Self Centered Martyr

“After a couple of pages, you won’t want to be here. So forget it. Go away. Get out while you’re still in one piece. Save yourself. There has to be something better on television. Or since you have so much time on your hands, maybe you could take a night course. Become a doctor. You could make something out of yourself. Treat yourself to a dinner out. Color your hair. You’re not getting any younger. What happens here is first going to piss you off. After that it just gets worse. What you’re getting here is a stupid story about a stupid little boy. A stupid true life story about nobody you’d ever want to meet. So if you think this is going to save you…if you think anything is going to save you…please consider this your final warning.” -from "Choke" by Chuck Palahniuk-**"Fear...fear is the most valuable commodity in the universe.Turn on the t.v. What are you seeing? People selling their products? No. People selling the fear of you having to live without their products. Fear of aging, fear of loneliness, fear of poverty, fear of failure. Fear is the most basic emotion we have. Fear is primal. Fear sells. That was my mantra. Fear sells."** -From "World War Z" by Max BrooksWe always define the limits of our personality too narrowly. In general, we count as part of our personality only that which we can recognize as being an individual trait or as diverging from the norm. But we consist of everything the world consists of, each of us, and just as our body contains the genealogical table of evolution as far back as the fish and even much further, so we bear everything in our souls that once was alive in the soul of men. Every god and devil that ever existed, be it among the Greeks, Chinese, or Zulus, are within us, exist as latent possibilities, as wishes, as alternatives. If the human race were to vanish from the face of the earth save for one halfway talented child that had received no education, this child would rediscover the entire course of evolution, it would be capable of producing everything once more, gods and demons, paradises, commandments, the Old and New Testament." "Yes, fine," I replied. "But what is the value of the individual in that case? Why do we continue striving if everything has been completed within us?" "Stop!" exclaimed Pistorius. "There's an immense difference between simply carrying the world within us and being aware of it. A madman can spout ideas that remind you of plato, and a pious little seminary student rethinks deep mythological correspondences found among the Gnostics or in the Zoroaster. But he isn't aware of them. He is a tree or stone, at best an animal, as long as he is not conscious. But as soon as the first spark of recognition dawns within him he is a human being. You wouldn't consider all bipeds you pass on the street human beings simply because they walk upright and carry their young in their bellies nine months! It is obvious how many of them are fish or sheep, worms or angels, how many are ants, how many are bees! Well, each one of them contains the possibility of becoming human, but only by having an intimation of these possibilitites, partially even by learning to make himself conscious of them; only in this respect are these possibilities his." -from "demian" by Herman Hesse"**I like bloody steak, cold beer, loud music, and fast women. I’m tattooed and pierced. I’m a sucker for the “rock chicks” and easily intimidated by the beauty of a pretty girl. I've had every flavor of crazy when it comes to relationships. I’m extremely laid back and try not to take things too seriously unless it’s called for. I save all of my fortunes from fortune cookies(seems wrong to throw away a fortune, ya know?).I’m probably smarter, more observant, steadfast, and strong willed than you would ever give me credit for. I’ve always got an “ace in the hole.” I don’t believe change just happens, you have to want it and do what it takes to make it happen. I’m an all or nothing guy. I believe in karma and know what goes around comes around. I’m a t-shirt and jeans kind of guy, but I clean up real well. I'm allergic to pressure changes and humidity...seriously...it sucks. i have a pet bearded dragon who, i'm pretty sure, hates me for no good reason. I’m stubborn and still learning to admit when I’m wrong. I have trouble asking for help when I need it. I like to read and I love art of all forms. I’m extremely loyal to those who deserve it and I’ll do anything within my power to help a friend in any way possible. My friends are my family and they mean the world to me. Now, if you will, please allow me to adjust my pants, so that I may dance the good time dance, and put the onlookers and innocent bystanders into a trance.**"In a closed society where everybody's guilty, the only crime is getting caught. In a world of thieves, the only final sin is stupidity." -Hunter S. Thompson-  I edited my profile with Thomas Myspace Editor V4.4 (www.strikefile.com/myspace)