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angry_grrl

I'd Rather Have a Bottle in Front of me than a Frontal Lobotomy

About Me

So I suppose the is the part that's about me. Well lets see..... It's gotten to the point where I must lie about my age. I can tell you my real age: 25ish or I can tell you the age I look: 16ish. PREDATOR'S BEWARE!!!! I JUST MAY BE LEGAL!!!!! At one point i thought i was too old to be acting childish and looking like i was still in high school, but what can I do about that? Nuthin' so I think i'm over it. That's part of my generation. 30s are the new 20s right? So then according to this logic the 20's are the new teens therefore I look my age. I work with people with mental illness. I love my job! They say it takes one to know one! I must say, knowing the background of the majority of the clinicians I work with, this particular saying is TRUE!!! That brings me to my favorite pass time: attending as much therapy as I can afford. Two years and counting..... SHEOW!!!! I'm really into knowing why I think the way I do and feel the way I do and why the fuck I am this way. I'm strange get over it!!!! At least..... thats what I've been told since I was a kid.I like to write, that doesn't mean anything.... but i wish it did. Where most people are conscious of what they wear I'm pretty much a slob. I wear whatever doesn't smell too bad. When I have time I have varying degrees of clean/dirty clothes. My system depends mostly where my clothes are. When they get into the hamper, it's over. So clothes on the floor, on the chair, and the hanger are fair game. Sometimes I don't wash my face for months at a time, but no one knows because it doesn't look like it (probably more information than you want to know.) I was blessed with a good complexion so I never wear makeup, but when I do i'm pretty good at it. Mostly though its just for fun. My tastes seem to run with the seedy underbelly of most major cities. I love dive bars with sticky tables that don't care if you smoke inside. Alcohol tolerance is really high. Quit drinking for a year and the next time I had three cocktails with only a slight buzz. My friend had the same 3 drinks and she threw up. I guess I'll never be a cheap date.....*sigh* Johnny Walker Black Label neat is my drink of choice though this fluctuates since I like sweet "girly" drinks too. This woman at work may have just sealed my fate: she gave me a flask last week. I've already used it, bought some OJ on the way to work.... If you notice I don't have many friends. Most of the ones chosen are people that I actually know or have met. I put a lot of energy into my friendships. Its well worth being my friend although i'm hard to be friends with.... so i make up for it by showing them how much i love them. Oh yeah, here's where I'm going to say the thing that makes peoples eyes light up when I tell them; then all of a sudden I'm an instant friend (i'm theirs, they aren't necessarily mine)....ready? "I went to bartending school." ****************** update... I now hate my job due to having a suck ass program head. I've loved Tom Waits for several years, but my interest has increased 64 fold. Living on the nickel is difficult. I've had clients there before. Hobos and junkies....I love them and I help them. now......back to my flask.
You're the Hipster Intellecticus. Call yourself
what you will (beatnik, philosophy major,
liberal arts student), you're still hip and you
still dig Kerouac.
What Kind of Hipster Are You?
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Your Birthdate: November 14
With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them.You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing.You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel.You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable.Your mind is quick, clever and analytical.A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it.You have a tendency to shirk responsibility. What Does Your Birth Date Mean? This is true for the most Part.
What Your Sleeping Position Says
You have a passion for everything - including sleeping.
Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well.
You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers.
You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.
What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?
You Are 70% Weird
You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks! How Weird Are You?
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My Interests

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Pilaging and Plundering and Being vile and vulgar are always fun. My cat is highly interesting; she scratched the palm of my hand and now i have another lifeline. I am very much a dork, recently I have discovered that I enjoy math, no matter how many wrong answers I get. I like nerdy boys.....grrrowl. However, I'm in this strange mood lately where I don't think men/males/boys are intelligent and they are selfish, lazy self centered maroons! I'm sure I'll get out of this mood once I'm proven wrong. I've been waiting three years and counting. Come On Boys, Prove me wrong! Lets see I find conversating with people who follow all rules, question nothing, and don't have independent thoughts difficult. I really have to censor myself around these people, so I try not to be around them. Mostly I'm anti-social, the kind where you don't really talk to people, not the diagnosable one where you have no conscious, however, pour me something tasty and intoxicating and I become fun....usually. I'm more of a binge drinker, don't like to waste time. Get me where I'm supposed to be......fast! Got so drunk I lost my phone. Should be a song. I like Mississippi Delta Blues, the story of Robert Johnson....Enid from the comic/movie Ghost World is based on me. It's too fucking freaky. There are so many similarities; tiny detailed ones, like the model of tv used in the movie was the one I grew up with, to the song that got her into the blues. "Devil Got My Woman." I would say that Enid was me in High School.

I'd like to meet:

align=center You Are 35% American
America: You don't love it or want to leave it.
But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.
On the 4th of July, you'll fly an upside down flag instead...
And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch! FUCKER!!!! How American Are You?

You're Bettie Page!

What Classic Pin-Up Are You? ...

Music:

I have a radio station online that pretty much answers this question. It's pretty good I think. Indie music, blues, jazz, eclectic mix. Tom Waits, elliot smith, Mississippi John Hurt, Robert Johnson, Zero 7, johnny cash, rage against the machine, Pink Martini, shins, yeah yeah yeahs, Nick Drake, horrorpops, Sinatra, Beethoven, Sex Pistols, Ramones, Tom Jones, Mazzy Star, Le Tigre, Billie Holiday, Nirvana, The Doors (i was "the doors girl" in high school), rolling stones, beck, digable planets, nin, money mark, portishead, gotan project, mozart, lovage, patsy cline, peggy lee, jimi hendrix, radiohead, madelaine peyroux, and more I have yet to discover I'm sure.

