

Take these sunken eyes and learn to see. (Black Bird fly)

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, mostly about things I wanted to ignore, thoughts I didn't want to have, and problems I didn't want to solve. My life starts fresh soon, I have this opprotunit...
Posted by on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 15:50:00 GMT

this blog is probably a waste of your time

i'm sorry, to all of you.every single person i have ever crossed paths with.i'm sure i've done something worthy of an apology from me, and i'm sorry. Who doesn't know what I'm talking about Who's nev...
Posted by on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 01:22:00 GMT

this summer will never be the same

i think i've actually figured it out now. i truly believe i know why this summer has been so lame compared to last summer. last summer, i had an amazing group of friends. friends that liked to party, ...
Posted by on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 01:03:00 GMT