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Everything is not as it seems

About Me

Well you probably don’t want to know me or you want to know me. I am a constant contradiction I am up and down, left and right, stupid and smart, right but wrong. I strive to be the best at everything. I have to out do everybody. I have it all a good job, a good family and the best friends in the world. Its always nice to win but when you win everything you have nothing to live for anymore. I have accomplished it all but have nothing to show for it. You go from having the whole world in the palm of your hand to having nothing. You have dreams but that is all they are because you have no drive to do any of them. I am depressed but happy to be so. I find pleasure in pain, self-pity, and self-loathing. I’m self destructive and loving it. I live a very self-centered life. I’m the axis that the world revolves around yes ME. It’s a lonely place at the top. When you wake up and figure out that the world is not real but what you make of it. I don’t care about companionship any more. I have loved but hate them now. I love everything but hate everything at the same time. I’m a very jealous person but don’t show it. I pretend to be happy but I’m saddened to do so. I always look for what can’t be seen. I try to understand other people but don’t understand myself. I need to resolve my issues but don’t want to. I want to die but choose to live (its harder to live). Well I’m glad this fucking shit makes you think of me. So you send many emails trying to figure what the hell I’m talking about. Well I’m glad. So I hope you enjoy, thanks. Here goes something else you didn’t know I love all the thought provoking power you give me and this little profile. Thanks, I love it so enjoy. Well this is going nowhere and everywhere so thanks enjoy I love it. Awesome this new found power of everything thought provoking thanks enjoy I love it. I’m glad I could service you in some way in provoking some thoughts I love it so thanks. So could you give me some more time to waste out of your life so don’t die thanks I love it. Also let’s go somewhere to think of others and let me think of everything that is meaningless thanks I love it enjoy. Well I have to go so see you in another life thanks for everything and good buy only on Ebay.

My Interests

Listening to music, 4-Wheelin (I use to be able to say that i traded it for a tv. ATV for a tv), and makin $

I'd like to meet:

Anybody and everybody AIM (slimmach1234) YAHOO is the same. Well I thought I would like to meet everyone but if your one of those girls who want me to spend every dime I have, looking at you on one of those stupid cams, don’t bother I won’t acknowledge that you are alive, and I for damn sure don’t want to BE YOUR FRIEND

Music:

Ok there is so many genres that I like so this will take a few mins to read. Ok to start Marilyn Manson, Korn, Disturbed, Tool, Pantera, Nine inch Nails, System of a Down, Lamb of God, Static X, Adema, Staind (Dysfunction only), Deftones, The almighty Metallica, A Perfect Circle, Vision of Disorder, Godsmack, Rage, Sound Garden, Linkin Park, and various others I cant think of right now. Sorry I will update at a later time when I’m bored.

Movies:

Mostly weird twisted movies like House of a 1000 corpses, The devils rejects, Saw I II & III, SIN CITY, Hostel, Primal fear, The matador, Phone booth, stigmata, Fallen, The exorcism of emily rose, V for Vendetta, Secret Window, Fight club, and the Nineth gate to name a few

Television:

I try not to watch tv. I have found most people who watch television are slowly lowering ther IQs.

Books:

Well I didn’t use to but lately I’ve found a real interest in Ayn Rand, Ray Bradbury, Anton Lavey, Alester Crowley, King James Version, and various others.

Heroes:

Bill Gates

My Blog

Hypocrisy

I've been doing some soul searching so to speak on the term. I have found that we all play the part of the hypocrite to some extent (some more than others). I have heard that it's morally wrong to hav...
Posted by LOST on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 10:21:00 PST

Illusions

Illusions are an everyday occurrence in day-to-day life. Illusions are misdirection or an erroneous perception of reality, and the condition of being deceived by a false perception or belief. Understa...
Posted by LOST on Sat, 10 Mar 2007 03:55:00 PST

Lucifer

LUCIFER The archangel cast from heaven for leading the revolt of the angels; Satan. The planet Venus in its appearance as the morning star. ETYMOLOGY: Middle English, from Old English, morning star...
Posted by LOST on Sat, 10 Mar 2007 01:21:00 PST

I don't know anymore

You know I don't know what to think anymore.   I thought I had it all worked out.   My life seemed to be going the way I wanted it to be going.   I seem to be losing grip on things. ...
Posted by LOST on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 04:41:00 PST

Insurance

I've been doing some searching of many religions lately. I've found that there are a lot of similarities in the main three being Christianity, Islam, and Judaism. I'm thinking that they are a derivati...
Posted by LOST on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 01:04:00 PST

The misuse of God

I think it's a shame what Christians are doing to their religion, the total misuse of god in their belief system to excuse their behavioral problems. Well I can do this or that and just ask ...
Posted by LOST on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 12:13:00 PST

Love and the fallacy of it

Well I probably shouldn't be saying this here but I need some way to vent. I don't think many people read my profile but if you do well disregard my idiosyncrasy's. My topic for this evening is love. ...
Posted by LOST on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 08:21:00 PST