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XTina

So anyone who's not familiar with Oasis b-sides is in for a rather long night...anyone who is famili

About Me

I learn and re-learn that silence doesn't protect me - an unexpressed life is very painful to myself and those I love. I am learning that loving all the way can ache and sting, but loving halfway doesn't keep me safe, it leaves me with sadness and a hope that could never live out loud.
--Sabrina Ward Harrison - Spilling OpenI've got a limited amount of time, right? I want to spend that time having fun, meeting new people, making friends, dancing a lot, playing around, being around, exploring the world, learning who I am, reading, listening to music, being inspired, screwing up, screwing off, spinning in circles, riding my bike, being close to others, kissing, crushing, working, eating, being present, seeing movies, downloading, uploading, crosstraining, swimming, hanging out, being comfortable, dressing up, sleeping in, loving, being forgiven, admitting mistakes, taking risks, learning lessons, making memories, forgetting regrets, being honest.Active is key.I like to throw parties. I have 3 tattoos. I have a cool birthmark. I've got some cool scars. I've met some stars. I've been to one wedding. I love the beach.I can't cut anyone off, even if they really deserve it. I'm compassionate. I'm a navy brat. I spend too much time on my computer. I get attached. I like coca-cola. I should go to the gym more. I'm very picky about what I eat. I'm very 'emo.' I'm very inexperienced. I've seen a lot. I want an MBA.I need some help getting it together. But I try. I give it an effort. I believe in people. I try to be a good friend. I care about you...even when you don't care about yourself. I will treat you well.I'm not so bad. I smile too much when things aren't great. I am paying attention to you - I'm just doing this at the same time. I will wait for you. I'm really very simple. I don't understand myself. I crave companionship. I just want to be left alone.

My Interests

Rollercoasters, avant garde american theatre, warm weather, theatre, playwriting, cycling, being called cupcake, junior mints, rock climbing, Rob, kissing, design, playing with glo-tape, being under black light, dancing, texas hold 'em!, tattoos, the scene, going to concerts, hipsters, directing, boyfriends who don't lie to me, cinema, foreign languages, queers, straights, asking people questions, being with friends, winking, getting to know you, requited love, The PBF

I'd like to meet:

    Oasis & Ryan Adams. I have things to tell them. Great spellers The DJ Rockstars and hangers-on Whoever can get me to the front of the line
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

William Shakespeare

This movie is from November 4, 2006 - the best day ever.
This is me asking Noel: I remember vividly the first time I heard Oasis. I remember everything about that moment. I knew, in that instance that this was a time when everything was changing. I knew, in that moment, that now everything is going to be different. Everything is going to be better. Can you share with me a moment that you've experienced, either listening to, or writing a song when you knew, right then, that this was the time when everything was going to be different, when everything was going to be better?
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Music:

Oasis, The Manics, Blur, Travis, Coldplay, The Doves, Powderfinger, Depeche Mode, REM, The Killers, The Streets, Jet, White Stripes, Sasha, Mansun, Lady Sovereign, Snow Patrol, Linkin Park, Dashboard Confessional, Live, Duran Duran, Poe, Abandoned Pools, Mellowdrone, Garbage, Ryan Adams, Beck, The Beatles, Bush, Better Than Ezra, The Crystal Method, The Chemical Brothers, Muse, The Libertines, Ani DiFranco, Fuel, Foo Fighters, Silverchair, The Secret Machines, Dirty Pretty Things, Eisley, Howie Day, Jason Mraz, BT, Tiesto, Paul Van Dyk, Kasabian, Razorlight, Dear Leader, Digweed, U2, Jimmy Eat World, Luke Fair, Sander Kleinenberg, Above and Beyond, Satoshi Tomiie, Alex Whalen, Reel Big Fish, Less Than Jake, Elan, Cahill, Scissors For Lefty - So many more...

