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All scripture is inspired by GOD and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives.  It straightens us out and teaches us to do what is  right.  It is GOD's way of preparing us in every way, fully equipped for every good thing GOD wants us to do 
        2 Timothy 3:16-17
For the time is coming when people will no longer listen to right teaching.  They will follow their own desires and will look for teachers who will tell them whatever they want to hear.  They will reject the truth and follow strange myths.
   2 Timothy 4:3-4
We are the temple of the living GOD.  As GOD has said:  " I WILL BE THEIR GOD, AND WALK AMONG THEM, AND I WILL BE THEIR GOD AND THEY WILL BE MY PEOPLE.
2 Corinthians 6:16................................
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nobody ever said that this road would be easy
but nobody ever said it would this hard either!
though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
i shall fear no evil...
but what wasn't said is that
as a child of THE MOST HIGH, you are a target
a walking living breathing target
not only for CHRISTian "haters"
but especially for the devil himself
we are so hated by him
and not in the warmly "haters" way
he literally hates our existence
and desires only to wipe us out.
  we are targets for him because he no longer has free reign in our lives
he no longer controls us with the sin's of this world
we are longer lying down to all of our lusts
and making ourselves and other miserable
not to say that we don't sin
but to say that sin doesn't control us
and any sin that does control our flesh
GOD has already worked on it
and all we got to do is get there
for those who think that living in darkness is better
you're the one's who need to worry
not those who stir up the devil
cause if he's not concerned about you...you should be concerned about that!
  why does not the distroyer, desire to distroy you?
he's already got you:
if you don't have a relationship with GOD (or are not seeking HIM)
then the devil already has your name in his book
and since the devil is crazy and not stupid
he knows that it would be a waste of time to persue
something that already belongs to him.
that's also for those CHRISTians who live life carefully
as not to stir up the devil (by actively loving GOD and doing HIS will)
you are not a threat to the enemy!
however, you are still a target
because he knows that once you've had THE WORD
at anytime GOD can/will have you again
so the devil will never leave you in peace
either way
all you can do is fight
not only for your life, but for all those GOD gave to you
how do you know that GOD gave them to you?
because they know you
  you are a witness to the world
not only about GODs GREATNESS, but also
that HIS MERCY is for ALL
and GOD desires to have everyone!
because GOD LOVES EVERYONE   .!.
so i suggest you put your heart/life/mind/soul/spirit in HIS hands
and let GOD do what HE do...
sets the captives free
and LOVES LIKE NO OTHER!!!!!!!
GOD IS ALIVE,
and on the line waiting for your call right now
PRAYER lines are open 24/7!.................. .......................................
...................i am a child of GOD since birth ( i found that out later ), but didn't know GOD until 2001 (i wasn't raised in a church, or even a family that talked about GOD.  except my step dad who told me to fear GOD (but never said why), and that if i killed myself i would go straight to hell (which even though i didn't know GOD i still was afraid of hell, and that saved my life a couple of times when i was younger).  i believe GOD made sure i heard those two things, and explained later that a healthy fear of our PRECIOUS GOD IS GOoD.  at that time i was working in a jr. high, and from work i watched the twin towers burning all day from a 4th floor window.  and inspite of what the news says, i knew that there were thousands of people in that building.  many people i knew said that they were told to go back to work inspite of the building being on fire,  only the rebels, those who called in sick, and those who were late    walked out (freely),  anywho...knowing that thousands of people (some without making PEACE WITH GOD) died at one time disturbed me, and made me think    how many of them were going to hell?  i knew that i would be going if i had been in those buildings, because i had no relationship at all with GOD :(  and so the following sunday i was in church trying to figure OUt what GOD was about, and what HE wanted from me,  and how i could live up to all the things i had heard of about GOD.  thankfully to GOD  i went to the right church   where at the time Bishop Curtis G. Norton was in charge ( he passed on to GLORY a couple of years agO). He joked that sunday that the church was abnormally full.  that was the joke, but what was real is that i wasn't the only one who realized that i had to be ready just in case.  what i remember most about that day, was when my Bishop said that he promised that GOD would NEVER fail us.  i thought that was  a big promise.  but he was right, and i'm so glad that i was there on that sunday.  7 years later  alot has happend (i'll have to hit up a blog later for the rest) but the other part is i'm from California (east Oakland) and now reside in this place they call "new" york, and i have a wonderful new york family, but miss, love, and can't wait to be again with my Cali family.   B.T.W  Bishop also Blessed me to know THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN THE SON THAT WAS SENT BY THE FATHER SHALL BE SAVED (but to be happy, ask GOD to help you with the rest and the meanwhile)
P.S  i'm not hispanic (no offense)  i'm mainly black and white, with some whole bunch of other stuff on the side.     ........................ ............... .......................
