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Your reason to die for

as cold as ice

About Me

MyGen Profile Generator I go to Carroll College in Waukesha...Doing the whole health field shit. Im big on observing people. Trying to figure them out. Why they do things, who they really are, stuff like that. Im facinated with people but disgusted at the same time. My life is a roller coaster of ups and downs. Im a very loud person and very outgoing. But take a look in my eyes and ull uncover more than just a fun person that laughs at everything. Wanna talk. AIM= st00pidkat

My Interests

playing guitar, sleeping, music especially metal and 80's, smoking, friends, cuddling, beer, and whiskey

I'd like to meet:

Someone who shares my chioce in music, has a band, or is looking for someone to listen. Oh, and billy idol. ;)

Music:

shadows fall, killswitch engage, NIN, in flames, black dahlia murder, slayer, unearth, misery signals,cannibal corpse, himsa,behemoth, Motley Crue, Skid Row, Poison,Local H, Trvium, children of bodom, deicide, devildriver, dark tranquility, darkane, darkest hour,blood has been shed,if hope dies,damage plan, pantera,american head charge, death, god forbid, lucuna coil, Five finger death Punch, Job for a cowboy...more

Movies:

house of 1000 corpses, biodome, goonies, dazed and confused, anarchist cookbook, party monster, halloween, anything with lots of blood really

Television:

shit on vh1 like Rock of Love and I love House

Books:

hmmm i dont read.

Heroes:

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My Blog

It scares me

It scares me to think that u can find takers other than me, better than me. I thought u said things were improving. I cant walk away from this. All i think about is how things used to be. But i never ...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Sat, 11 Aug 2007 09:20:00 PST

you fucking lied to me

You said u would be there for me. You said u would give me time to figure out my life. You lied. You did no such thing. Ive shown you my weakness and with that u left me. Why couldnt i be what u neede...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 02:48:00 PST

dont want to

I dont want to forget what it feels like to feel the sun on my face but it is coming close to that. I feel trapped inside these walls. Im constantly watched. Its as tho nothing i can do can win back a...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Tue, 07 Aug 2007 09:15:00 PST

melancholy madness

Why do i still feel so empty? I have everything. But its like im cheated by life. No matter how much i have, its not enough. How can you say the things you do to me? do you really mean them? Why cant ...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Wed, 23 May 2007 07:47:00 PST

what i lack

feel like shit tonite...i just dont feel like doing anything...i have a lot of studying to do but its just not what i want to do rite now. I just want to get a little blood on you so the world would k...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Thu, 22 Feb 2007 07:38:00 PST

a scream

A scream is all i have left. A scream because i dont know what to do. A scream to let go of emotions. A scream because i need to let go. I scream for you to hear. I scream for myself. I scream because...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 10:18:00 PST

get me out of here

dont leave me now. dont leave me with the thoughts i have in my head. Im clawing at the door to let me out. I need u now more than ever. But ur not there, u never were. u lied. So hurt, so upset. I ju...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 01:36:00 PST

saw my life flash before me in your eyes

I keep trying to tell myself everything happens for a reason. But its just so hard to keep going....iv never tried so much just to lose. Iv never really lost. Its hard to take. Iv always been determin...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Wed, 31 Jan 2007 07:10:00 PST

why do i let

why do i let things get to me? Iv never been like this before. Iv never thought about a person constantly. Iv never wanted to be with someone so bad, that ill sacrafice plans or constantly ask if they...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 09:11:00 PST

2nd place is not winning

Rite now there are so many aspects that i come close to but not quite there. And in these cases, close doesnt cut it. Im just not sure how much more i can try. I feel as if im getting nowhere. Li...
Posted by Your reason to die for on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 09:29:00 PST