Upon Thy throne, Oh glorious Night,
I see me cast out from Thine Light.
Caught. "Lost from grace, to mourn?" I plea.
A fallen stands. Lo, here I be.
M.
Ever evolving.. Stage to stage from a worn and dusted shell to the brilliant essence of the most beautiful butterfly. Be warned- I don't much care for the feeling of being used or patronized so if it is truly of interest or concern for you, then by all means, please chat with me, if not, then kindly fuck off. For the simple minded- Quirky, offbeat, unusual and most of the time easily misunderstood. Jealous and protective, sometimes reclusive.. An enigma. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but it can be very easy to confuse my emotions and thoughts. Tending to overanalyze and on occasion be compulsive. Random and outspoken, yet introverted. Love observing the human condition..
Welcome to the insanity that is me.
I have been through alot in the course of my short-lived lifespan. Twenty-four years can seem like an eternity to one's own self. To Hell and back. Around the sun, and past the rainbow. The journey is neverending. Each stop brings a new lesson, some taken with a grain of salt and a thank you, and some filled with pain and heartache. I have seen what may seem horrific become a gateway only to open something better. I have witnessed the utmost faith bring down doors nailed and windows barred.
In each day we feel the pangs of loves lost, the joy of love burning anew, and the rekindling of flames within. We absorb knowledge, and yearn for far more then any one person can willingly give. We grow apart, sometimes together, and when applicable- both. We feel the fires of lust, and the cool fevers of sadness. Pain and sorrow; confusion and happiness. Simple elements that we each need and yet do not want.
I feel the transformation. My body is dying around me, every day, and yet I know that I am simply in my beginning stages. This is not the end. There is no end. I am eternal. My body holds within its shell the duality of good and evil, each breaking the mold to create the perfect symbiotic lifeform. I advise you not attempt to play games with me, for I have come full circle to my limit. The chaotic membrane is loosening, and Mania as you once knew her is peeling from her coil. Beauty and deviance run hand in hand, as do pain and pleasure or love and hate. Together they melt and mold, for none was created as this. None so near Heaven and Hell as myself. The dark to your light, or light to your dark? Neither matters, for I am both. And this I accept.
Tempting, smouldering, burning inside. My body is a temple, and you would do best to worship it. My touch is like fire and ice. My mind is free and untamed and does not bend to your command. My soul is a corona that outshines any beauty you could imagine. My heart is precious, and you would do good to cherish every piece that is given to you.My love is a love that does not die.
Know within, that each step back is one forward. Trust in love and keep faith steadfast. Believe in yourself, and in those you share your soul with. Rise above, and unite.
Can you save me from myself...Or should you save yourself from me?
♥ Adore me or hate me, but first and foremost- know that I am there .. ♥
