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5/12/2008playerrrrrrrr ehh ?bullllllllllllllll FCKING shitttttttttttt .nigguh , you didn't play your way into the fcking game . it just so happened to be your turn , and you got lucky . VERY lucky . so don't be all cocky bout' yourself now kiddd . fuhhh .welll anyhowww , i've had this thing on my mind for a while now . the worldddddd .. we see our world , all torn up , fckedd up , and at it's fcking worst . we think about it , we talk about it , and we worry . but here's one thing , why not do something about ittttttt ! you don't have to be rich , in school , or kind to give a little .. or even alot !i know im just one of many 15 year old girls on myspace , but i want you to do one thing for me . for the next day , if you see trash , pick it up . if you come across a homeless person , give a dollar . if you take a shower , take it cold ! done with a soda ? recycle it ! do you see where im getting to here people ! give a little , give alot , GIVE IT UP .it'll take more time than what we have , but with this fcked up generation , i believe we can STILL make a difference .PEACE .5/11/2008role-playing ? or for reals ? you got me .. those tears were real guys . scared the shit out of me .so how the hell am i suppose to figure you out ?i guess that's just how things are sometimes . you just can't try to figure soemone out . you may think you know how someone is just because you've known them for a very long time , or you know there name and there bizz . but you don't . no one will know how someone truly is . maybe they don't even know who themselves are either . no ones for sure of this . so there should be no reason for judging . =|soooo , i found out about now that , i really don't need what i need just to be how i am when i have what i need . hahaa , make sense ? that's okay . just as long as i know that . =]happy mothers days everyone =]PEACE .5/10/08i can't stop shaking right now . i don't know why . i was shaking a bit yesterday too . fcking creepy .well , it's morning time , and i have no clue what the hell is going on . it's all deja vu mann ..i hate that .TRUST: to have faith in; believe in; ECT . i STRONGLY dislike this word . and for many reasons . my actions can't fill out who i REALLY am . i personally think i'm diffrent when im all settled . and when it comes down to no more fooling around . but i guess some ppl just have a hard time beliveing it . i can see why though .. clearly .so i came upon someone not to long ago .. and i really wish i ran into this person more often . i think this person is just AMAZING . not only by what they like or not , but what they see in , or belive in . just .. non-careless about stupid shit . forgive and forget is the motto . look up to it .have a nice day .PEACE .5/9/08WHOOOOOO . interesting night man . haha . i certainly tried something new i REALLY didn't think i would be doing . it wasn't all that badd . let's just say it was .. AWKWARD . well besides that , i saw a side of someone i never really thought would come out . i DID NOT like it . AT ALL . but , idk , maybe they just had enough .. whatever .so have you ever thought about wanting what you want , and then trying to go for it ? for example .. let's just say someone wanted soemthing from meeeee , so what are they gunna do ? be kind , be nice , blahblahblah . am i rightttt ? well , why the fck can't ppl just be like THAT most the time . instead of wanting something and acting niceeee aboutt it , be nice all the timeeee ! do it .PEACE .5/8/08 i just got home not to long ago . =] okay day i guess . i was tired most the time ! i'll probably take a nap soon .okay , so last night i came upon this .. thing . about me , and it bothered the FCK out of me . why so muchhh though ? cause' i guess you can say , that in the end , i won ? i know it's not a game .. and it never was , but still . it's true . i just wish everyone was more apprieciative and would just stop ! idk . it's crazy how one thing can make SUCH a big impact though ... think about that .PEACE .5/7/08 OMGAHHHH . i can't be anymore happier right now dudeee ! it freaks me out how much things can change in the matter of a MINUTE . im not really sure if it was just this ONE thing that made me all better .. but i know for sure it HAS to have some effect . =] well things were SO good today .. most of it at least . i ditched the last period of school , and now i kinda regret it .. only because it's not gunna look good on my school record . blahhh . at least i finally made a decision to where i wanna go to for school . well kinda .. it's either san fran , or new york . im excited to see whats ahead ! i don't wanna wait anymore . i wanna live life on my own already , and just see what it can do to me and everyone else around me . idk ..well , i REALLY wanna start over . like , my WHOLE life . or at least starting with my teenage years . im sick of everyone knowing my name .. fck .well good nightt . PEACE .5/6/08 so today is fcking GAY . i have NEVER been so bored . everyones all caught up in there own thing now . =[ i REALLY miss that feeling of being wanted .. you probably won't know what im talking about , but idk , maybe ?i really thought i was happy at one point , but i guess i just got FCKED over , again ! well , im not gunna fcking sit around and sulk about it . it's ridicoulous . i really rather just have an open conversation with some stranger , and compare our fcking lives . everyone goes through the same shit everyday . i wanna hear something new . i'll listen if you listen .. so just message me ..PEACE .W0W , i REALLY don't even know where to start . well , lets see .. this is one of my best friends CRISTINA CHAVEZ . i met her in 7th grade , but became best friends in 8th . if you have met her , you would know that she is the M0ST KINDEST person to walk on this earth ! hahaaa , believe me or not it's TRUE ! shes always giveing me advice and telling me what's wrong and what's right , and i love that about her ! i just maybe wish that soemtimes , i would pay a little bit more attention to her , and take her words into consideration . who knows .. i probably would've been a different person . and for the better too ! =] i know me and her don't get to hang out much over the weekend and all , but we're pratically with eachother the whole time at school . i love this chica soooo much . words SERIOUSLY cannot describe how f'ckn lucky i am to have her around ! always and forever man . so watch out world , we're gunna be sailing the coast one day !"so much to writeee , so little timeee .. how can i pinpoint our love in just a few lines ? i'll start with the first time , we both HUGGED , the rain poured downnn , when we touched B000000BS !" hahahahaaa , juuuuuuuuuust kidddding ! =] [inside joke] so anyways ! , this is my other best friend , SAMUEL NARVAEZ . me and sam met during summer of 07' .. =] and we started becoming best friends when school started . i remember when we first started hanging out .. i became VERY comfortable with him . nothing was akward at all . and i loved that the most . i remember walking late at night and just talking ... and it wasn't just about 'how our day was' or 'what's goin on at school' and all that bull , it was about our dreams , and what we had on our minds . i would never get tired of talking to him about that kind of stuff . =] so me and sam have one very special thing in common . music ! i love singing , and he loves playing the guitar ! maybe one day we might really start our own band . just not quite this moment . =] ohh , and i know you might think your not 'up to your own standards' sam , but to my eye , your better than anyone i know . =] well , as our friendship get stronger and stronger , i know we will get into ALOT more fights . but that's okay . even to the point where we thought our friendship was OVER and done for , i know everything will be fine by the next week or so . =] because we will both have one thing in mind .. we love eachother . and it will always be that way ! hopefully .. =] i love you !