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jan r. la rue

About Me

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Producer, Composer, Arranger, Soundtracks for film and television.

I am a music freak. There is never a quiet moment with me. And I don't mean to say it is always loud but always some music playing. Music is the only place that I can lose myself as an absolute refuge. It has always been this way with me as long as I can remember.

I was born in Bay City MI just north of Detroit. That said I was not in a shelter from new music. My little battery powered AM radio went with me almost everywhere as a kid. Music gave me pleasure, it made me mad, it got me into trouble all the time in school, and led to me wanting that first guitar at 10. But quickly realized I was not destined to be a guitar hero. So I got a bass guitar, then a used drum kit (Pearl then also) a couple years later. My basement was the place to jam and there was always somebody coming over to play something. I had a vision. A plan.

Fast forward.

Nothing works out like you plan. I gave up for lack of finding the right creative people to work with and lack of confidence. So I got into the business anyway. But not as an artist. I did everything else there was to do in the music business. Studio and live engineering, tour managing, artist management, producing. Then I took a giant leap and started an "Indie" label in the 90's. Great way to lose a shit-load of money real fast. Beat up and lacking fulfillment I just said enough and walked away from it all. No reason to go on with it. It did nothing to inspire me. So ending my venture into the "music world".

But there were a number of events over the last three years that pulled me back into the world of music. And those events have now changed me, for better or worse, forever. I am not even sure if I would recognize who I was just three years ago.

I was awakened to a part of my past that I had locked away and never planned on retrieving. All of my demons that I had been suppressing away for so long, began a determined ascent to the surface. A full closet that now needed cleaning. The dreaded darkness that ultimately now feeds my "light". So I thought what the hell, why not put all that dark matter into something creative. I came this far. Time to deal with all that brought me to this point. It is never too late to do something if you really have the desire, motivation, and most importantly the inspiration. That came from just one. Without you, and that inspiration, I would not be here doing this. Without even knowing, you have changed me forever.

I proved to myself that I could do what I wanted to do so long ago. And at the same time was able to deal with so much that I was unable to for so many years. I found peace with it all. I do not have to be famous, or have great recognition. I do want to be successful at this endeavor though, and I just hope that whatever I create is appreciated. I am excited about where this has taken me, and how my creativity has grown and diversified. But most importantly, I have found that missing part of me that I have been searching for. The rest now is easy. And now my new adventure, if you will, begins.



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My Interests

Music:

Member Since: 14/02/2008
Band Website: http://www.hdfest.com/music/alternative/jan.html
Band Members: Jan R La Rue ..
Influences: My influences vary from the "Yardbirds" and "Cream" to "Black Sabbath" "MC5" "Pink Floyd" "Alice in Chains" "Ministry" "Metallica" and "Nirvana". But I also always loved "Johny Cash", "Buck Owens" and "Hank Williams Sr". When its good its good. But most moving of all has always been classical music and opera. The dynamics and emotion is so powerful and hard to not let it effect you in some lasting impressionable way. I have a very depressed dark side that seems to come out in what I do but it is just about the only medium for me to express that part of me. I still look forward to hearing anything new that tests the "contemporary standard" and do not look back to any period or genre for direction.
Sounds Like: It is what it is.
Record Label: Unsigned

My Blog

Pat Robertson, poster boy for all that is wrong with organized corporate religion&

Once again in the midst of a natural disaster reminiscent of Katrina, Pat Robertson proves he is the poster boy for all that is bad and wrong with organized corporate religion. To be so arrogant and s...
Posted by on Thu, 14 Jan 2010 03:06:00 GMT

Thankful

Well, there is nothing like a freezing cold night to make one wish for something to warm the soul. Sipping some warm Bourbon helps to contemplate all things.I am so very grateful that all of the peopl...
Posted by on Sat, 09 Jan 2010 20:32:00 GMT

More rambling thoughts

Another year about gone. And yet I am still as confused as the first day. Funny how we have this way of telling ourselves a "New Year" is a new start, fresh, what we are looking for. But then as that ...
Posted by on Tue, 08 Dec 2009 22:19:00 GMT

Emotional ramblings

Lately, there have been times that the ability for me to feel certain emotions, is unwanted, or questioned by me. Emotions that I had thought of as being impossible to exist because there is no logic ...
Posted by on Tue, 13 Oct 2009 12:33:00 GMT

Creating from my own history

Well I said I needed to write something. I found some inspiration while reading my own history. I find at times, the best place for me to find what moves me is the thoughts that I enter into my journa...
Posted by on Tue, 15 Sep 2009 05:25:00 GMT

Slipping into darkness

Fall is creeping upon me and I feel it slowly changing my moods. It is my favorite time of year, but it brings with it so many memories that just seem to either take place or find their origins in thi...
Posted by on Thu, 10 Sep 2009 21:06:00 GMT

Music the universal language

I had the privilege this last weekend of hanging with a couple guys from Croatia. Roman and Sinisa from the band "the River Sharks". These two guys are what music is all about. They live it, love it, ...
Posted by on Tue, 26 May 2009 21:13:00 GMT

Another new song so new, the paint is still wet!

Ok,When it works it works. I had some powerful inspiration the other day and it turned into this. Titled "Anatomy of Anxiety", it is a little different than what I normally write but like I said, I am...
Posted by on Thu, 12 Mar 2009 21:29:00 GMT

New Song "The Wish"

"The Wish"I wrote this today and I have no other way of saying it. I have no other way of expressing what I feel right now. This is for you.
Posted by on Tue, 30 Sep 2008 02:55:00 GMT

It has taken 232 years

Tonight it seems that the United States finally lived up to the promise of "Land of the Free". With unseen walls, and hidden agendas, the powers of this country have kept women and anyone of color fro...
Posted by on Fri, 29 Aug 2008 08:11:00 GMT