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Get Myspace Layouts @ CodeMyLayout.comJUST HIGHLIGHT AN READ TO PREVENT SEISURES.. THAT ONE GOES OUT TO KITTIE... What best describes me is life experience.To experience life towards the realm of excaping reality, to cherish youth more than any person you'll ever meet with low expectations of the average american society an living the american dream, but towards creating myself in the most natural way to express my own individuality without any judgement towards my own choices and live life without regret. I am in my own "OUT THERE" you may say an may not be understandable to the trained eye. I am a lil to free in this world exaggerating the term free, but my own rules have consequences. I have been told "Im so strong" when I was a fake when actuallity I created this facade that made me not think of what I needed to think, an deal with most. Instead just have a "pretty" face with no emotion. And when I saw my friends the ones closest to me seeing threw this I knew I had a family again. I'll admit that I have cried so hard, shaken so bad an lost control of my mind an questioned the term life.I've realized that the smallest things can make me sad an maybe shed a tear, but the hardest things others would lose all emotion over doesnt effect me till a couple years down the road when in some act of unknown I finally realize what I have lost an breakdown. I'm not an unhappy peson cause i really dont know the difference between the two but I get by with jokes an sarcasm. I've taken hits, been unconcious mistreated an recycled like trash. The emergency room had once become a second home to me when all I wanted was to be safe. all I can say is that I am pretty much scarred, on my skin but mostly with in, with the rotton decay:) of my own emotions that I had no control over, that I stored with in, thinking it would dissapear like the people who meant most to me have, only to find out you have to deal with every problem life hands you cause no trip, move or escape could ever make what hurts you the most go away. And thats where I am now. I chose my own therapy an even the ones closest to me had full disagreement. In the outcome I agree with the steps I made even if most seem to be mistakes. Because now I know an have more knowledge. Even if most of my life are full of the most fucked up situations an the most badass ones I'm Destiny Woods and I'm still alive. "I" PUSHED THE LIMIT.. I border lined excape of life WHEN LIVING, I HURT PEOPLE I LOVED WITHOUT KNOWING I HAD NO EXCUSE. I did what I could to survive when knowing I didnt even want that. I know I have grown out of what I was making myself. I have dreams now an know what I want. The partying has come to a =pause=. The fog machine doesnt need anymore juice an the lazers an trifecta will always be shining when I come back around but this time it will be to celebrate what I have done. This message may be upright disturbing but its the only thoughts I could come up with to not go into detail about what has been happening in my life cause thats just way to much typing. I'm still looking for that place called Home, an when I do your all invited cause thats what I want more than anything just to go home, NO ONE could ever understand what that means to me an the journey that led me to just wanting this simple thing, but in all seriousness I just really want to go home, an one day I'll be there an never stop smiling.Thank you for the ones reading this. And to you, you are probly the reason why I am still alive today. This profile was tweaked at MyspaceGeeks.com
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21+
$10
No Dresscode
Drink Till 6 AM
Badass Lights+Kickass Peeps+Killer Sound
Hosted By: SpooM Productions
When: 23/02/2008
Where: THE WAREHOUSE
630 Commerce
Shreveport, LA 71101
United States
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SpooM Productions
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