Alleycat

At times..I do believe I am as tempermental as a cat. I've the ability to turn hot and cold at will. If I feel like it, I know I can be a darling. O/w I'll have no qualms giving you the cold shoulder.But frankly speaking, even I have problems understanding myself. At times I feel like I need to be cuddled and protected in someone's arms, but sometimes I feel like I want to be fiercely independent. At times I feel weary. But as to what do I feel weary about..I absolutely have no idea. At times I feel on top of the world, brimming with confidence. But mostly, I wished I didn't have so many insecurites about myself. I see so many flaws in me, and I know that I can never compare to others. I want to be this bubbly cute girly woman with brains. Someone who's able to turn on the charms and gets giggly and light-headed at the right moment, and not seem stupid at the same time. I seek perfection. But are these my expectations or am I just expected to fufill other people's expectations of me? -sigh- I think I'm talkin nonsense.