the name is nicole but i perfer you callin me nikki or nikki lynn.
im 16,single.im usually nice,very caring,im very crazy and odd
i act like alittle kid sometimes,i love making crazy faces
haha i dance in front of the mirror when no ones watching and pretend like imma rockstar
trapped in this place with my psychotic family,going to lincoln high school and people wonder why im messed up.
that school thinks im...umm out of control,like military would be the answer.lincoln is stupid i cant wait to leave.
im not trying to find myself.....
somewhat shy and then outgoing once i get to know someone more
i found my wake up call,its been with me the whole time i just didnt realize it.
times are changing,next year will be completely different for me
i listen to what people say,i try to help.
very laid back,okay not really. i have a temper.dont care much of what people think,i will tell people off though.
im probably one of the most confusing people you will ever meet
i believe in god
its very hard for me to show how i feel,i normally dont say how i feel when im hiding something or how i feel from someone,its hard to explain but what can you say?
im the kind of person who says shes fine when shes not,my smiles can be fake
i dont like lables(who does),being emo...no, i know i am emotional at times,but i can be happy.
my whole life is basically a lie
ive falling so many times when i fall,i fall hardand each time its a struggle but i get back up.
ive done stupid stuff before but i dont do drugs,smoke,drink.
i love to draw and text.thats usually what im doin all day cause im always freakin grounded
not everything is about me(i can complain alot lol)... but i tend to think about other people and do things for people more then i do for myself
yeah im not perfect far from it.
i hate when people think they are that and a bag of freakin chips,its annoying
had some pretty messed up relationships,loosing someone i really like and im not really ready to be in another relationship right now
love my friends to death,my bestfriends are jami,holley,kate,brandon,josh.
yeah i can be totally random to
music is my drug love all types of music including country
my idol is travis barker,blink182 is my favorite band
your opinion isnt really needed.....dont try to change me cause its not going to happen.
but if you want to know more,i would love to talk.
(life goals/things i need to work on)
[]becoming peaceful
[x]not to be so negative
[]less insecure
[]make better choices
[]get better grades
[]have a better relationship with god
[x]become the better influence
[x]exercize more(like i need it)
[x]be happy
[]become less greedy
[]build better relationships
[]prove to people that im smart
[x]make someone happy
[]actually mean something to someone
goals over the summer(adding more)
[]get ungrounded!
[]go to blink182 concert
[]learn guitar
[]start modeling
[x]get over a fear
[]be loved
[x]do something and not get caught!
my love(bernie)
poems/quotes
(that caught my attention)
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... -unknown-If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.- Courtney Kuchta -
I just want one more day with you I'm so sad and depressed Is all I want to do is rest I go to sleep at night But my dreams I just can't fightI think of you lying in that bed And wonder if there is anything I could have said I wish you were still here But I know that you are still nearI love you more than you know I just wish you didn't have to go I just want one more day with you And I know thats what you would have wanted tooI miss you more and more each day There is so much more we had to say I know I will see you again But my life is just started to begin.
-by Cyndi-
Though miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart.
-by Rozina Hasham-
I gave you my love in vain. My body never knew such pleasure; my heart never knew such pain.
-by Sherry L.Benfield-
"I envey any girl that has ever hugged U, cuz for that 1 moment they held my whole world in their arms."
-by Sameera-
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.
If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to.
Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.-Bette Davis-