Movies:

I love quirky/artsy/pulp(y?) movies: taxi driver, sexy beast, snatch, quills, sid and nancy, buffalo 66, dogma, usual suspects, pulp fiction, requiem for a dream, fear and loathing in las vegas, ghost world, royal tenenbaums, batman, se7en, punch drunk love, stand by me, pi, office space, sin city, amelie, basquiat, way of the gun, drugstore cowboy....a bunch more i can't remember. i forgot to mention my increasingly unhealthy infatuation with Benicio Del Toro. I love him....I really really do! I actually saw him once on the street. I literally couldn't breathe and I broke out in a sweat. We were in different lanes and he was on the phone, he didn't even see me. Whew, is it hot in here?!

Television:

Hi, my name is rosa and I'm addicted to television. If it were up to me I'd be at home watching whatever makes me numb. To allow me to actually live my life I purchased a TIVO. This allows me to watch my favorite programming on the weekends. Godam! the best invention ever!!!!!! Most people find this funny: I don't have cable. What the hell do you Tivo you may ask. There are several quality programming shows on network television, like: House, Lost, Medium, Arrested Development (i miss you, come back!), CSI (anytown USA), Law and Order SVU, ER (I hated it when I actually worked in one; now I think it makes me remeniscent), Family Guy, The Office, My Name is Earl. Reruns: Seinfeld, Simpsons, King of the Hill. oh yeah I like nature shows. Who gets Tivo and records Jeff Corwin Animal Adventures? I do!

Books:

books? who has time to read? my nose is pretty much in math books these days. i just discovered podcasts. good for grabbing some culture on the commute home. Lets see....Currently I'm reading and participating in a very dry book by Zumadahl it's called Introduction to Chemistry. Since this is what my reading material is these days I'll list some authors that I've read and admired in the past. However, I must mention my favorite book. this is far from original, i know, but I feel like this book largely shaped my personality and beliefs: To Kill A Mockingbird. Admired authors/book titles: Jack Kerouac, Eugene O'Neil, Plato, Faust, Dante's Inferno, Purgatory, and Paradise, Hunter Thompson, Oscar "Zeta" Acosta, Sylvia Plath, Neitzsche, Dostroyevsky (sp), Marx, Franz Kafka, Oscar Wilde, more that I'll list when I'm not so far away from my books. I like to read classic literature and philosophy books. Wish I had more brain capacity and time for this. I'm highly fascinated with devil stuff, this probably comes from my strict Catholic upbringing. Devil stuff meaning the subjects of exorcism, possession, films like omen, exorcism, etc. I find it fascinating that most cultures have their own form of hell.

Heroes:



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My Blog

Warning: upcoming TMI!!!!

I don't think my previous apartment was meant for me. Does that mean that I wasted 3 years of my life. Were the intimate happenings of my bedroom all for naught? Que? Hmmm, I don't recall vomiting in ...
Posted by angry_grrl on Tue, 10 Oct 2006 07:56:00 PST

Catholic curiosity

Friday night. Elisa and I tempt our fate by going to see THE OMEN. I like scary movies, however, most of them are anything but. I saw the original, but I don't remember it very well. One of the FUCKI...
Posted by angry_grrl on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 10:29:00 PST

Coyote and Road Runner antics

On Wednesday I had the worst morning EVER! As I describe this feel free to appreciate the hillarity of it all. I'm FINE, so it's okay to laugh. Slapstick Wednesday morning: I just bought a refrigerato...
Posted by angry_grrl on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 09:46:00 PST

Man eating snake.....literally....

OH MY GOD!!!!! Remind me to never pass out drunk outdoors in Australia.I'M sure this will freak some people out, but I find it amazing!!!!!!The story: An Australian sheep farmer was puzzled at the dis...
Posted by angry_grrl on Sat, 03 Jun 2006 10:15:00 PST

Remembering

So today we had a memorial service for him. I didn't go. people were asking me if i was okay all day. Were we that close? I didn't know....after further thought I realized we were. He attended my art ...
Posted by angry_grrl on Fri, 26 May 2006 10:44:00 PST

He died

I'm sad. A client at work died. Normally death slides off my back without a snag. Today seemed to go as usual. I heard he died "Holy shit!!" but then i saw his psychiatrist bawling. This triggered som...
Posted by angry_grrl on Thu, 25 May 2006 11:34:00 PST

depression passes

As I breathe the deep air of a smoggy Los Angeles night I come to the conclusion that the sound of trickling water makes me want to pee. i need to add more water to the turtle's aquarium. So many thin...
Posted by angry_grrl on Fri, 02 Dec 2005 09:01:00 PST

It used to take 8 drinks

48 hours ago my head whipped back and forth up and down. What was the occassion? No food, wellbutrin effexor, and 1 mixed alcoholic drink and a half. Head banging hair swinging action. I was indeed a ...
Posted by angry_grrl on Tue, 11 Oct 2005 12:30:00 PST

leave of absence

TIVO TO THE RESCUE! now that the new seasons for my favorite shows have begun my TIVO has been working overtime. I have a test on Wednesday on Pre-calculus. How can I fit in shower, studying, and Fami...
Posted by angry_grrl on Mon, 03 Oct 2005 09:00:00 PST

Dessert To Die For - Literally!

So i'm jonesing really bad for a Mudpie twister. I got hooked the last time I was in Fresno. DAMN YOU FOSTER'S FREEZE GODS! It was late Saturday Night and I had planned my route so that at the end...
Posted by angry_grrl on Thu, 15 Sep 2005 09:13:00 PST