Slice of my life
Its not possible for me to type my entire background and life story here but i can help u better understand the person that i came to be in a summury. If you read this, thank you, because everyone deserves a chance to have there story heard.
I have to say to be at the point of my life right now is truly amazing
I feel for the first time in my life i have a defining purpose and path that is guiding me. I dont feel alone anymore, i feel the love from the people that have supported me and in turn has enabled me to return the love back.
My life, up to now, makes me believe in a devine purpose. I know that i am valuable in this life through which i have lived.
Let me explain
My mother had me at 16, and i was raised by my grandmother until i was 12.
My father is a mystery in my life, i know his name but there is no face. He lives somewhere in Mexico. That is all i know
During that time my mother had 5 more kids. All girls. And was involved in a abusive relationship with a guy named Francisco.(years later i found out that he molested my sisters..his daughters)
My grandmother was too unstable to raise me any longer so she and my grandfather sent me away to live with my mom..
I lived everyday of my life with Francisco in fear, because i was beaten for the smallest of reasons. One night i recall him coming home drunk and beating the shit out of me. choked me till my mom came in..she said we couldent call the cops because the girls (my sisters) couldent see there father taken away..
Well i ran away..and like every kid does i ran away to the park where i was found by a cop. I told him the story and they sent him away. Well when i came back home my mom and my sisters said i took there father away..and i was forced to move into my aunt and uncles house because there father was coming home.
After a year or so my mom finally left that bastard and i moved back in and it was bliss. I finally had my mom back and my sisters moved on as well(with the exception of the oldest daughter of Fransico, she left with him)
Fast forward...months later my mom finds new man and new life.
Leaving me and my sister to take care of my little sisters while my mom rekindles her love life. PLZ understand that my mother gave up most of her childhood and was beaten by the same man(fransico)..so like any human, where there is any real love everything else is secondary. They got married months later..
My oldest sister ended up moving out after her and Paul (moms husband) got into a argument. He threatened to kill her and she left..my mom once again wz blinded. This left me to take care of the house and my sisters. Everyday id work my ass off around the house. And there was times where me and Paul would go at it and hed flip the dinner table and punch a hole in the wall. No Joke. It was hell. And they were planning on moving to Nevada in the desert..literally. To his home, nearest town was a desert town 20 miles away..i knew if id stay with them i would kill myself. I was set on it.
BUT!!
My best friend lived next door and his mother said she would take me in if i wanted out..luckly that wasent my moms decision, because my grandmother still had guardianship and agreed to let me live with them..i wz 15 or 16 at this time. So i told my mom i was moving out..and thats what i did. I never turned back
A new chance, a new life.
The next four years of high school was a rollercoaster..
but in those years i found a mentor that has been my guardian Angel ever since. Her name is Susan Southworth and she has been a huge inspiration in my life. If it wasent for her love i wouldent be pursueing ACTING.
I found the art my 10th grade year. It was my excape, my way of losing myself in a life not like my own. This gave me drive. This women taught me that there are ppl out there that are welling to help others just out of the kindness of her heart.
During my senior year of high school i ended up living with my choir teacher when i had to leave the family that i was staying for almost 4 years. During those 4 years i found a brother id alwayz wanted, he was the little brother of my best friend. He needed guidance and a brother figure in his life because he didint really have that in his real one. So i tried do what Susan would do, and help him as much as i could. I love that kid to death, id do anything for him. I also found a father figure in the stepdad that lived there. He showed me that a father figure didint have to be abusive and drunk or just a plain asshole. He was a soft spoken, kind-hearted man..god bless him. I strive to be jus as kind, though i still have much to learn..
Cindy Wildman,(the teacher)made me part of her family.
She knew that i wanted to persue acting so she booked me a audition with a acting school in Hollywood called AMDA. She drove me to L.A and after 2 weeks of the audition i got accepted. While i wz in SoCal i auditioned for characters work at DisneyLand, got it, and for that summer after i graduated high school, i stayed with Cindys son in the OC and then it wz off to AMDA in August.
Thats wz 2 years ago. Since than i have completed my 2 years at AMDA and im heading back this summer for my bachlors in fine arts..my dream is right in front of my eyes..
I forgive my mother and the ppl that have harmed me in my life. I have to move on, i have to make my life better in the now to pave the way for the future.
My goal in life is to become a famous actor, and inspire millions of kids just like me that didint think there dreams could turn into reality. I want to raise a family and provide a kid with a better start at life than I. TO GIVE BACK. AND to be LOVED.
If i can do this, anyone can. HAVE HEART. HAVE LOVE. HAVE DESIRE. HAVE FAITH. Noone can take them away from u..
I'm going make it, and im striving everyday to be the best person i can be. Love is the answer. Love in what we do, who we are and in everything that is LIFE. PURE LOVE HAS NO BOUNDRIES and if that doesent tell you about my orientation..well..just think about it..or ask haha
There is so much more that i wish i could type but ill save it for a biography someday lol I just want to help ppl realize that through any bad circumstance in your life there is a way to overcome..
If you have sat down and read this, THANK YOU SO MUCH.
It truly means that you care to actually know who i am.( Or maybe u were just bored lol) Anywayz, thats speaks far and wide.
LOVE AND PROSPER BABY.
MAX..
p.s if you did read it all, plz post a comment telling me. Id love to know that you did. I'll diff resond back ;)
tidbid"consciousness is the potiental for all creation"
everything that u see in this world was first a thought..an idea, a dream, turned into reality. You have this power, everyone does, its just a matter of making it a consciousess desire. SO DREAM BIG!!!!max..
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