The one, the only.. Professional Freak on a Leash

Theres some things that people see on the outside that they think makes me who I am. If you think its whats on the outside then dont even bother wasting my time. Theres a lot on the inside, some things no one will ever see some that everyone sees and if you get to know me long enough maybe you'll find out more. I'm not a stereotype, I'm not a single type of anything. Very Eclectic some might say. I listen to almost all types of music, country NOT being one of them. Cars are almost a step up from women. I'm dark and distant sometimes, other times people cant stop laughing around me. I'm a geek but not a nerd. Sometimes I want to kill every idiot person in the world, sometimes I just cant help but laugh at their retardation. I'm currently typing with one hand so I think I'm Done for now. If theres anything you want to know or just want to try to get to know me better, please feel free to contact me by any means you see fit.. even if that includes yeeling for me at the top of your lungs, although I may not hear it. - Pimpin' Topher
Why is it that I know in my heart something bad is going to happen, but I go on with it anyway..
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Have you ever wondered
whats its like
to look from the other side
and see what I see
Have you ever seen
the world through my eyes
watching the pain tearing through
cracking the glass
seperating me from the world
Have you ever wanted to know
whats its like feeling this low
why the world seems to stare
but no one cares to help
Have you seen the world
through my eyes
wishing the glass would fall
so I can see whats on the other side
The world so dark
its tearing me apart
everything I've known
stayed there with them
seeing it disappear as I fall
I cant give in
but I must give up
the life pouring from my veins
clawing at the walls while I fall
darker and darker it seems
the world cannot know my pain
Have you ever watched
the glass fall down
picking me up and pulling me down
the world can be clear again
through my eyes I shall see again
Tear down my walls
build them up again
never again will I see that darkness
wont ever come back
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I look at myself in a mirror, but all I see is a blur, the life I live, and the life I want to live. I close my eyes and wish that I wasnt in reality anymore, and everytime I openthem it seems I'm further than I was.
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You're still reading, I'm impressed.. I'm a dark person, I try to make everyone happy by pretending to always be happy, but I never am.
For me, music is a part of my life, and a major part of it at that.. every emotion, everythought, theres a song for, something I can listen and relate to. I rarely dont have music going, even in my sleep I am listening to music. I listen to metal, rock, alt, techno, some punk, and thats pretty much it..
I spend a lot of time on the comp, wandering about, learning everything I can, making friends with people I'll probably never meet, its life, but not the life I want.
I've got a thing for piercings and tattoos, I want more, but I dont have the cash to get them. (Piercings: 6 Tattoos: 2), and I've also got a thing with biting.. *chomp chomp* dont know why.. but given the chance, you'd be bitten anywhere I could get my teeth, except for some spots *EG*.
I hate labels, absolutly dispise them actually. I'm not a goth, I'm not one of those 'suicidal kids', I'm just me.. Insane me. People who label people should be shot, and people who have to post pics of themselves, showing off their goods because they have no personality should be too.
I tend to keep myself quiet and watch the world around me, but there are times when I'm outgoing and make an ass of myself and everyone around me, I actually enjoy it.
Sometimes I feel the urge to scream until I pass out, only finding that nothing is coming from me.
'I need to find my sanctuary.. someplace safe. Gotta get this outta me.. this is my escape' Otep - My Confession.
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If you have the urge to talk to me, maybe even get to know me, you can bmail me, email me ([email protected]) or catch me on . EvileArchaic
- SomethingRotten