I LOVE MY BOYS IN BLUE. LET'S GO RANGERS!!!!!
I LOVE TO DEATH my family, my friends who are the best friends anyone could ever ask for, music, video games (numerous consoles; 360, PS3, GC, PC. You name it, I love it), military, writing, drawing, Glock, Barrett, knives, Chanel No. 5, sex, ice hockey, NYR, football, poker, art, Chuck Palahniuk, HR Giger, tattoos, books, philosophy, thinking, penguins, movies, NYC, Philly, The Caribbean, piercings, tattoos, architecture (the good kind, not modern), literature, going to shows, atlantic city, going out, not paying attention, learning everything I possibly can, cartoons, trying new things, reading, intelligence, ad infinitum...Not in that order
I TOTALLY DESPISE religion, politics, stereotypes, narcissists, war, posers and fake people, traffic, conservatives, people who post half naked pics for attention, idiots, and I'm gonna stop now before I start pissing people off.
MEET MY CURRENT OBSESSIONS
That's right, just give me my scout tactical with a 6x 12x scope and I'm fuckin ready to roll.
and
If I could have any profession, I would be an assassin. ;-)
I'd like to meet:
Give me joy.
Give me malice.
Give me sympathy.
Give me adoration.
Give me brutal honesty.
Give me a break.
Give me attention.
Give me pity.
Give me wonder.
Give me amazement.
Give me tolerance.
Give me understanding.
Give me denial.
Give me a sense of control.
Give me terror.
Give me ignorance.
Give me courage.
Give me beauty.
Give me tolerance.
Give me wisdom.
Give me panic.
Give me anger.
Give me passion.
Give me release.
Give me vengeance.
Give me deliverance.
Give me youth and energy and innocence and beauty.
Give me detached existentialist ennui.
Give me rampant intellectualism as a coping mechanism.
Give me violent revenge fantasies as a coping mechanism.
Give me a complete late-stage revision of my adult life.
Give me total and complete justified retribution.
Give me anything in this whole fucking world that is
exactly what it looks like.
Give me another chance.
Give me a new start.
Just give me my first opportunity.
"I've met God across his long walnut desk with his diplomas hanging on the wall behind him, and God asks me, "Why?" Why did I cause so much pain? Didn't I realize that each of us is a sacred, unique snowflake of special unique specialness? Can't I see how we're all manifestations of love? I look at God behind his desk, taking notes on a pad, but God's got this all wrong. We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. And God says, "No, that's not right." Yeah. Well. Whatever. You can't teach God anything.â€
Music:
"When in Rome we shall do as the Romans, when in Hell we do shots at the bar."
311, Aerosmith, Alice in Chains, Amanda Palmer, American Head Charge, Anias, Assemblage 23, At the Drive In, Bad Religion, Beth Hart, Billy Idol, Billy Joel, Bjork, Blood Brothers, Bouncing Souls, Boy Hits Car, Boys Night Out, Brand New, Cave In, Chris Cornell, Circa Survive, CKY, Converge, Cowboy Junkies, Crystal Method, Cypress Hill, Deadsy, Depeche Mode, Dillinger Escape Plan, DMX, Dog Fashion Disco, Dresden Dolls, Duran Duran, Elton John, Elvis Presley, Every Time I Die, Faith No More, Fall of Troy, Fear Factory, Finch, Funker Vogt, Garbage, George Michael, Glassjaw, Gnarls Barkley, Gorillaz, Gravity Kills, Guns and Roses, Head Automatica, House of Blow, House of Pain, Isis, Jane's Addiction, Jimi Hendrix, Johnny Cash, Joss Stone, Kidney Thieves, kilgore, Kill Hannah, KMFDM, Korn, Leonard Cohen, Life of Agony, Lynard Skynard, Marilyn Manson, Mars Volta, Massive Attack, Meshuggah, Mickey Avalon, Ministry, Mount Sims, MSI, Mudvayne, Mushroomhead, Nelly Furtado, NIN, No Doubt, Nothingface, ODB, Onyx, Operation Ivy, Pantera, Perfect Circle, Primus, Prodigy, Rasputina, Risa Against, Rob Zombie, Rolling Stones, Santana, Saosin, Sepultura, She Wants Revenge, Slayer, Slipknot, Sneaker Pimps, Staind, Static Lullabye, Stone Sour, Strapping Young Lads, Sublime, Sugarcult, Suicide Machines, Switchblade Symphony, The Academy Is, The Killers, The Muse, The Used, Thursday, Tool, Tori Amos, Type O Negative, Vast, White Zombie, Within Temptation, Wu Tang, Xzibit, Zebrahead, and I know there is a ton more that I'm forgetting to name. I like so many different bands and types of music.
Jesse Lacey
I need to date this man. If you know his lyrics and you know me, you understand why.
