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Secrets always make friends.. and the deepest and scariest secrets, shared make the best of friends,

About Me

She seemed dressed in all of me Stretched across my shame All the torment and the pain Leaked through and covered me I'd do anything to have her to myself Just to have her for myself Now I don't know what to do I don't know what to do When she makes me sad She is everything to me The unrequited dream A song that no one sings The unattainable She's a myth that I have to believe in All I need to make it real is one more reason I don't know what to do I don't know what to do When she makes me sadBut I won't let this build up inside of meI catch in my throat Choke Torn into pieces I won't - no I don't wanna be thisBut I won't let this build up inside of meShe isn't real I can't make her realbroken in more ways then i can explain, or have ever expected... not needing a fix.. yet someone who has known me better then any other.. and i hold in my heart and soul.. second to none... ripped away from my only true love.. that has loved me and my flaws, and all my short comings.. i am an empty and a broken spirit, left to dwell in the void of existance and sorrow.. and this life has left me...... broken in spirit behind the laughter and smiles... my tears bleed black pain is all that is left to comfort me... my angst and emotions i attempt to drink away.. it falls on numb feelings.. that are meaningless without you in my arms.. i am nothing.. so much loss, i have endured.. how much more will be cause of you.. i know i've seen my true self.. i know there might be one to second guess my health, thought and logic... a reason that i pose to me, a vacant distant memory, reflections paint a wall to well, inside you i can lose myself..and here is where all goes wrong.. inside a smile.. which does not belong, in times i thought i was so strong, in memories just to fade away..for another day..for another way..for your viewing pleasure.. this is for me..to you.. you really know your right... its midnight in america----- get down and stay down... up date round three... well i am more trouble then i am worth.. i have a small group of friends even though i know alot of people... I love to go out..but i get bored with places very easy... i think i have social ADD, or i am just socially retarted.. wait i mean socially impaired.. at times i am just a creepy little goth kid.. I am very candid, very open and honest.. if you can get me too.. yeah i know thats a contradiction.. hmmm well i am definitely am the one that your friends will warn you about.. i like to drink, stay up late, sleep all day, i am a big flirt, and nothing but trouble.... i love to stay upto date on current events.. and also know my past... i am a bartender in transition..... well i am always on my computer so msg me if you wantand just remember not everything is always as it seems..

My Interests

.. .. .. ..snowboarding, skating, drinking, binge drinking, partying, meeting new people, being a dork, playing my guitar, drinking water in the morning, watching tv, playing video games,

I'd like to meet:

Hunter S. Thompson(a literary God)... the fore father of inspiration for so many, he was the original G in being able to stick it the man.. and his literary works are writin in such away as being able to fuck with people, being good at fucking with people, and liking to fuck with people....alas i will never have the chance, to do a shot with so my friend this last drink is for you... R.I.P.... a great man that will be sorely missed"He knew who I was, at that time, because I had a reputation as a writer. I knew he was part of the Bush dynasty. But he was nothing, he offered nothing, and he promised nothing. He had no humor. He was insignificant in every way and consequently I didn't pay much attention to him. But when he passed out in my bathtub, then I noticed him. I'd been in another room, talking to the bright people. I had to have him taken away." -Hunter S Thompson on meeting George W Bush at his Super Bowl party in Houston, in 1974.

Music:

A7x, AFI, social D, Tool, a perfect circle, bad religion, dead kennedy's, the killers, blue oyster cult, snuff, threeeightysix, ion, billy idol, pennywise, oingo boingo(miss you melanie), sneaker pimps, Lp, the clash, pixies, the cure, system of the down, hieroglyphics, mxpx, the misfits, frente, wade, lagwagon,Velvet Acid christ, lacuna coil, rise against, HIM, alkaline trio, AFI, Lacuna Coil, 69eyes, otep, radio head, M83, Raze, fallout boy, atreyu, public image, magazine, buzzcocks, sunnyday realestate, breaking benjamin, getup kids, as well as too many others to name...... "there's no time for hesitating, pain is ready, pain is waiting, prime to do its educating, unwanted, uninvited kin, it kreeps beneath your crawling skin, it lives without, it lives within you, feel the fever the coming your shaking and twitching, you can scratch all over but that won't stop the itching"

Movies:

the crow, shrek, donnie darko, any Johnny Depp movie, ice age, queen of the damned, iron monkey, gooniestombstone, igby goes down, LTR I,II, III, harry potter, pulse, wildcats-little bastards, big brother's-shit, and to many others to think of

Television:

family guy, simpsons, law & order SVU, mxc, the shield, and othersSTYLE TYPE='text/css'>BODY, HTML { background: url('http://www.darkest-destruction.com/nurple-static-bright .gif') }

Books:

Favorite Books i can say that every book I read is my brand new favourite. Right now, it's Flowers in the Attic. Mmm... Incest...

Heroes:


BEAST AND THE HARLOT - AVENGED SEVENFOLD

My Blog

manic passings

blood red lips.. traced past thoughts, decline... you know i'm a good train wreck looks can say alot sometime so i take more from a passing and project on you   misguided thoughts and mistake...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 05:46:00 PST

sabatoge

choaskoasok uswhatever.. i find things that are perfect, and beautiful, and sustaining.. and well..i will be me.. i want to watch it burn i wanna watch it grow.. can it ever change me.. i need and sea...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 03:42:00 PST

a sober rant for being this early..

i am the most non-judgemental person ever, lifestyle choices, sexual prefrence, religion, personal beliefs, what ever.. it matters not.. but tonight i realized one group of individuals that i can not ...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 04:26:00 PST

not so much pain...

more so on the contadication in knowing that my better half.. is ok.. being stuck with is not a bad.. except my plight.. being burdened to the americas.. north and south.. as soon as i can flee the co...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Wed, 17 Sep 2008 03:51:00 PST

if i ever posted the truest thoughts pervaid myhead

i deleted the entire text.. i can't ever be that open everit sucks but its for the best... trust me.. somethings are meant to dwell in the shadows of the past and mind.. if not prove me wrong... other...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 06:40:00 PST

do you continue to see

so fragile yet so deviousher temples pressed  in my chestlies when she came homeshes the only one.... to make me cry... forever.. do you conitue to see... your the only one to make me bleed... ba...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 04:35:00 PST

calls from a distant memory reflect like ripples

in the never ending state of dismay.. shadows.. that i have felt and feel reflect upon memories of humanity and feeling that have been long forgotten.. which pull me back to something that somewhat re...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 03:55:00 PST

leave it alone.. heal and stay... by NoFX

Breathe ever so soft, We wouldn't wanna break the eggs as we walk. Never alone, cautious, afraid, I hear the voice of reason on the P.A. Leave it alone, follow the grain, We couldn't stop the irresis...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:43:00 PST

now is the time for introvertion...

i've walked a million miles in your shoes.. and i feel unusual for thinking.. thinking, thoughts i think todaywithout you.. i know there is no reasoni hear voices that scream.. screams that make me sc...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:40:00 PST

grrr... im kinda in my senses..

and i know i'm going to regret it or... more then likely not... but like a scab, you have to pick... you know you wanna.. now to try and offer something interesting.. or inciteful... i would rather.. ...
Posted by a far cry from innocence" on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 03:28:00 PST