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HmmmmFarisbi!

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About Me

I have had a shitty past less than a year, in and out of the streets (sexin' it up) nothing to really be proud of. But I am back in Durham now, at a group home, trying to get my fucked up hell of a life back on fucking track. My addictions (alcohol, cocaine, and sex) are my life right now have taken over to the point of near death experiences multiple times but they have only helped me learn from each experience that life is fucking survival to the fullest. No need to whimp out anymore. It takes a lot to intimidate or scare me, almost not sure if anyone or anything can anymore. I have been through it all. NO way in hell could someone tell me something they have gone through that I haven't gone through once or thrice in my life. My past enemies against others and myself is what makes me proud to say I S me. Nothing can change the way I feel about myself in no way.
I am also wayyy beyond an anarchist (since anarchy is even becoming fake and ruled by laws that shouldn't exist in REAL anarchy). I am what I call a punk.
I love to burn american flags! Some fun shit right there. And I in no way am sad that I can't vote (thank gah for my fucking felony).
I believe that prison and jail is just a fucking lazy excuse for fucking pigs to get away with committing the same fucking crime that they are putting innocent souls in jail for. Doesn't anyone understand that the more criminals (who are usually innocent) they put in jail or prison that they will come out twice as knowledgeable on more serious fucked up crimes in which they were originally oblivious to. Fuck locking people up for something that is concerning us all. You can lock someone up, but there will always be someone out there with more knowledge on that same crime, and more homicidal bullshit fucked mindframe than the person that is arrested. Jail will never stop crime! It will always exist as long as human beings do so these fucking pigs need to give that shit up!
September 11th was America's fault all around! Killing innocent is more sadistic than what the Taliban did to us. We are sending serial killers over to iraq to do dirty fucking work. Nothing is ever going to stop this genocide from killing this world. We are slowly dying because of all these dumb, naive people in the world. If more people thought from their brains and not their dick/balls then maybe, just maybe, anarchy might work! Think about it!

My Interests

An addict. A foe. A friend. A hypocrite. A hater. A lover. A fighter. A loser. A genuine manipulative bitch.

A tempting of a different kind of alien substance: Fraudulant to my health.

I'd like to meet:

I don't think I need to meet anyone right now. I just don't have the energy to deal with people's bullshit most of the time. Most people I meet just end up bruising me so what is the fucking point really.

Extra Pictures

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Music:

A Permanent Holiday, Mest, M.I.A., Social Distortion, Aus Rotten, Non Phixion, River City Rebels, S.T.U.N., Pantera, sum (Rancid), Kelly Clarkson, Bone Thugs N' Harmony, Fergie (Big Girls Don't Cry), Paramore (Only one song--can't member what called though), Backstreet Boys (tehe! Can't believe), Vaux, Tracy and The Plastics, Blondie, Jack's Mannequin, Notorious B.I.G., Smashing Pumpkins, Stars, Pearl Jam, Silverchair (Diorama my heart), Transplants, Lars and The Bastards, The Buzzcocks, Crass, Skid Row, Mr. Bungle, Orgy, Sepultura, Green Day (older shit though), Fantomas, Six Feet Under, Otep, Opeth, Prodigy, Street Drum Corps, Avenged Sevenfold, JEW, Pipettes, Suicide Machines, Rage Against The Machine, Akon

Movies:

Thirteen, The Hills Have Eyes 2, Saw 1 and 3, Hostel, Slaughter Hotel, Requiem For A Dream, Anarchist Cookbook, Havoc, The Believer, Suicide Girls, Lost In Translation, Ghost World, The Virgin Suicides, Eternal Sunshine For The Spotless Mind, A Clockwork Orange, 21 Grams, The Hitcher, Die Mommie Die,

Television:

I don't really have a fave show actually. Every show I get into I end up spacing out most of the time because, in fact, I am strict adhd like a motherfucker.

Books:

I am a poet.. so any good poet that writes books on getting over a substance and trying to move past it all: such as Charles Bukowski I am for 100 %. Also I really love his novels.

Chelsea Horror Hotel: Dee Dee Ramone is the most horrific and tell tale book of a guy living a horrible gah for saken life after a success with the biggest known legend band in the punk community The Ramones. Must read!!

and the last book that I have been reading is Lullaby by Chuck Palaniuk...Just twisted is all I have to say bout that one.

I am reading a lot of books about substance abuse, since it falls very close for comfort. I also love to read anything that contains some sort of poetic verses since I am a very poetic person.

Heroes:

What are heroes really? Someone to look up to and strive to be? Why not strive to be yourself and fulfill what you really want to fulfill instead of gaggling around and honoring someone as if they are your champion! Bullshit!!... heroes shouldn't exist cause it just brings people up to a level that truely shouldn't be there. Okay, that is my rant so I will leave now.

My Blog

prostitution is taking over me

I am torturing myself by not fucking around. I am used to fucking over 20-30 guys/girls/or both at the same time in one night. And now, nothing. Pure nothing! I miss the $1000 a night or more, prostit...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 06:03:00 PST

Life in a halfway house... bleh

Man oh man.... this life sucks dick. Though I did find some good friends to munch on I find it rather impossible to find true happiness when the dick Kirk leads the fucking house. I mean, fuck it, I a...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 12:36:00 PST

Lonliness.....

Loneliness yellow tinted rooftop,Stoop sits a lonely girl regretting her past.The rape still close in her mind as if it happened yesterday. Dangerous men make her horny. Loneliness red tinted doors...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 03:42:00 PST

finding out it isn't easy

She leans in closely and estimates her time of departure. Tired of all the bickering and disloyalty she packs up her things and leaves the situation. Plus, she just needs something to drink and he wo...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Thu, 24 Aug 2006 03:21:00 PST

a survey.. fill out damned punks!

I wanna know 21 things about you. Hit reply to sender. Fill all the questions out..1.Your Name:2. Age:3. Fave Color:4. Fave Movie:5. Fave Song:6. Fave Band:7. Fave Food:8. Most Embarassing Moment:9. A...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 05:48:00 PST

faag me

I am tired of my bullshit... I am tired of yours too... just leave me alone and let me drown my pain away.
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Tue, 27 Jun 2006 09:29:00 PST

a beautiful giantsized version of me.

I wish I were a little bit taller. Like giant size for 2 seconds. Then I could take one step over to greensboro and see muh joshy poo. Then I would come back when I felt like it to eat and crap. That ...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Mon, 15 May 2006 11:16:00 PST

Won't get away that easily

Keep pushing your way away from me... I won't let down. You won't get away that easily. I am just fucking depressed as fuck, cravings are at an alltime high and I almost fucking broke my pact with mys...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Wed, 10 May 2006 08:31:00 PST

crawling shit in my skin

I sink lower and lower.. I cry. You sink higher and higher, you laugh. We are just going opposite directions and that really does blow hardcore. I am tired of stressing each day as to where I am going...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Tue, 02 May 2006 10:16:00 PST

crappy moods set into a space in time

I dun't know sometimes I find myself getting super jealous over things that aren't my damned business anymore. It was trust against his word and fucking horrible gut wrenching feeling on my hand. I wa...
Posted by HmmmmFarisbi! on Tue, 02 May 2006 04:15:00 PST