Movies:
Boondock Saints, 300, Poolhall Junkies, Suicide Kings, Walk The Line, American Psycho, Gladiator, Prestige, Finding Neverland, Lord of the Rings, Lost Boys, The Machinist, Young Guns 2, Fight Club, Neverending Story, Usual Suspects, Cinderella Man, Kingdom of Heaven, Snatch, Finding Nemo, Legend, The Last Unicorn, Troy, Memento, Reservoir Dogs, Gone With the Wind, Grand Theft Parsons, Friday Night Lights, Youngblood, Breakfast Club, Pump Up The Volume, 3:10 to Yuma, Jarhead, Apocalypse Now, The Pianist, Garden State, 28 Days Later, 28 Weeks Later, Reign of Fire, Pirates, Band of Brothers, Oceans Eleven, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Saw, Cloverfield, Hellboy, Deer Hunter, Full Metal Jacket, Black Hawk Down (pretty much almost every war movie actually) every Indiana Jones movie. I am a huge Christopher Walken fan and he is pretty much my favorite actor. I am also a huge fan of Christian Bale and Russell Crowe and pretty much all of their movies. And I know there are a ton of movies I haven't listed, if I listed them all it would take forever.
"But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there." Christian Bale (American Psycho)
"I'm destined to be attracted to those I cannot defeat." "The important thing to me is I'm not driven by people's praise and I'm not slowed by people's criticism. I just work at the highest level I can." Russell Crowe
"...You got me in a vendetta kinda mood. You tell the angels up in heaven that you've never seen an evil so singularly personified as you did in the face of the man who killed you. " Christopher Walken (True Romance)
"When I raise my flashing sword, and my hand takes hold on judgment, I will take vengeance upon mine enemies, and I will repay those who haze me." Boondock Saints
Television:
Military Channel, History Channel, Discovery, Style, TLC, Deadliest Catch, Zim, 24, Dirty Jobs, Always Sunny in Philadelphia, America's Next Top Model, CSI, House, Prison Break, Family Guy, The Simpsons, The Daily Show, and my all-time favorite show...
Books:
First and foremost, Kurt Vonnegut was my first inspiration and motivated me to want to learn to write. My other favorite authors and favorite books by them are Chuck Palahniuk:Fight Club, Lullabye, Invisible Monsters, Choke, etc. (he is the greatest writer of my time and i personally think he is one of the most brilliant people alive), Shakespeare, Albert Camus: Myth of Sisyphus and other essays, Machiavelli, Nostradamus, Dostoevsky, James Joyce, Kurt Vonnegut: Cat's Cradle, Slaughterhouse 5, Dante Alighieri, Nietzsche: Twilight of the Idols, All of the Gregory Maguire books, The Anti-Christ. , Band of Brothers, Hey Nostradamus, Confederacy of Dunces, Vurt, Waiting Period, Portrait of Dorien Grey, Suicide Cassanova, Dante's Inferno, LOTR, Gone With The Wind, Foxfire, Fuck-up, Dogrun, Angels and Demons, DaVinci Code, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Watership Down, Narnia, How to Talk Dirty and Influence People, Orchid Thief, The Dead, Drangonlance Chronicals, Catcher In The Rye, DaVinci Code, To Reign in Hell, Crime and Punishment, The Dead, The Outcast of Redwall, Eyes of the Dragon, Le Morte de Arthur, Wicked, Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister, The Last Unicorn, Neverending Story. I also love Elizabethan Drama, Renaissance works, and English Literature.
"We are loping sequences of chemical conversions, acting ourselves converted. We are twists of genes acting ourselves twisted; we are wicks of burning neuroses acting ourselves wicked. And nothing to be done about it." (Wicked)
Heroes:
Chuck Palahniuk
He is the fucking man and brutally honest. Not to mention a damn genius.
"To live in a democracy, you must be willing to live as a saviour or a slave. To have all or nothing. And you have very little control over that choice.
Either way, you'll be lost. Destroyed. Either by yourself, out of self-hatred. Or by your society because you pose too big a threat.
Or...
Or, you can choose something different. You can learn from the destruction of others. You can create and live into a new system. You can rise above the either/or choice of being a parent versus a child. A saviour versus a slave. And you can become an adult, not rebelling against or caving into your culture, but creating a vision of your own and working to make that option into something real."
"In a world where billions believe their deity conceived a mortal child with a virgin human, it's stunning how little imagination most people display."
"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.â€
"I wanted to write about the moment when your addictions no longer hide the truth from you. When your whole life breaks down. That's the moment when you have to somehow choose what your life is going to be about.â€
"The first step - especially for young people with energy and drive and talent, but not money - the first step to controlling your world is to control your culture. To model and demonstrate the kind of world you demand to live in. To write the books. Make the music. Shoot the films. Paint the art."
