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vampe

I am here for Friends

About Me

Its the sweetest emptiness of love
A bitter poison is everything that Ive become
And every single tear I owned has run dry on this face
Now that you are gone... I don't add people who I don't know personally, in the real world perfectly simple to understand I don't need your drama, I have plenty of my own I don't need your sob stories , I don't need fake friendships , users or anything of that description. I dont have, need or want to waste anymore time with that. I don't want a boyfriend , I don't want to date you , fuck you , I dont even want to touch you, and I probably don't want to get to know your personality either. I'm in love with someone who I can no longer have , who I destroyed. Therefore I don't care if you think I'm "hot" , "pretty" , "sexy" . I don't care for your opinion either. If I wanted it , I'd ask you.
Stalk me:
http://deadballet.livejournal.com/profile
http://www.bodymodifications.net/member/vampe/
http://www.last.fm/user/vampe/
http://www.helgon.net/userinfo/userinfo.asp?ID=1049161
http://irc-galleria.net/view.php?nick=vampe
I rarely update any of these anymore Find something else to do with your life.

My Interests

photography , serial killers/serial murder , true crimes, music , europe , Finland , languages , scandinavia , forensics , criminal psychology, learning, intelligent conversations , digital manipulation , small groups & close friendships, the criminal mind , long books , silence, new music , accents , secrets between friends , the silence inbetween you & I , invisible connections.

I'd like to meet:

The person I miss the most in the world.

Music:

alexi laiho, anton laurila, apocalyptica, apulanta, billy corgan, bleak, bloodpit, , bush, charon, children of bodom, cradle of filth, , daniel lioneye, dave grohl, deathstars, dimmu borgir, dir en grey, disharmonia mundi, dope stars inc, eicca toppinen, emerson burton, entwine, faith no more, feiled, finntroll, foo fighters, for my pain, fuel, gavin rossdale, ghost love score, h.i.m, hanson, hardcore superstar, in flames, icon & the black roses , jocke berg, janne warman, jeff martin, john 5, jon crosby, jonne aaron, juha-pekka leppäluoto, kotiteollisuus, lacuna coil,lullacry, marilyn manson, malice mizer, matthau mikojan, mike patton, moi dix mois, moonspell, mortiis, negative, nightwish, norther, ocean machine, opeth, pasi sipilä,pain,Peter Tägtgren, peter lindgren, petri lindroos, placebo, poets of the fall, poisonblack, richard kruspe, sentenced, soilwork, static-x, strapping young lad, sven friedrich, taylor hanson, the 69 eyes, the rasmus, the smashing pumpkins, the tea party, timo-timo, to/die/for, tuomas holopainen, turmion kätilöt, uniklubi, vast, , ville laihiala, ville valo, winter, zeraphine

Movies:

Silence of the Lambs , The Stand , Session 9 , Se7en , Jackass , Basic instinct , It , Apt pupil , The shining.

Television:

CSI , Law & Order , The sopranos , Lost , Medium , Carnivale, Family guy.

Books:

The Stand , IT , The encyclopedia of serial killers , memoirs of a geisha , inside the mine of john wayne gacy , The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer, Night Stalker: The True Story of Richard Ramirez.

Heroes:

Peter Tägtgren, Dave Grohl, Jeff Martin

My Blog

Life is bullshit at the best of times.

Life - I've stopped writing in here for a long time, but since I hardly contact anyone anymore. Here I go.   Broke up with Marcus january - April. Completely fucked. Hospital . Feb - Birthday , ...
Posted by vampe on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 09:00:00 PST

:/

I didnt think it was possible to be so miserable without someone.   I miss us , and how much you used to make me smile.  ...
Posted by vampe on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 12:24:00 PST

Helldone 2006/07

No idea who I was smsing. This year sucked , and the bands sucked too.
Posted by vampe on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 11:13:00 PST

!

I'm going to see Dir En Grey in berlin. We booked our flights tonight.   My brother is even coming down !...
Posted by vampe on Tue, 07 Feb 2006 04:51:00 PST

I drown the whole idea as I drift away from you...

If I did the right thing , why do I feel like such a fucking idiot still ? I feel like I'm stuck in a really un-funny version of Groundhog day.    ...
Posted by vampe on Sun, 05 Feb 2006 02:29:00 PST

Helldone.

The rest of these ill post later tonight.     Caleb :)   Linde & Ville Linde I cheat & take photos of setlists' so I don't forget. ;)...
Posted by vampe on Wed, 18 Jan 2006 08:27:00 PST

Maybe it was because I didn't know you at all.

I seem to be letting things get the better of me these past few days. I'd do anything to have him back just one last time , I dont like to rely on anyone or feel like I would feel better if they were...
Posted by vampe on Fri, 06 Jan 2006 01:28:00 PST

This was supposed to be the place I was happiest in..

I was always happy coming back to Finland , I'm supposed to be happy while I'm here. But I just sat in the hallway and cried for 40 minutes . I feel like ending everything right now , this depre...
Posted by vampe on Mon, 02 Jan 2006 03:21:00 PST

Hide from the sun..

I miss Tapani. More than I thought I would, I got some photos back of him & I together last time I was in Helsinki.  I do want him back so badly.. & I'd do just about anything..&nbs...
Posted by vampe on Thu, 15 Dec 2005 11:22:00 PST

Your love with be the death of me..

I think it's much easier to get over someone when you realised the thing you liked about the most was a total lie , or in otherwords the person is a fake. I still don't have my laptop back. I'm not g...
Posted by vampe on Sat, 15 Oct 2005 08:47:00 PST