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About Me

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....-I plan to defy gravity with a machiavellian attitude and a cynisism no romanticized-dunce can spoil. I am a terrorist with words, and will utterly slaughter you when given the opportunity. Settle that mind of yours, loss-of-dignity is one of the more creative ways to go. Charming? Oh, yes. Charmed? I've heard it all. "Some say she's crazy..." I say,"She's me."
I live to break your stereotypes. I am a revolution in the making. California-bound-destiny. What Hollywood craves, but will never attain. Something real, something timeless. A lack of plasticity in their sugar-coated shallow quagmire. I may be blonde. I may be tall. I may be tan. But get one thing straight, I am not like the rest of them. No, I won't die my hair black, laden my eyes with charcoal, or wear clothing from thrift stores in Japan. No, I will not lace my "about me" with obscure lyrics that neither you nor I know the origin of. Because I am not out to prove my individuality by how I look, how I dress, or essentially, how I seem. My mind is my most prized possession. It is my steel trap. And its capabilities are far more prevalent than your precious "scene points". It sets me apart. It makes me who I am. And it is the only thing that makes me truly different. Your pants may cut off a little bit more circulation, you may show less emotion at shows than any living thing is required, and maybe, just MAYBE, you might have more friends than me on myspace, but that blonde over there, has a mind of her own. In a world where the female society is coming to a bitter close, I AM underestimated. Don't underestimate me. If you do, you're gravely mistaken. I would rather die young making a difference than live a long life of mediocrity. And mark my words, my name will be on the lips of many long after I'm gone. I am determined and driven, and nothing will stop me. My life is an intricately woven web of satire and sarcasm. And remember one thing, never enter one's head alone.

My Interests

The All-Just, the All-Righteous, the All-Good, the All-Merciful, the All-Forgiving, the All-Truthful, the All-Loving, the Source of all Morality.courage, cowardice, ferocity, gentleness, fairness, justice, cunning, treachery, cruelty, magnanimity, malice, malignity, lust, mercy, pity, purity, selfishness, sweetness, honor, love, hate, baseness, nobility, loyalty, falsity, veracity, untruthfulness....

I'd like to meet:

Out of 6 billion people? Donnie Darko, I suppose.

Music:

The kind society warns you about. The kind you'd never listen to. The kind that erupts inside your ears, and causes that lemon in your throat, that hollow in your stomach. The kind that you can cry, scream, dance, and sleep to. The kind that a million females will be hyperventilating about if it ever ends up on MTV. The good kind.

Movies:

Donnie Darko. Fight Club. Lord of War.

Television:

the media is evil.

Books:

GATES OF FIRE. Rabbit Run. Rabbit Redux. Rabbit Gets Rich. Rabbit At Rest. Cat's Cradle. Timequake. Slaughterhouse Five. Breakfast of Champions. Sirens of Titan. Deadeye Dick. Welcome to the Monkey House. Even Cowgirls Get the Blues. Fierce Invalids Home From Hot Climates. Another Roadside Attraction. Catcher In the Rye. Catch 22. Wild Ducks Flying Backwards. Complete Edgar Allen Poe Anthology. Still Life With Woodpecker. Animal Farm. Tarantula. The Red Pony. The Grapes of Wrath. Letters From The Earth. Fiasco. Death Be Not Proud. The Rapture of Canaan.The October Country. What Hearts. Farenheit 451. Candide. Hemingway. Sex, Drugs, And Coco Puffs. The Book of Science Literacy. A Brief History of Time. The Universe In a Nutshell. Lord of the Flies. Johnny Tremain.

Heroes:

Jesus. Vonnegut.

My Blog

"I’m drowning in a digital sea."

"I woke, cold and aloneAdrift in an open seaCaught up in regretsAnd tangled in netsInstead of your arms wrapped around meAnd I wept, but my tears are anathema hereJust more water to fill my lungsI hea...
Posted by madeline. on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 08:34:00 PST

Indifference or something like it.

This is the documentation of every thought that has gone through my head in the past week. The dust collects on the table where a family once sat. The afternoon sun catches these messy remains, a...
Posted by madeline. on Thu, 18 Oct 2007 02:37:00 PST

Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.

I have been struggling through an utterly crippling case of writer's block, lately... The words just haven't been oozing from my pores quite as they used to. Lack of inspiration, I suppose. Every now ...
Posted by madeline. on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 09:28:00 PST

Excuse me whilst I cough up vital organs.

Tonight I will turn my skin inside-out. And tonight I will let the insects weave in-between my toes. Where everyone can see them. Utterly transfixed by the fan upon my ceiling, One rotation, two rotat...
Posted by madeline. on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 09:12:00 PST

Health? haha, screw health.

My body hates me. No time to sleep, no time to eat. I am, most certainly, reaping the benefits. Thank you, honors classes, for blessing me with your obscene amount of homework. Thank you, varsity bask...
Posted by madeline. on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 08:05:00 PST

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To feel alone in a world of clones,could quite possibly be the worst lonliness known. Newest tongue-twister...or was that you? My mind has gone temporarily astray, my mask has gone semi-permanant. Oh,...
Posted by madeline. on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:47:00 PST

Winter

Hopefully, two years from now, we can look back on tonight and say, "Remember that time, when we wrote our names in the snow? When we kissed behind that restaurant? Remember how the flakes stuck to yo...
Posted by madeline. on Sun, 21 Jan 2007 10:09:00 PST

giving que to my idecesiveness

Breathe in for luck,breathe in so deep,this air is blessed,you share with me.This night is wild,so calm and dull,these hearts they race,from self control.Your legs are smooth,as they graze mine,we're ...
Posted by madeline. on Tue, 09 Jan 2007 01:45:00 PST

Never been in this situation before.

My rebuttal,"You confuse me." His reply,"I interest you." Brown eyes. Brown hair. Sitting, non-chalant, I can imagine you. Brushing it out of your vision. Both match the color of chocolate. I am&...
Posted by madeline. on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 05:42:00 PST

new year

I'm a little lost in translation...a little overwhelmed...2006 was, well, another year. Some of you may recall that around this time, in 2005, I posted a blog of the same kind. This one may not be as ...
Posted by madeline. on Sat, 09 Dec 2006 10:16:00 PST