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Benjamin James

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About Me


I believe in taking care of myself, in a balanced diet, in a rigorous exercise routine. In the morning, if my face is a little puffy, I'll put on an ice pack while doing my stomach crunches. I can do a thousand now. After I remove the icepack, I use a deep pore-cleanser lotion. In the shower, I use a water-activated gel cleanser, then a honey-almond body scrub, and on the face an exfoliating gel scrub. Then I apply an herb mint facial masque which I leave on for ten minutes while I prepare the rest of my routine. I always use an after-shave lotion with little or no alcohol because alcohol dries your face out and makes you look older. Then moisturizer, then an anti-aging eye balm, followed by a final moisturizing "protective" lotion... There is an idea of a Benjamin James, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping you and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there...


Prophet of things dismal.

I'm in love with a beautiful woman who melts away my doom and gloom.
She makes anything seem possible.

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My Interests


Loud music, Film, Adventure Travel, Video, Light, Pills, Guns and knives, Zombies, Books, Hiking, Maps, Locks and Keys, Tattoos, Nature and Wildlife, Conservation, Irish Whiskey, Motorcycles, Irony, Camping, Boats and Sailboats and I of course enjoy my own humor and pseudointellectual phychobabble.

I'd like to meet:


-Les Stroud
-H.G. Wells
-Don Juan Matus
-George Harrison

Music:


I'm a dirty Metalhead. I like Doom, Death, Sludge, Stoner, Crust, & some Hardcore. I like Blues ... and old country of course, like Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, Hank Williams Sr. etc. I love The Beatles.

Movies:



MAD MAX! Return of the Living Dead. I love zombie flicks. I like George Romero, Peter Jackson, Guy Ritchie, The Coens, Stanley Kubrick ... and others. My favorite movies include JAWS, The Shining, Magnolia and Amores Perros

Books:

I love Titus Andronicus. I USED re-read Hunter S. Thompson and Carlos Castaneda books constantly, but haven't picked up a good book in awhile. It's about that time. I've never read The Brothers Karamosov by Dostoyevski but want to. I like to read H.P. Lovecraft.

Heroes:

Dick Proenneke, George Orwell, Isaac Asimov, the Parents: two of the strongest people I've ever had the privilege of knowing,

My Blog

Lost

A bitter page of future's historyUnwritten secrets of millenniaAny given number, as time is loss & so all is LostDon't dare to gaze skyward As fire rains seek sanctuaryRed skies bloom in brimstone, ru...
Posted by Benjamin James on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 03:06:00 PST

Redemption

Looking back recall looking forwardA void of endless daydreamsPoison of soul this vision of bliss This hope is the mirror's shadowThose days are all dreamsThose golden days are all fantasyPoison of so...
Posted by Benjamin James on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 03:25:00 PST

Perdition

Clean, hollowLay waste to bodyPurge, extinguish flameDisassociate from fallacyTrapped intactDoom is all remainsThe wheel of thorns envelopingWelcome Perdition, utter ruinDrain this vesselCut to cleans...
Posted by Benjamin James on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 03:27:00 PST

Song added by Gallows of Sedition

My band Gallows of Sedition has added a new song ...From our page:"We've added a completely DIY recorded version of our song "Perdition" to the page. It's a little rough around the edges but should gi...
Posted by Benjamin James on Mon, 10 Dec 2007 02:29:00 PST

New Band

From my friend and bandmate Ron Slater's blog:Seth (Keen of the Crow) and I have a new band dubbed "Gallows of Sedition". This band is everything we wanted but we're unable to obtain with Keen of th...
Posted by Benjamin James on Fri, 24 Aug 2007 07:01:00 PST