gETTING tO yOUR "bREAKTHROUGH"
cAN oNLY bE cOMPARED tO gIVING bIRTH
yOU lABOR iN eXTREME pAIN(fOR wHAT sEEMS lIKE fOREVER)
tHEN yOU go tHROUGH "tHE rING oF fIRE"
uNTIL aT lAST tHERE iS nO pAIN
jUST bEAUTY aND jOY  
PRAISE GOD
fOR tHESE tIMES tHAT BLESS uS
tO aPPRECIATE tHE GOoD.................... ..............

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...GOD is light and there is no darkeness in HIM at all.  So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with GOD but go on living in spiritual darkness.  We are not living in the truth.  But if we are living in the light of GOD's presence, just as CHRIST is, then we have fellowship with each other, and the BLOOD of JESUS, HIS Son, cleanses us from EVERY sin.
    1 John 1:5-7
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dONT wASTE tIME cHASING aDDICTIONS...   jUST tRY       JESUS   .!.
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all who believe in GOD are made new creatures through JESUS
that's what GOD said.
all the pains from the past
even as close as yesterday
are cast down, by
THE GRACE OF GOD
so we can live a GOoD life
caring more about what GOD thinks of us
than what people think of us
for GOD never changes
and so all that we hoped for is not lost
in the tears that we've cried
for GOD SAID that HE has numbered each one
there is nothing that GOD didn't know
that happened to us
HE knew and prepared us
or prepared a way
GOD IS FAITHFUL
AND IS NOT A MAN
HE WILL NOT LIE
HE IS THE TRUTH
AND THERE IS NO DARKNESS IN HIM
HE IS THE LIGHT THAT EXPOSES ALL THE PLANS OF OUR ENEMIES
SO THAT WE
WHO ARE CALLED BY NAME
ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE
shall not only survive, but thrive
in the midst of the days trials, and the weeks tribulations
GOD IS:
ALL WE'LL EVER NEED (NEED)
and should be all
that we desire "more than life itself.
i have cried many a tear
but i'm here, now
to forget each one
and remember that not only  am i a new creature
but each moment is fresh and new
and the only one's who will hang my mistakes and hurts over my head
are my enemies
and they don't deserve to have time spent on them
or the tragic circumstances that they've come to remind me of
i am a CHILD OF GOD
and therefore i only answer to HIM
FOR ONLY GOD WILL JUDGE ME   .!.
....................... ................................i wonder if anyone knows my pain...

did anyone notice that i didn't smile today?
it would have been so hard to smile with this gaping hole in my soul
that's been leaking misery since i almost "lost" my mind
because i lost him
i lost what i thought was going to be the love of a lifetime
the forever love
that barely seemed to last a day
i lost what i thought was my best friend
my whole life has been changed
and none for the better
my life will never be the same
i wonder did anyone noticed that i haven't been around
'cause i haven't felt much like company
and i tire of breaking my face to make it fit
what should be happy
and i don't want to tell another person about what happen to me
so they can either tell me to get over it
or spend the rest of the day leaning to their right
to tell the person next to them how good i seem to be doing
considering my situation
-that poor thing
i wonder if anyone noticed that i don't look as "fly" as i used to
cause there's no one around to tell me how beautiful i look today
or how i look good without make-up
or how sexy that dress looks on me
or anyone to even notice whether i've shaved my legs or not
i wonder if anyone noticed that i stopped progressing
i don't read like i used to
i don't want to learn like i used to
there's no point in learning to move forward
if i'm not going anywhere
cause i'm stuck here
on yesterday
more like i'm trapped in this state
i wonder if anyone notice that i don't call like i used to...
cause i'm not really thinking on the conversation
i'm runnin on thoughts runnin through my mind
about how sad i have been, and am now
i wonder did anyone notice that i don't leave my house much
i don't even bother to look out the window on a sunny day
i don't play in the rain
i don't go shopping
i just don't do anything
no one seems to notice that i don't want to exist anymore
i don't want to be here
i don't want to be there
i just don't want to be
who to tell, when all my CHRISTian friends never seem to have any problems
their always smiling
and talking about the better side of things
and how GOD always comes through
...i've been talking to GOD for a while now
and still have this emptyness inside of me
is it just me?!
why haven't i recieved my "break through"?
why haven't i seen a miracle in my life?
how am i going to get through this if GOD don't show up
and "make a way"?
i can't function
i really can't
my life has fallen apart
and there's nothing i can do...
