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aLan.who?!

I walk these lines of blasphemy...

About Me

Me???hmmm...
I am Half Filipino, Half Japanese
Originally from Parañaque, Philippines
I'm the one who feels nothing on the outside,
too distracted by what's going on inside.
I am your nightmare that is slowly coming true.
I am a shadow that tries to hide from the light but deep
down needs someone to pull me from the darkness.
I am every tear you shed, and the blood that seeps from
your self-inflicted wounds.
I am always there, but rarely seen.
I am a lonely little spirit, broken on your floor, silently
crying the tears behind these dead eyes.
I am next to nothing...yet without you realizing it,
I am your everything.
I am all of your sorrows.
I am an average guy...aren't you dying to meet me?

I walk the hallways feeling lost and cold
Hiding so many things I wish could be told
But the truth is I'm alone with my fears
Letting lose the heartache and the tears
Sitting alone just staring at the wall
I feel my own barrier start to fall
As my tears let lose once again
Wondering if they will ever end
I look down to the notes I'm writing
While my life and pain keep fighting
The pages are tear stained and torn
Blood stains and frayed edges worn
Hearing the words love and hate
My heart beat rises to a faster rate
I turn my head and look toward you
Staring at me just like you used to
Erratic heart beats start to flame
I wonder if you even feel the same
As my eyes water I feel a stab
Toward my heart I quickly grab
I feel it breaking within my hands
Hurting more then anyone understands
Slowly the room fades into black
The pain I feel is too much to take back
My eyes start to close as I think of this
Looking at the blood pouring from my wrist
And all I can think is this is the cost
But still I LOVE YOU even though my life is lost...

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

hmm..let me see??? You Must Be....

Music:

Killswitch Engage
Funeral For A Friend
Story of The Year
Slipknot
My Chamical Romance
New Found Glory
Coheed and Cambria
Diecast
Starting Line
As I Lay Dying...

Movies:

Fast and Furious 1..2..3
American Pie 1..2..3
Matrix 1...2...3
Enemy at the Gates
The New Guy
The Green Mile
Scorpion King
Lord of the Rings 1...2...3...4
The Jackass 1...2
Grind
Freddy vs. Jason...

Television:

MTV PUNK 'D!!!
Smallville
Lupin III
South Park
Viva La Bam
The Man Show
WWE Raw
Strangebrew
WiLd BoYz
Mr. Bean
UnTv
[V] ROCK
MTv Rock
Justice League
Pimp my Ride
Rides
Nopi Tuner
Sponge Bob
Shinchan
Naruto...

Heroes:

Families..
Friends..
GOD!!!