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About Me

I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.Like a corpse in a shallow grave, corruption rises to the surface...
Fallen angel, crashes dead, out of control. Lost memories, staircase twists. Darker rooms lit with left out toys. After playing, changes toys into, Twisted playthings on the staircase fools. Whose weapons represents the killing game. Who taught the killing game? Who taught the killing game? Awaken. Eyes sewn wearing glasses dripping, tap tap temple door. Locked inside, scream inner scraping, tooth and nail. Nowhere to go. Quiet, retraces, forcing light tears. Then pretend nothing blinds. Blinds closed in sanctuary. Closed in sanctuary. Padded walls, not quiet. Storm's fury burnt out. Killing time. Who taught the killing game? Time's taught the killing game, herself. No. I taught the killing game. First. Passing words. Distant pain. Remember trains of thought collide. No one view window. Pushing faces through, shards cold glass. Poke bloody holes, exposed. I taught the killing game first. I taught the killing game. First. Tongue lash spewing red. Tortured animals, wake up time. Beckons death upon myself. Eyes travelled harden. Strange no stronger feeling. Tempting motion, slows to a crawl. Places his weaponry and it's a trap. Let go, the springs snap shut. Gazes show sharper teeth, giving in, to the jaws of death. I taught the killing game. I taught the killing game. First.Fall fires burning neath black twisted boughs. Sacrifice - to above. Smoke swirling quickly towards misting clouds. Offering - of this blood. Into the flames and without shame - consumed with howls and screams. Pumpkins grin - in their despair - on all - hallows eve. Cruel be the wind as it quells my words. I shout out - to the rain. Incantations I've so hope you've heard - that you - live again. From deep earth brings forth rebirth witness but I shant believe. From below a chilling glow - on all - hallows eve. Be spiderwebbed and glazed in frost. She wears death - beautifully. More stunning now - than in her life - on a bed - of autumn leaves. Into her eyes and quite surprised I whispered don't you leave. Sing macabre songs and we'll dance til dawn - on all hallows eve. Cold is the night in so many ways. Luna round - full and bright. Deep be the mud on the fresh dug graves. On yours - I recite. An ancient spell I know so well success is guaranteed. I'll bring you back from where you've gone. On All Hallows Eve.

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There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis, my punishment continues to elude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself; no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing... .. ..

My Blog

My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone

All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sh...
Posted by on Wed, 01 Aug 2018 11:33:00 GMT

Love burns it’s casualties...

Yesterday was a million years ago,In all my past lives I played an asshole,Now I found you, it's almost too late,And this earth seems obliviating.We are trembling in our crutches,High and dead our ski...
Posted by on Wed, 22 Dec 2010 13:43:00 GMT

I hid the keys to unlock loves heart, to hold you in my sweetest pain and suffering...

I hid the keys to unlock love's heartTo hold you in my sweetest pain and sufferingEverything's unfair in our lust and warRedemption beyond right and wrongIn our hearts love keeps sweet-talking to desp...
Posted by on Fri, 08 Oct 2010 18:11:00 GMT

The heart of darkness is hope of finding you there...

Confusion writhes around our hearts impatiently :It drains the faith that lights the dark and sets us free :From the chains of our war :And the pain we once called, Love::The poison of doubt enslaves...
Posted by on Mon, 04 Oct 2010 14:42:00 GMT

There is no turning back, from this unending path of mine...

    There is no turning back, from this unending path of mine.Serpentine and black, it stands before my eyes.To hell and back, it will lead me once more.It's all I have, as I stumb...
Posted by on Wed, 07 Apr 2010 19:53:00 GMT

Overwhelmed as one would be, if placed in my position...

Alrighty, then ... picture this if you will. 10 to 2am, an I was still eating a stale box of Krispy Kremes, in my "need to know" pose, just outside of Area 51 Contemplating the whole "chosen people" ...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 00:13:00 GMT

Self abusive recluse, too late for me.

Sloppy, mincing. Eye-dropping, biopsy.Cyclops overlooks. Optic options.Rotton, showstopper, skinpopper.babbler dabbler.Self confessed criminal.Tore pen in vain.Instant, still spellbound.Game stock, ta...
Posted by on Sat, 30 Aug 2008 05:22:00 GMT

I will never again feel Your sun upon my face...

Four centuries of this damned immortalityYet, I did not ask to be made. Why?I will never again feel your sun upon my faceOr the comfort of a graveI am not alive and I am not deadThis is Hell on earth...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 06:09:00 GMT

Did you walk with the sinners or pray with the reverend?

Eternity for each and every one of us Will you withstand and see the face of St. Peter As he smiles and greets you with a warm welcome? Or will you decline to the likes of Him? Who would have you spen...
Posted by on Wed, 31 Oct 2007 19:07:00 GMT

I don't feel anything.

Like a flash of light in an endless night.Life is trapped between two black entities.'Cause when you trust someone,Illusion has begun.No way to prepare,Impending despair.Did one say so cruel?"'Tis bet...
Posted by on Thu, 06 Sep 2007 02:17:00 GMT