profile picture

334484481

About Me


Do you really wanna know me?
IM ONE IN A MILLION.
< like a penny in a diamond mine. >
I'm Monica Thaxton.
I live inside my head. I've learned to let my emotions take the wheel, even if my eyes see a safer path, I choose passion. Everything I say or do will eventually contradict something else I've done or said. And most of the time, I'm okay with that.
FROM HERE ON ITS INSTINCTUAL.
I'm working real hard on becoming a better person, and wish more people would do the same. It seems like everybody wants to change the world but not so many people want to change themselves. I think its just like Ghandi said; "Be the change you wish to see in the world."
Depending on how bored I am, anything CAN and WILL fascinate me. seriously. I'm really good at coming up with really stupid ideas. I can't seem to find where "MAKE FUN OF ME FOR EVERYTHING I DO" is written on my forehead, but i know its there somewhere...I don't like when people can't laugh at themselves.
Part of me will always have a very sick sense of humor that laughs at the suffering of people who I believe deserve it..and part of me is just really hoping that they learn from it, and change. Any time you think you have me all figured out, just stop and realize that even then, I'm still probably just a little more messed up than you think.. I'm a monster. =] And in all honesty I feel sorry for anyone who doesnt like me, almost as much as I am sorry for the ones who do put up with me.
Not always proud of what I've done, yet I always find myself thanking Gods I don't believe in for the experiences that have made me who I am.
All I have really decided about myself is that I am probably way too indecisive...but I don't even see that as a bad thing anymore.
ALL I KNOW IS JUST A FEELING FROM INSIDE MY VEINS.
"I have just boarded a plane without a Pilot.
and Violets are blue.
Roses are red, Daisies are yellow,
the flowers are DEAD.
wish I could give you this feeling
(I feel like Buying)
and if my dealer don't have no more then
I feel like DYING"

My Interests

I'd like to meet:



Everybody. and Nobody. You, message me!!

Artists. Writers. Musicians. Vegetarians. Vegans. Alcoholics. People with interesting interests. People who have something to say to the world. People who wake up and chose life. Inspiring, Creative, Open-Minded, Eclectic, and Enlightening People. People who want to teach me. People who want to learn from me. Broken, Lost, Desperate, Struggling, and Lonely People. People who are still searching for their voice. Anybody with good intentions, looking for a friend. Anybody with a sick sense of humor who wants someone to laugh at the world with.
ANYONE WHO WILL STAB ME IN THE FRONT.
But if you plan on being pointlessly mean or rude to me, no thanks, I'd rather feel all alone than acknowledge your existence.

My Blog

this sucks

either i am crazyor nothing makes any sense today.hint: its probably both.
Posted by on Tue, 26 May 2009 16:24:00 GMT

Yeah, I'm down. But not out, and far from done...

[["beware! criminal" - incubus<333]]You crawl in bed, it's 3am You smell of wine and cigarettes A butterfly ...
Posted by on Wed, 13 May 2009 09:12:00 GMT

this just deserves to be here.

little_cheddar: sometimes i feel like eating a nutty snackmorelikeamoose: what about other timeslittle_cheddar: other times a would rather indulge in a less protien enriched form of delitghtul desert+...
Posted by on Mon, 11 May 2009 10:57:00 GMT

im crawling deeper in

into my own skinwhere there's no one to chase awayor to guess the next thing that i say
Posted by on Sat, 21 Feb 2009 02:40:00 GMT

brain slobber...

"I live inside my head. I've learned to let myemotions take the wheel, even if my eyes see a safer path, I choosepassion. Everything I say or do will eventually contradict somethingelse I've done or s...
Posted by on Wed, 18 Feb 2009 07:57:00 GMT

ive got these cool 3D glasses

ive got these cool 3D glassesthat david gave me[that were meant for the superbowl commercials.]but i decided i should just wear them from now onso i can see real life in 3D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Feb 2009 21:26:00 GMT

this is how i feel. am i wrong for it?

"should i apologize?...if what i say burns your ears and stains your eyes?oh, did i crack your shell?when it falls away, youll see,we exist as well."[[-incubus.]]of course. who else?*Do you have the g...
Posted by on Sat, 05 Jul 2008 02:42:00 GMT

july 4th

my sister just called me racist for not eating a hot dog on the fourth of july.dun ask me why this is blog-worthy.im jus friggin bored...and thought everybody should know.
Posted by on Fri, 04 Jul 2008 06:38:00 GMT

i guess im just here to demand the impossible

i guess im just here to demand the impossiblebrought you here to throw out one final sparkblow it upspilled the one motion i would never pourover the edge, i'll drown you in blamei guess im just here ...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 15:06:00 GMT

good news/bad news from monica for today.

bad news:1. im still sick. its been like a week now.2. cheese is begining to realllyyyy gross me out. and i dont wanna hate cheese.3. MY BRAIN HURTTTSSS.4. i think this is my 21 years of bad luck kick...
Posted by on Wed, 21 May 2008 01:36:00 GMT