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Rate my poem, Go hereI've been sitting quietly trying to think of something appropriate to display in my "about me" section. I guess the problem is that "me" is a very fluid concept right now. Funny how I always sit to write when I'm feeling sad, but I guess this is the time you will get the most raw side of me. I am a binge reader obsessed with music in every form. Poetry is my favorite method of soul-searching, Im a movie buff who appreciates dark humor and thrives to acheive the greatness found in many Sundance Nominees. I've always had a dream of becoming part of something great. In an ideal world I would be able to live off making music and sharing my words with the world. I don't think I have any real friends, I'm pathetically insecure and I am constantly doubting myself. On the other hand, I'm probably one of the most confident people I know. I love people who love people. I love animals and if I had the discipline I would still be vegan to this day. When people ask me what I want to be when I grow up it usually comes out as "hair stylist" or "on broadway" or "psychologist" but what I really want to do is work with children. I want to use my money to start a dance/music therapy program for mentally unstable teenagers. I want to use my money to expand research on the causes and effects of Borderline Personality Disorder and I want to save all Africans from AIDS. I want to be the face and voice in front of a movement so grand that the whole world will have to take a breath and listen because we won't be silenced. I want to create a cure for war. I want to touch the heart of every person in the world who has ever felt unloved, unneeded, unfulfilled. I want to take them in my arms and tell them to look at the sun. I want to create a safe haven for abused children and rape victims. I want free healthcare. But most of all I want to spread hope. Hope is the cure. I have lived in the depths of my own mind, suffocated in darkness, and I've forged through and come out stronger than I was before. So love me, hate me, judge me, I am me and I like the person I have the potential to become. Are you the person you're intended to be?

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I'd like to meet:

I need a man who is strong, independent, and good with his hands. I need a man who is on the same level with me and on the same page as me when it comes to my thoughts. I need a man who has been through enough on his own in life to know who he is and what he wants. I need a man who has goals and wants a family. I need a man who loves his mother and has experience with women. I need a man who isn't afraid to say what he thinks, but likewise isn't afraid to hear what I have to say. I need a man who's man enough to take care of a real woman because I can be quite the spitfire. I need a man who's not afraid to get his hands dirty or make mistakes. I need a man with a firm set of shoulders and a good head on those shoulders. Big hands, body hair, scars. I need a man whose not afraid to be upstaged because he knows he's really the center of my universe. I need a man who's willing to make the big gestures. I need a man with a bold and indepedent sense of style who won't let me make all of his fashion decisions for him. I need a man who's not afraid to laugh at himself or at me. Most of all, I need a man who is an optimist and a risk taker, a man who will treat me as his equal while still making me feel like his princess. I need a man who's not afraid of commitment. I don't want a fling and I don't want another "what if". I want my life to start going the way I planned it a long time ago and that requires a man strong enough to reign me in and stick around for the long haul. I'm done dealing with boys. Nothing but real men from here, so deal with it. PS--I'm NOT afraid to make you work for my attention so you better be up for the task.the first dance (the contemporary) is my favorite!

Music:

Opera, Broadway, Punk, Emo, Alternative, Rock, Hip-Hop, Classical, rap, indie, pop, hardcore...you name it I love it .... width="425" height="350" ..

Movies:

haha--everything. Boondock Saints! Ferris Beuler's Day Off, The Princess Bride...Donnie Darko...V for Vendetta...Girl, Interrupted is hands down my favorite movie ever...I love indie films and anything raw. I also love comedy...the good kind, not stupid romantic comedies that have a cheesy perfected ending. anything with intense cinematography....ie Man on Fire or Domino--both fabulous films. Quentin Tarantino of course, but he tends to be a bit overrated at times. I'd like him more if all of his movies weren't the same, but that doesn't make me like him any less. I think scary movies are stupid. I take many different categories into account when judging the quality of a film, so if I think a certain movie is good, my opinion could be solely based upon the lighting in a certain scene, or the script in the opening scene....it all depends. there are alot of different things that can make a movie good...I just hope more people start utilizing them lol.

Television:

Don't watch tv...well didn't until I went to college...I like Gilmore Girls--it's a fun show. Grey's Anatomy is awesome. Malcolm in the Middle is hands down the best show ever!!!! Then of course, Scrubs, LOST, 24, Heroes, Jericho, Desperate Housewives.....mostly I just watch the episodes I miss .. lol
Your Hidden Talent
You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's Your Hidden Talent?

Books:

"On The Occasion Of My Last Afternoon" by Kaye Gibbons...anything by Clive Cussler, James Rollins or Jack Karouac...Chris Heimerdinger..."A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey...Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen...geez I've read so many books in the past year I can't even remember their names! sheesh....I should look that up lol

Heroes:

heroics are overrated and all too often under appreciated...but my father will forever remain my own hero.

My Blog

Chapter six--completed

My intelligence craves seduction. I desire to be thrown about recklessly in a world of everlasting knowledge. Eat and Drink literature. Breathe experience. Sleep culture. ...
Posted by [made in canada] on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 10:23:00 PST

chapter five

Alas, draconian fiend, I find myself inept for the due discourse of your plight. I am not considered an eloquent associate, but perhaps simply a heathen of opportunity. Mine eyes have dece...
Posted by [made in canada] on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 02:00:00 PST

the truth about The Inconvenient Truth

ok. as many of you may already know, i don't sleep. not at night at least. sleeping is a practice I unwillingly gave up a while ago. I rest, and think. and when I am resting an...
Posted by [made in canada] on Fri, 02 Jun 2006 02:15:00 PST

last thoughts...

and I'm left with nothing but the remains of a thousand unwanted kisses burning and searing on my tainted flesh. beyond the bulbs of memory lies everything I've ever remembered to forget. tearing at t...
Posted by [made in canada] on Wed, 17 May 2006 01:05:00 PST

love is not like anything....

small simple safe pricerise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets this is not a small cut that scabs and dries and flakes and heals and i am not afraid to die i'm not afraid to bleed and f...
Posted by [made in canada] on Sun, 14 May 2006 01:47:00 PST

a true revolution

the courage to encompass ones imperfections i'm afraid i seemingly lack. drowning through sedations of insiduousness i've gathered the last of my pathetic hope and created an ease with which to ...
Posted by [made in canada] on Sun, 23 Apr 2006 09:17:00 PST

my world...

when i wake from dreams i find myself wishing i were back in that powerful world of expiramentation. Happiness eludes me in the waking world. Reverie is my only escape. I try to sink...
Posted by [made in canada] on Wed, 01 Feb 2006 11:09:00 PST

sound of silence

hello darkness my old friendi've come to talk with you againbecause a vision softly creepingleft its seed while I was sleepingand the vision that was plantedin my brain, still remains within the sound...
Posted by [made in canada] on Sun, 21 Aug 2005 02:27:00 PST

O CANADA! my Christina Lake pics!

Now I took most of these pictures, so they're mostly of my sister and cousins, but I am in a few! there's a ton! Enjoy :) my sister kyla holding my cousin brooke's new baby, ellie my bro...
Posted by [made in canada] on Fri, 19 Aug 2005 12:23:00 PST

Beck--lost cause

This one's for you Mike! Beck - Lost Cause -->Video provided by The Source...
Posted by [made in canada] on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST