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i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL..

i'LL TAKE YOU BY THE HAND && i'LL SHOW YOU A WORLD YOU CAN UNDERSTAND..

About Me


hmmm.. What to say about me.. well 1st off..
Im Allie..
PEOPLE!! ITS ALLIE!! WITH AN i AND AN E!!!
I'm super hyper almost 100% of the time.. I love having lots of fun.. But I can also just sit in a car with someone for hours and talk about nothing, and I still wont get bored.. I have anger issues.. ((It's scary sometimes..)) I'm not Emo, Scene or anything else you fuckers say I am.. I'm fucking Allie, I'm insane but it's fun.. I don't promise things I can't keep and one promise I have been able to keep for my entire life is that with me you Wont get bored.. I enjoy drinking on occasion but only with my best friend Rhiannon..((I'll tell you more about her later..)) I love being happy, but there are days that I'm not and when it's one of those days I highly suggest you just let me be.. I have Severe trust issues.. I have many issues.. like I said up there ^^, I'm Insane.. If you think your better than me, think again. If you think your hotter, haha thats almost funny.. I can be very cocky.. Oh, and trust me, if your going to message me and make me try and think otherwise.. .. YOUR WASTING YOUR TIME!! I love being around crowds of people.. and I love attention.. No, I wont go cut myself.. I don't like that attention.. Sheesh. I have been given the gift of words.. I can ruin someone with just talking to them.. If your not important to me, you'll know. And If I don't like you.. By God you will very well know it.. Don't call me a pussy, because most likely I'll kick your ass, and the sad thing is I wont even stop smiling.. You'll never see me cry unless my whole life has gone down the drain.. and so far thats only happened once..
Now, about my best friend Rhiannon.. She's my number one on my top friends, and no-one can replace her so don't even try.. She's been there for me when everyone has turned their heads, while whispering "I'm not wasting my time on the psycho bitch." And for that I love her.. No-one else in the world knows me better than this girl, and if you think you do.. I can surely put you back below her where you belong.. Well, that her.. More about me!!!
I'm a really jealous person.. Like really I can get pissed at a cat for getting more attention from that special someone than me.. I'm a sap when it comes to guys, but when it comes to girl I'm the biggest playa out there.. ((Sorry Girls)) Oh, and Yes.. For you little confused people out there I am bi. But I have a tendency of HATING girls.. Besides Rhiannon, girls are only good for whats between they're legs.. ^.^ When I'm in a really bad mood I go crazy and clean EVERYTHING!! There isn't any music that I won't listen to.. I like it all.. I'm loud and proud.. As my mom, well she used to always tell me to speak my mind..((she stopped saying that when I learned "cuss" words...)) I won't change a thing about me, and if you think your going to try and change me.. you can go FUCK YOUR SELF!
well, if theres anything more you want to know message me.. Peace out nukkas..

My Interests

I’ve given up on giving up slowly.. I’m blending in so you won’t even know me.. Apart from this whole world that shares my fate.. This one last bullet you mention.. It’s my one last shot at redemption.. Cause I know to live you must give your life away..And I’ve been housing all this doubt.. And insecurity.. And I’ve been locked inside that house.. All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out.. And that might be the death of me.. And even though there’s no way of knowing.. Where to go.. I promise I’m going because..I gotta get out of here.. I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake.. I gotta get out of here..

I'd like to meet:

Hmm, I already met them..

Movies:

Anything with Johnny Depp or Will Smith in it soo..

Television:

Fresh Prince of Belair.. and I cant think of anymore..

Books:

Red is for Remeberance Silver is for Secrets White is for Magic Blue is for Nightmares.. and can't forget about the lovely Go Ask Alice and more.. I guess..

Heroes:

hmm, my dad.. why, because he has put up with my mom much longer than I have..

My Blog

I don't want to live this lie..

Beauty in a corner,Baby all alone,Sinking fatally, sinking fast.Slipping far to the unknown of her past.She cares about her imageShe has so much to hideShe tries so hard to drownThose empty feelings i...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:24:00 PST

My New Work.

Old Habits Die Hard...I have fallen victim to my old habitsThe ones that you never knew aboutEveryone thinks I've got it all togetherBut I could give plenty of room for doubtReality doesn't seem quite...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:20:00 PST

"Alyssa Lies.."

"Alyssa lies to the classroom,Alyssa lies everyday at school,Alyssa lies to the teachersas she tries to cover every thing.."Alot of things I've done lately.. I regret.. I lost the best friend anyone c...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 03:25:00 PST

Have you ever...?

Have you ever wanted so bad to just write down everything that is going through your head? Have you ever just wanted to scream at the person that is constantly hurting you?Have you ever wanted to tell...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 04:09:00 PST

October 3rd..

Today was pain full.. and I don't know how to describe it..It was both physically and mentally painful.. Only a select few know why.. If your not one of those few.. Don't ask.. Please.. Just know that...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Wed, 04 Oct 2006 04:43:00 PST

bleh, all good things come to an end sometime right?

I never felt like this before..Josh is an amazing guy.. He makes me unbelieveably happy..But what gets me down..Is the thought that I have to keep in the back of my mind..He's going off to college..T...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Fri, 29 Sep 2006 05:48:00 PST

He's My Dork..

So, theres this guy..Even though he's my bestfriends brother..He's also my boyfriend..He's a great guy.. and I really like him ^.^Rhiannon tells me that shes so happy about Us((God it feels good to sa...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Sun, 10 Sep 2006 05:07:00 PST

I guess she'll just never understand..

I guess I made a mistake.. I thought that maybe this time.. Things would be okay with me.. But once again.. I was wrong.. I thought that this would work.. I thought it would be Perfect.. Then I sta...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Thu, 24 Aug 2006 04:00:00 PST

The Stars Are Bright.. I Might Make A Wish.. Pfft I Don't Believe In That Shit..

Man, I'm awake again.. Its 1 AM.. Can you be everything I need you to be? Its just me, and this lovely computer screen.. Its starting to be a strong execration to me.. I can't sleep because of the t...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 12:49:00 PST

Just came home from the best night ever..

I just spent like three hours driving around with my Brother B.. I love riding around with him because theres no reason to worry.. Its like when were out time freezes and yet still goes on.. When I'm...
Posted by i'D RATHER FEEL PAiN THEN NOTHiNG AT ALL.. on Thu, 23 Mar 2006 12:57:00 PST