jenna

i am jenna. i am 23. i dont want to be 23, because i feel 19. even tho i've had a hip replacement. and pelvic reconstruction. i have forgotten my real hair colour. i have freckles on my face. and i like them. i worry all the time. i am worried about my voice at this moment. i like kissing. its a strange act, but i like it. i would kiss the planet if i could. but that could just get icky. i hate shoes. i hate clothing. it restricts me. words restrict me. i wish i could paint. but i cant. but i draw good stick men. i have ADD in my hands, i cannot keep them still, ever. i think thats why i used to smoke. my hands like the action. now i just smoke hubbly. obsessively. sometimes i smile when i sleep. apparently, but sometimes i wake up, and i feel im smiling, kinda creepy. i woke up laughing the other day actually. i hear things that go bump in the night, scares me sometimes. i hate sleeping alone. despise it. i like the ocean, love it. but you'll never catch me swimming in it. there are fish in there. ive been bridge rappelling, and jumped from bridges, but too scared to walk on a staircase, where you can see thru the stairs. i do not like heights. i am bored most of the time. and apparently i party too much. but dont we all?