lòvèhåtétrågèdy™ [Mera~cca inc.]

SOmEtImEs, I wIsh I was bravE, I wIsh I was strOngEr, I wIsh I cOuld fEEl nO paIn, I wIsh I was yOung, I wIsh I was shy, I wIsh I was hOnEst, I wIsh I was yOu nOt I.

i can't seem to fight and i'm caught in the middle of this.my wounds are not healing.i'm stuck in between my parents.i wish i had someone to talk to confide in.i just want to know the truth.
i know my mother loves me,but my father don't even care.if i'm sad or angry.you were never even there when i needed you.i hope you regret what you did.i think i know the truth.your father did the same to you.i am crying day and night now.what is wrong with me i cannot fight now.i feel like a weak link.
it feels bad to be alone,crying by yourself.how could i tell it to you all.you all could feel it depression strikes hard my old earth would feel it. to me,her son,she told me i'm the one,pain the bottled up about to blow like a gun.stories that i tell are nonfiction and you cn't take it back because it is already done.
born with no souls,lack of control cut from the mold.sick in the head,living but dead,hear what i said.learn a lesson from almighty.believe what is the root of the word comes lie when it's cut into thirds.i don't belive what my eyes behold.i don't believe what my ears are told. all i need is a bottle,and i don't need no friends.no wallow in my pain,i swallow as i pretend to act like i'm happy when i drink till no end.i am losing all my friends,i'm losing in the end.
my heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass,i don't know what.i want to be thrown away. i cannot control myself.because i see you inside of me.sometimes i want to be thrown away. i got to back,you got to back too... i got the power,channel the energy and with my strength will devour.
...maybe i deserved better.
*ballad for lost romantics.

lovehatetragedy iwontsin
I am eddy
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dAtE?
26th of August (08) 1984 M
29th of Dzul Qaedah (11) 1404 H
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10.34 am
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sUnDAy
pLAcE?
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'thou i die in vain,still smile to heaven sky'
-learning to let go the things i wish do not to lose-
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