About Me
"Hear my words that i might teach you.Take my arms that i might reach you - that i might reach
straight for your throat"xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXxSTRAIGHTxXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xX
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x-xXxScream with me! my profile song - Shai Hulud - Faithless Is He That Says Farewell When The Road Darkens.-----------------------------Rather let me fail,than never to have tried at all.
Come what may, nothing short of death will see me cry defeat.Rule every moment. Seize every day.
By storm. By the throat. With every breath I take.It's not what you cannot do, it's what they told you, you cannot do.so, fire your gun into the mouth of doubt.Let the masses dictate themselves.
I am not now theirs, nor will I ever be.
They wont crush my hopes.
They wont smash my dreams.Rule every moment. Seize every day.
By storm. By the throat. With every breath I take.I am not inspired by men without faith.
I am not deterred by events that cause the average man to break.Rule every moment. Seize every day.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXxSTRAIGHTxXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-x
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Xx-xXxi am xmikex (AKA:xMIKExFORxLIFEx & MIKExTOTHExCOREx) a heavily pierced & modified skinny HxC / Metalcore head hailing from the highlands of scotland(*insert drum roll*)Inverness!xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-
xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXxi work as a postman here in the capital,have done for 9 years.though i'd say my ears are more recognized than i am so i'm thankful they are still with me and haven't gotten their own PR person and made their way along the yellow brick road.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx
-xXx-xXxi am a highly nice person,easy to talk to and approach.open about all subjects,a little zany but always funny.some would say i am artistic,driven by passion and have alot of patience and dedication,however i'm not stylish! fashion just ain't for me,i feel more at home in baggies and a hoodie than dress attire.i strive for positivity! 99% of the time i am always on top,always smiling and not letting the world nor fear bring me down.everyone has bad days but mine are very few and far between.hard times build character,or so i'm told.i've definitely learned that way of life.oh,i am highly shy when it comes to meeting new people,even more so those i find attractive (i'm sounding like if i find you ugly i'll talk to you stress free,this is NOT what i mean) but bear with me and you'll find the real me after many stuttered words and shy glances.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-
xXx-xXx-xXxi am into body piercings and modifications (i've been pierced 47 times as of 16/02/07 since i was 16) i currently have massive self stretched ears sitting at 42mm right now,soon to be 45mm when the summer rolls nearer.i have a self split tongue and various piercings in my face and body which i will be adding to sooner rather than later,just check out da pics and see what a crazy fool i've been to my face.which,ha,i am pretty proud of thus far.everything is ever so symmetrical and just seems to blend in.sadly some of my piercings cannot be shown here,mainly my apadravya and ampallang but those who know me well may have had the pleasure of seeing them in the flesh anyway ;) i'm sure you know who you are! uber thanks to darryl @ retro rebels in aberdeen for all my piercings thus far and lots of future ones too.ear jewelery constantly supplied by my awesome friends here:www.stretchedears.com
thanks to jason & gary @ inverness' tattoo/piercing studio for all the jewelery i've bugged the hell out of them for and hugs galore to jason (we're becoming gauge whores man! soon to be the only people with split tongues in inverness also) for stretching my septum thus far and for future stretchings to my septum/nostrils and lip.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-
xXx-xXxi am more than happy to talk about what i have had done to my body and will be more than happy to fill you in with great detail,so if you ever see me around don't hesitate to speak,i swear you'll realise how easy i am to talk to,besides i'd rather you spoke than stared,to which i'll just stick my tongue out at you and make you laugh.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xX
x-xXx-xXxif anyone has a query about a piercing or body mod related issue please just give me a shout,i am highly gen'd up on the do's and don'ts and will definitely give you sound advice and action to take.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx
-xXx-xXxi'm quite an athletic person but don't play sports.i cycle a hell of alot in my job and outside of work.most days i'll go for a cycle and in the summer it's not rare for me to be out for 5 hours tearing up woods all over here on my mountian bike (a hefty £2600 beast) my brother xChrisx will always be by my side during lengthy cycles,good times ensue,sadly as do the falls.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xX
x-xXx-xXxi am a misanthrope,yeah what is that? i hear you! nothing major,just an outlook on life.i shall post a blog with the words that mean the most to me from being a misanthrope and ones that fit me well,not in a bad way! honest! infact,i urge you read that now before you read on,it shall explain the future paragraph:xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xX
x-xXx-xXx-xXxso,i have a hatred for "mankind and society" in general.please do not hold this against me,if you treat me with care and respect i will do the same to you,tenfold even.i would and will do anything for genuine people as i feel it within my heart to do so.i guess i care too much.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx
-xXx-xXxi just want for people to think about their actions,as for every action there is a reaction.there is always a flip side to the coin.i have been judged and shunned by society many times,looked down upon,swore at and been started on all for how i look.do you blame me for having a hatred for mankind or society? you would feel the exact same as i do if you've seen what i've had to put up with and all for being an individual! but,it won't break me nor change who i am.i have a strong mind.and an even stronger heart.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xX
