Fun, Intelligent, Focused
I'm loud, obnoxious, crazy at times, and for those who know me I can be the real life of the party! My inner shell is composed of something totally opposite. I'm a scared and insecure individual constantly searching for fulfillment. I feel as though I have an obligation to become successful. Not successful as the world sees it-as surpassing others-but as fulfilling my full potential and helping others achieve the same triumph. I am terrified of failure. So I go to school to compensate for my insecurities. I figure the best way to get over that fear is to learn as much as possible so that I can develop a pathway to happiness, my happiness.
It would sadden me (not that it really would matter) if I died not knowing all that I could have known about this world and the people on it, so I maintain a thirst for knowledge and experience. I love to read, write, travel, laugh and have fun while learning. I like meeting new interesting individuals because I won't be able to experience everything while i'm here but I can gain from learning from others'. So.......holla!!!
My favorite color is blue. I believe in black pride. I'm something short of a genius. I enjoy walking and talking to myself. I talk to myself a lot, rehearsing things that I would like to tell people but don't, sometimes I talk to myself about my future plans, then other times I think back on a situation and replay it in my mind and say what I shoulda, coulda, woulda have said if I had just thought to say it at the time. I am a social person in environments in which I feel comfortable. I think before I do most things. I think things through but don't consider myself a good planner because sometimes I don't think things through. I suck at planning successfully so that's why I settle for being spontaneous. I like making money and spending money. I like to look at myself in the mirror. Not in a conceited sort of way but in a "Damn, I look kinda good" sorta way. I spend at least 10 minutes looking at myself in the mirror every morning. When passing by mirrors, I always look at myself from the corner of my eye to examine myself. I like to shop. I love to listen to music. I love to play music (viola). I like listening to others talk.I like to drive fast. I like being an asshole. I like to workout. I don't like talking on the phone unless you got something interesting to say. As long as a person is thought-provoking, we're cool....I hate boring ass people, I hate people who aren't about shit, don't have any future dreams or aspirations, and I hate people who are more concerned about what others think of them than how they really feel about themselves. (When I say hate, I don't mean hate like hate hate, i mean hate like really really really dislike....u know.) I love to chill with people who are interesting to me......but what I've come to discover is that not many people are that interesting to me and most just sort of fall into a "typical" category (and that's not attractive) following the latest trends and living content with the status quo. I like weird people, crazy people, like myself. I like people who express individuality somehow. I drink alcohol.....that makes me happy! I like being happy. I am rarely sad. I fear failure. I want to be successful. I have dreams. Goals. I will be successful.
