:Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again

About Me

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The biggest fear is the fear of the unknown.To take a deep breath take a step forward and aniticipate what's going to happen next.Taking Risks.Being willing to take a step further and seeing where you'll wind up. Sponteneity is key.I'm not out to please the world. I won't ever be there to make everyone happy. Life so far has been a ride, pleanty of challenges to come. I've accomplished alot in a short amount of time.I've found a new appreciation for the simplicity of things. A lot of growing has happened this past year.I am sick and tired. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood,misguided and mislead. I am hard working and determined, but a little scared on the inside. I wish on stars and dream my dreams.I cry my tears.I walk on eggshells and I walk on fire. I believe in passion and true love. I love you and I push you away.I want you but not too close.If your close to me, your my world. Music is the best form of expression this world has, it ispires. I write in my free time or when I just have something to, I write like I speak for many others when I put my mind to one topic. I'm a bitch but I'll have your back if I know your standing for something that's right.I've played the games time and time again there's nothing you can throw at me that will be a suprise anymore.So whatever you have, I got you. I stopped taking peoples comments to heart and at this point in my life. I can't always stand my ground even when the time calls for it but I know me and I know when I'm untouchable.I can fall to pieces just like anyone else I cry, I bleed and my heart breaks, but I always stand on my own two feet in the end.Life will bring you down it's just how it is...don't let it make you stay at the bottom, don't let it make you bitter or angry. I wouldn't be the woman I am today without all the experiances I've endured in this life.My dream is to simply succeed and before I die,to climb a mountain and sing from the tip top! And to look back on my life when I'm 75 and think Life it was all worth it.Life is beautiful live every moment and take it in, cherish it, and appreciate the people you come across through out it..I do me, I live MY life how I want to live it.
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Enjoy the simplicity of thingsLiving in your letters,I'm always assuming the worst But you're going on none the less And there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall. Letters from further away keep pulling me close to home And there's something to cushion my callous sighs. And I know that you hope for longer good-byes Embracing for forever and falling in your eyes. Pouring over photographs I'm living in your letters Breathe deeply from this envelope it smells like you and I can't be without that scent It's filling me with all you mean to me To me.Continually failing these trials But you stand by me nonetheless And you won't let me sink though I'm beggin you I'm beggin you. Phone calls from further away and messages on my machine But I don't ever tell you this distance seems terrible. There is no need to test my heart, with useless space These roads go on forever, there'll always be a place For you In my heart.So I'll hit the pavement it's gotta be better than waiting And pushing you far away cause I'm scared So I'll take my chances and head on my way up there Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.We all find Comfort in lies.It's so much prettier than the truth.It hurts less.A beautiful lie can have you floating in air, the truth can send you to hell.I've seen beautiful stories come out of lies but truth always sends things crashing down.Which would you prefer?Beautiful lies of course.-MeBecause I'm diluted & perfectly flawed..i shall live by passion & not by law..& I'm insecure.I need aggression to feed the spiders of perception & I'm supposed to be strong & have all the answers..a cannibal in the new church of cancer.

I'd like to meet:

I want to sit and grow old with friends I've known from younger years and remember the stupid things we had done and laugh as if it were just yesterday.And through all the pain pleasures and sorrows life had brought us we stuck by one another.
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I don't ask for alot. Simplicity is complex. I want someone who will learn me and learn from me and know how I am and how I work and know how they can fix me and for myself to be able to the same. I'm am beautifully broken and through my sorrows I have learned and still long and want what I'm looking for. Looking isn't even the word but more of a hope that maybe someday the cards will be delt in my favor. Moments are meant to be cherished and treasured and when love is involved seems as if those moments fade quickly and goodbyes occure more often. All I want is to love and be loved. To experiance affection and know it's from the heart. To have passion in it's purist form. I want realism. Knowing everyday wont be a good day and even though it's shared in silence it's ok because the person who is there sharing it with you dispite mixed feelings of anger and love. To know even in silence the feeling your not alone passes through the both of you. I want to smile and not realize I'm smiling. Kiss as if it's an addiction I can't ignore and hug and know that I won't have to let go. I want those arms wrapped around my waist so tight that your grounded. I want to be seen and though I have so many inperfections I'm still beautiful to him. I want to make someone smile and feel like its ok to be goofy and show me that side not many get to see.I want him and all that he is around me. I want that corney snuggeling bit. I want to witness those little quirks he has that are just utterly cute to me that he didnt even know he did. I want to make him happy. I want to make him laugh and smile.My heart has carried the weight of every relationship I've been in and for each after they have had to make up for the last ones mistakes. So maybe that one will come around who will be willing to go through the barriers which now more than ever gaurd me but to them I'm worth the effort and maybe they can get me to let go of all the cracks my heart has. It's time to let go of what was in my past.Desire what you want