x-xXx-xXxspeaking of having heart:i have THE upmost respect and love for animals and insects.i save all of them i can,i swear it makes me happy to save something else that is breathing and living.everything deserves a chance in life,insects have brains,a heart and breath just as we do so why kill them? the same goes for animals,even more so i might add.they were here first and we should respect their lives as much as we do our own.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-
xXx-xXxi am xSTRAIGHTxEDGEx,xDRUGxFREEx,xEDGEx (for those not in the know,straight edge is a lifestyle which i adhere to which means i do not drink alcohol,smoke or take drugs.the X's by my name and the words i type represent the str8edge lifestyle which i will forever live proudly.it's not for everybody,but i like to be in control of my thoughts and actions.i refuse to live my life through jaded thoughts and visions) and have been for over 9 years,a lifetime commitment:nothing else.i'm not xhardlinex and i don't preach (if i do it's jokingly,honest) so each to their own.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-
xXx-xXxi have been a massive supporter of the xHXCx / Metalcore scene for 12 years now,have a spy at my "friends" on here to listen to what stirs my blood.i have an incredible collection of xHxCx / Metalcore music,currentely over 6000+ cd's,hundreds of vinyl and merch and my collection grows weekly,sometimes daily! it's grrrrrrrrreat! (toni the tiger gave me permission to use that saying)xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-x
Xx-xXx-xXxi collect figures from films,cartoons and t.v and have decorated my room with hundreds of them.i use to be a huge video games player/collector but slowly gave up on this scene after the release of the PS2,sadly i lost interest.i still own all my old consoles and games which i doubt i will part with anytime soon,unless i need to buy a flat or house,or condor,or timeshare apartment,wife,tea maid,slave.....etc..etc......xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx
-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXxWOW! i type alot.this is only a small portion of what and who i am,there's a hell of alot more i could ramble on about but i guess you'll just have to connect with me and find that jazzy out for yourself.these words are from my heart,100%.they are constantly typed as if i were speaking to you face to face.this is my life and thus far i am proud of the path i have paved.so,i guess this wraps it up nicely for now.if by chance and a stroke of luck somebody out there wants to know more about me or likes the things i do just gimme a message,i shall attempt to reply a.s.a.p but i do tend to tire easily and bed is the only cure.i really am the nicest person you will never know,unless you add or message me.it's as simple as that.look past what i look like,don't judge on looks,personality will always shine through and i'll prove that to you.xMIKExTOTHExCOREx 2006.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx
-xXx-xXxoh! add me to msn is you want and we'll shoot the garb in real time.just message me with your addy or ask for mine.it's a rockin' and a rollin' and always a screamin'.xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXxSTRAIGHTxXx-xXx-xXx-xXx-xXx
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xXx-xXx-xXx-xXxsome choice shai hulud lyrics that always inspire and make you think:-----------------------------This world is a burden and it disgusts me.
I want to deny it,it's inhabitants and their possessions.
I'm embarrassed to know this soil produced me.
I'm dying to be elsewhere,trying not to belong in a nature
of impulse and self indulgence.
A brother to none,my kinship lies elsewhere.--------------------------------------------------
--------How can i keep stability on such shaky ground?
Prayers that a smile will flag me down.
Sadly I've learned there's no truth in comfort;
Well-being stems not from love.
Anguish proves to be my only means of solace,
Yet I want to be held by anyone,
With any arms.
I spend another morn alone,
In a world that rejects me.
A public unkind,laced with apathy.
This one's for the world:I hate you.
Life could get no colder;
I'm living out a dying cell,
But I can pull through.----------------------------------------------------
------i am a demon,a vicious fiend.
let me alone in peace
to be the beast of a man
the world has made me.i am prepared to fight humanity every day
for the rest of my life,albeit,my mind and body
yearn for tranquility.people that should earn my love consistently warrant my hate.i truly resent this.-------------------------------------------------------
---no man can learn the value of his life without pain.
yet,no man deserves a life's worth in pain.
and i have a lifetime left to learn.am i not a better man?a man who has grown sound and strong,
a man who has learned from his misery.am i not a better man?a clever man who taught his flesh the way of steel.
this lasting man of resolve and will.am i not a better man?or just a bitter man
that rots with memoirs and only grows cold.-------------------------------------------------------
---My life has been a breach of contract and faith.
I kid myself.
Moving through self degradation.
I turn to you for appreciation.
So help me to help myself.
So help me to love myself.-----------------------------------------------------
-----Chaos must succumb to order
Lest these days be numbered.
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I cannot contribute to disarray.
I simply cannot relate.
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Let this be my act of defiance.
Let this be my refusal to fit in.
Let this be my writ of misanthropy..-----------------------------------------------
-----------Thankyou with all my black heart to the band shai hulud for their inspiration and words over the years.their words,thoughts and outlook have help mold me into how i think today.some may see this as a bad thing,however i'd like to think i have a good concept & outlook on life,be it slightly darker and more bleak than my fellow brethren.