Movies:

Lord Don't Slow Me Down
Oasis: There and Then
Oasis: Definitely Maybe
Oasis: Live by the Sea
Oasis: Familiar to Millions
The Godfather
Shawshank Redemption
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
Schindler's List
Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
Star Wars
Rear Window
Memento
Psycho
Silence of the Lambs
American Beauty
The Matrix
The Pianist
L.A. Confidential
American History X
Kill Bill: Vol. 1
A Clockwork Orange
Amadeus
The Sixth Sense
Terminator 2: Judgment Day
Forrest Gump
Kill Bill: Vol. 2
Mystic River
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Back to the Future
A Christmas Story
Monsters Inc.
Gladiator
Trainspotting
Minority Report
Casino
Dead Poets' Society
Batman
The Breakfast Club
Closer
A History of Violence
Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
Brokeback Mountain
Match Point
The Departed
The Prestige

Television:

Lost
Six Feet Under
Carnivale
One Tree Hill
Top Chef
Prison Break

Books:

Oasis books
High Fidelity
About A Boy
How To Be Good
A Home at the End of the World
Maus
Me Talk Pretty One Day
Barrell Fever
Naked
Dress Your Family...
The Great Gatsby
Bash
The Bad Girl's Guides
The Worst Case Scenaerios books
Novelty books
McSweeney's

Heroes:

My mother. My father. Bono.

My Blog

You should listen to this song.

Jimmy Eat World - Your House When you're on, I swear you're on. You rip my heart right out. You rip my heart right out. I think the whole room can hear me clear my throat. You rip my heart right out. ...
Posted by XTina on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 06:38:00 PST

Me, in layers

 LAYER ONE: Spell your name with bands/artists:C - CahillH - Hot Hot HeatR - RadioheadI - IdlewildS - SashaT - TiestoI - Incubus N - Nine Inch NailsA - Abandoned Pools----------------------------...
Posted by XTina on Sun, 26 Aug 2007 06:32:00 PST

Ology.

MOUTHOLOGYWhat is your salad dressing of choice?French. Creamy.What is your favorite fast food restaurant?McDonald'sWhat is your favorite sit-down restaurant?Not Your Average Joe'sOn average, what siz...
Posted by XTina on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 09:04:00 PST

On college.

I realized recently - I don't have any friends from college. I have a few acquaintances, but no real "college friends." When I think back to the 4 years I spent there, no one close, except for Heidi c...
Posted by XTina on Thu, 31 May 2007 12:48:00 PST

When you're drunk...

When You're Drunk...Do you talk about Religion or Deep meaning thoughts:Not really. Sometimes I talk about friendship, or relationships. Mostly relationships.Do you Cry?Um, sometimes. If I've been tal...
Posted by XTina on Sat, 19 May 2007 10:58:00 PST

What have you got?

Name 5 things you always have:1. phone2. wallet3. keys4. iPod5. a penNAME FOUR THINGS YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE STRESSED.1. write2. sleep3. talk4. space out (TV)Name 3 favorite fruits:1. plum2. banana3. cle...
Posted by XTina on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 10:32:00 PST

For today

This is my horoscope for today:You make things look easier than they are as you struggle in ways that may not be apparent to anyone else. You want to be appreciated at work, but it's difficult to get ...
Posted by XTina on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 08:49:00 PST

From Sean (no, the other Sean)

70 Quirks about me:1. Initials?: CAS2. What is your favorite thing to wear?: Chuck Taylors3. What's the last thing you ate? PB granola bar.4. For or against same sex marriage?: For. Stupid question.5....
Posted by XTina on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 09:42:00 PST

Guess what?

So I lost my camera. It's a long, drunken story, but I think a cab driver stole it. Boston cabbies. :PAnyway, my new one comes tomorrow!!! Yay!!! You know what this means?!New pictures from clubbing t...
Posted by XTina on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 10:51:00 PST

Survey (thanks Teddy)

1. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to?Nope.2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?I'd probably do some sort of urban art project with them. 3. What kind of music did yo...
Posted by XTina on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 08:19:00 PST