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I don't really know what to say about myself here so I guess I will just ramble. I consider myself to be a pretty laid back and for the most part easy going when it comes to drama and that kind of stuff, I just don't feed into that. But when it comes to life and doing things that make me happy, I'm a very outgoing guy. I'm not a snob, alot of people think I am, but I'm just quiet sometimes when I'm around a bunch of people I don't know, believe me, I have no reason to snob someone, unless of course you fall into my categories of reasons to be snobbed, then in that case, yes, I am snobbing you, lol. Once I open up to someone, I'm a very loving, caring guy. It's became a little bit harder year by year to open up to people, just due to life and the experiences I've had. I'm not an untrusting person, but I would say it's very difficult for me to put 100% faith in their honesty. I would say that I'm very in touch with who I am as a person and I am constantly searching for ways to improve, while at the same time being completely happy with what I am and where I am in my life. That can sometimes be a little difficult, but I try and thats what matters. I think most poeple that know me would agree that I'm pretty optimistic, I tend to try to find the good things in most things and situations. I've lived in Cape Girardeau most of my life, except for a couple of years when I was a kid, I lived in california. I'm ready to get the hell out of here, I just can't seem to find what I need here. I'm not sure exactly what I need, but I don't think that it's here. In the winter time I always get a little depressed, so I'm thinking that moving somewhere warmer would fix half of my problem. I'm actually positive that it would. Just to start over somewhere new with good weather and new oppurtunities sounds so exciting to me. The people around here seem so...whats the word I'm looking for...ummm...disconnected, thats it! From what I've seen, people around here don't really care about other people, they talk and they walk but they just carry a blank stare with them at all times. That tells me that they are incapable of true friendship or especailly a relationship. Selfishness runs far and wide in this area.