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Desire what you want

Music:

My taste in music is very extensive so this is just a small percentage like 1% of what I listen to.

Movies:

I like a lot of movies if they're good they're worth watching.It's way too many to name off.Movies are always better to watch with someone anyways..................

Television:

Sex and the City,Will and Grace, The Family Guy, The Simpsons,everybody loves raymond,the 70's show,yes dear,charmed.Anything that's really on that I'm interested in.

Books:

Incubus Dreams

Heroes:

There are a lot of people I would consider a hero to me. My mother above all of them. She has this incredible courage and strength to her that I've never seen in another human being. She has taken so mnay hits and gone through so many hardships but still keeps going because she knows she has to. She'll never let anyone take her down.I'm sure no one ever will. God himself will get a fight out of her. Diana we've gone through all the awkwards of life and through miles of seperation and countries we've remained sisters. I hope you know your a strong woman and you can take anything on and even if you feel you can't you will because all of us who love you will be right behind you to catch you. Ashley you are definalty a sister to me. Tho it hasn't been a decade or more of a friendship we have a bond no one else has. We prove first impressions are for sure not right! Iraq it was if you go I go and that's how it went. Your a lifelong friend and through all the bad I'm glad they put your new join butt in Room 104!!!Wet hugs!!

My Blog

Sometimes things are bad

Sometimes when you know something is bad for and some people are bad for you , you go ahead and go for it. Most of the time the outcome is bad and you end up feeling like shit but somehow you think ma...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 07:18:00 PST

Flames to dust, Lovers to friends.

Of course this blog will come to no suprise for any of you. Yet again I find myself with that deep pit in my stomach and swallowing back the emotions like it's a pill. I've stumbled into quick sand an...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Fri, 29 Feb 2008 01:35:00 PST

My Sin My Drug My Poison

The hugs the kisses the naps in the afternoon. The hugs from behind when he grabs your waist and everything seems it's perfectly in place. His lips you could kiss forever and forever turned out to be ...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 04:29:00 PST

When focus is blurred

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I thought supporting my "friends" would be worth it. Keeping them in my heart and my prayers hoping for the best in their lives when in return you get a knife not only stabbi...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 07:10:00 PST

Save me from myself

It's not so easy loving meIt gets so complicatedAll the things you gotta beEverything's changingBut you're the truthI'm amazed by all your patienceEverything I put you throughAnd when I'm about to fal...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 05:12:00 PST

Still waiting to breath....

and when I catch myself lost in thought of how relaxed and how good it felt not to have to be anything or anyone different than who i was around you. Don't forget me. Whatever you do, don't. Your lett...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 06:53:00 PST

Majicks in the makeup .

I drove back to my own hell. I can't even describe my misery here anymore. How much I hate the person I become in this enviornment and it all seems out of my control. I get respect for what I do and s...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 04:03:00 PST

Viewers read this if you'r not on my friends.

I'm sure there are a select few who even will choose to read this,those people I know,This blog is for some of the idiots who keep emailing me. I have no interest in getting to know you.I'm on here fo...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 11:48:00 PST

I could spend my life...

Life is all about timing. Being in the right place at the right time. Life also deals you any number of cards and you either find yourself with a winning hand or you lose the game.But the best part, i...
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 06:01:00 PST

Take my breath away

sometimes even if you know not to start,you like the fact that someone can still take your breath away.
Posted by :Lizz:They love me,they hate me,they love me again on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 05:32:00 PST