...tHAT wAS iN tHE bEGINNING oF mY sEPERATION,
tHEN i hEARD a wORD tHAT sAVED mY sOUL...
COME TO ME ALL OF YOU WHO ARE WEARY AND CARRY HEAVY BURDENS,
AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. 
TAKE MY YOKE UPON YOU.
LET ME TEACH YOU,
BECAUSE I AM HUMBLE AND GENTLE,
AND YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS.
AND THE BURDEN I GIVE YOU IS LIGHT.  matthew 11:28-30
and i was reminded that GOD noticed
...and so i followed THE instructions
the bible THE WORD
and saw/felt GOD move in my soul
and replaced my day to day "happiness" that was based upon something
and filled me with HIS joy.
HE filled up and paved over that gaping hole.  HE CANNOT LIE, AND HE WILL NOT FAIL!!!...................... ..........................
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and so i've made so many mistakes
i thought i'd used up all my chances
BUT GOD
SAID HE'S NOT FINISHED WITH ME YET
so here i am i between my yesterday and tomorrow
in a place known as today, but for me
i've carried it like a badge of dishonor
one that reminds me of my past mistakes
and tells me that my tomorrow wont be any different
because i'm still me
and most of my thoughts remain the same
and i'm still crying because i've been so abused
used
and messed up
and since everybody has a story
no body cares about mine
and so i did all i could do
i cried
PRAYed
and then cried somemore
and i cried so much that my eyes began to swell from top to bottom
and they were so red you would have thought i was high
not today
i'm low so low i've created my own "new" low
and in disperation i PRAYed again
maybe GOD didn't hear me
maybe HE heard, but didn't decide to answer
i cried for days, weeks, almost a year
and then one day i decided to stop crying
not to live or do better
or cause i felt better, but
no body cared and i had wasted so much time that
even i got tired of me
then i just became sullen, and swept up in searching for all things sad
music, shows, people, etc.
that lasted for days and then weeks
i became mad and numb...
i was my own worst nightmare
and one day someone told me that i had changed
and that i didn't look happy
i had a place for that comment, but it wasn't on my space
so that day i cried
i ate five tons of food and cried some more and more...
until i had went up 3 dress sizes
which someone who hadn't seen me in a long time pointed out
so i cried and cried and cried
until i was again consumed with grief...
then one day i woke up, not moving out of bed yet
what was the point?!
i closed my eyes and talked to GOD about why i didn't want to live anymore
and i thought i heard someone say
-now you want to TALK to me
so i listened closely to be sure of what i was sure i heard
and i heard a voice say
i have here a bottle, and it has all of your tears
i have here your healing for all of those years
i have here justification for each and everyone, but
i've decided that your justified in saddness
but not in "coming un-done"
i have here a note
for everytime you PRAYed
one note
but i don't have a record of you HEARING me say
I AM YOUR GOD, AND HAVE HEARD YOU CRY
I AM YOUR GOD AND DON'T HAVE TO LIE
YOU ARE MY CHILD WHICH I WONDERFULLY AND FEARFULLY MADE
AND I WOULD NEVER HAVE HURT YOU THAT WAY
I'M HERE TO COMFORT AND DRY YOUR TEARS
BECAUSE I WOULD NOT HAVE YOU TO WASTE ANY YEARS
THOSE WHO PUT YOU IN THE DARK
WILL SEE THE LIGHT
AND I PROMISE YOU MY LOVE
(LOVE)
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT
SOMETIMES YOU CRY, BUT JUST KNOW
THAT I'LL USE THAT  PAIN
TO HELP YOU GROW
AND FOR ALL THAT YOU'VE DONE (IN MY NAME)
I SHALL GIVE YOU PEACE TO REPLACE YOUR PAIN
BECAUSE I LOVE (LOVE) YOU...
HIS words fell on my deaf ears
because i couldn't hear anything beyond my
deafening tears
i had drowned out my BLESSINGs of PEACE
one by one
because my depression was number one
so much time wasted, so many days
years
only to find that my AWESOME GOD was there the whole time
i finally heard what HE had said all along
and stopped the depression that was growing strong
and gave my heart to THE ONLY ONE WHO WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME NORE FORSAKE ME
even if i did make mistakes
HE ALONE cured my heart ache
i I i eye
took the focus off me and put it on HIM
, and began to see new and betters ways to cope
while GOD nursed back my heart life broke...................................

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