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Meadowrose

Breathe out so I can breathe you in

About Me



"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark burn out in a brilliant blaze than it be stifled by dry-rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet"
"If you like me, I'll relish you
If you love me, I'll treasure you
If you hurt me, I'll destroy you"

What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, 'This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!' Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, 'Never have I heard anything more divine?
"Flatter me and I may not believe you, criticise me and I may not like you, ignore me and I may not forgive you."
"I do it because I can
I can because I want to
I want to because you said I couldn't"

I am a thinker. It inspires me.
I like to laugh. It’s therapeutic.
I am a daydreamer. It’s an escape.
I like looking at the moon. It’s calming.
I am an optimist. Anything’s possible.
I like sunshine. It makes me feel alive.
I am honest. I couldn’t live with myself otherwise.
I like thunderstorms. They are intense and engaging.
I am loyal. I’ll always be there for those who mean a lot to me.
I like sleeping. It takes away the pain.
I am stubborn. If I know I’m right.
I like having a total connection with someone. It’s rare.
I am friendly. I don’t need enemies.
I like music. It’s uplifting.
I am laid back. Not everything on the list has to be done today.
I like writing. It eases my mind.
I have a temper. If I am pushed to the limit.
I like black. It’s intriguing.
I am never too proud to say I‘m sorry. If I know or think I’m wrong.
I like talking. It puts things into perspective.
I am a drinker. It’s a release.
I like to be cuddled. It feels safe.
I am open minded. It’s liberating.
CURRENT MOON lunar phase
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, then let it. Nobody said it'd be easy they just promised that it'd be worth it..."
"Laugh when you can
Apologise when you should
And let go of what you can't change"

My Life: The Soundtrack
Opening Credits:: Feeling Good - Muse
Average Day:: Float On - Modest Mouse
Spending time with friends:: Utopia - Goldfrapp
Driving:: No One Knows - Queens of the Stoneage
Bad day:: Breakout - Foo Fighters
Fight scene:: Hate - Charlie Drown
Mental breakdown:: Sappy - Nirvana
Life is okay:: What It's Like - Everlast
Graduation:: The Hand That Feeds - Nine Inch Nails
Longing for love:: In a Manner of Speaking - Nouvelle Vague
First glance/new crush:: The Nicest Thing - Kate Nash
Secret love:: Where's the Pleasure - Protocol
First date:: The Start of Something - Voxtrot
Falling in love:: Even When I'm Sleeping - Leonardo's Bride
Love scene:: The Sweet Fantastic - Ian Brown
Breaking up:: Don't Cry Out - Shiny Toy Guns
Long night alone:: I Wasn't Prepared - Eisley
Wishing for love to return:: Trashed - Skin
Fighting to get him/her back:: Beating Heart Baby - Head Automatica
Proposal:: Postcards from Italy - Beirut
Wedding:: Glory Box - Portishead
Reflecting on life:: Seeing Red - Killing Joke
Reflecting on love:: Tourniquet - Marilyn Manson
Death scene:: Folding Stars - Biffy Clyro
Closing credits:: Time Is Running Out - Muse
On the upside
Determined, productive, punctual, affectionate, generous, thorough, creative, loyal, clever, patient, trustworthy, warm-hearted, dependable, persistent, organised, sensuous, resourceful and good natured.
On the downside
Inflexible, argumenative, opinionated, bull headed, stubborn, jealous, self righteous, possessive, obstinate, self centered, materialistic, head strong and lustful apparently!

My Interests


In no particular order...

- people watching
- capital punishment
- law
- the mind
- music
- talking
- sunshine
- writing
- cows
- caffeine
- vodka shots
- peanut butter
- dancing
- vodka
- creme eggs
- time
- mangos
- venus flytraps
- sleep
- pool
- tortoises
- cacti
- stars
- maps
- quotes...

"There is no real me only an entity
Something illusory
And though I can hide my cold gaze
And you can shake my hand
And feel flesh gripping yours
And maybe you can even sense that our lifestyles are probably comparable
I simply am not there."

I'd like to meet:



"The days are bright and filled with pain
Enclose me in your gentle rain
The time you ran was too insane
We'll meet again, we'll meet again."

"And I heard as it were the noise of thunder
One of the four beasts saying come and see and I saw
And behold a white horse
And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts
And I looked and behold, a pale horse
And his name that sat on him was Death
And Hell followed with him."

Music:


Anet, Bright Eyes, Broadcast, Charlie Drown, Client, Combichrist, Counting Crows, Crowbar, Eagles of Death Metal, Elysian Fields, Flyleaf, Foo Fighters, Frou Frou, Garbage, Gotye, Hole, Howling Bells, Iggy Pop, Jack off Jill, L7, Little Birdy, Ministry, Modest Mouse, Motorhead, Mudvayne, Muse, Mushroomhead, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Puddle of Mudd, Rage Against the Machine, Skunk Anansie, Rammstein, Raveonettes, Sex Pistols, Sham69, Shiny Toy Guns, Starsailor, The Cure, The Dead Kennedys, The Distillers, The Doors, The Kills, The Ramones, Thrice, Velvet Revolver

Movies:


"For the first time in my life I spoke to him. I said "Why didn't you ever love me?"
"Even though I'm no more than a monster - don't I, too, have the right to live?"
"When they send for you, you go in alive, you come out dead, and it's your best friend that does it"
"It's moments like this that either make you or break you. Either you live with it, or you crack up. Now which one's it going to be?"
"Fantasies have to be unrealistic. Because the minute, the second, that you get what you want, you don't, you can't, want it anymore"
"I know I'm gonna lose here. But I'll be the best second you've ever seen"
"They don't want me they want my death"
"Even ugliness looks beautiful next to you"
"I know what you're thinking but don't give up on me just yet"
"Life is the ultimate experience and you have to live it to write about it"
"I choose Vodka and Chaka Khan"
"A need like nothing else I've ever known will soon take hold of me. It's on its way"
"You had to go swimming in her eyes. Dancing in her hair"
"I am so scared! I don't know what's out there. We are going to die out here! I'm so scared!"
"I said, I'm not gonna hurt ya. I'm just gonna bash your brains in. I'm gonna bash 'em right the fuck in"
"I like these calm little moments before the storm. It reminds me of Beethoven. Can you hear it? It's like when you put your head to the grass and you can hear the growin' and you can hear the insects"
"Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back"
"Which one of you nuts has got any guts?"
"I'm not sayin' she's a bragger, but if you've been to Paradise, she's got a season ticket"
"Someone loved it intensely for one day"
"Never trust a junkie"
"I'm not threatening you mate. It's beyond fucking words. I watched over you when you were asleep and I looked at your fucking neck and I was that far away from slicing it"

Television:


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All Change

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Posted by Meadowrose on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 09:29:00 PST

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Posted by Meadowrose on Sun, 28 Jan 2007 07:18:00 PST

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Posted by Meadowrose on Fri, 19 Jan 2007 11:24:00 PST

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Posted by Meadowrose on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 02:21:00 PST

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Posted by Meadowrose on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 10:57:00 PST

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Posted by Meadowrose on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 11:30:00 PST

I who have nothing

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Posted by Meadowrose on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 02:32:00 PST