†Reading, first and foremost
†The Goth subculture
†Listening to music 24/7
†Surrealism and escapism of every kind
†Psychedelia and mind alteration. Dissociatives
†Discovering and exploring other realms
Just then her head struck against the roof of the hall: in fact she was now more than nine feet high
†Dreamworlds
†Urban Decay (my idea of)
†Beauty and the past
†Photography. Mostly of dark landscapes, old ruins and castles and Gothic churches
†Simon Marsden's photography
†The occult in general
†The night sky. Astronomy and astrology
†Melancholy and decadence
†Mythology and lore
†Paganism, especially Wicca
†LaVeyan Satanism
†Philosophy, just thinking about anything non mundane
†Dancing and escaping reality in Goth clubs and electro raves
†Squat parties
†Going to gigs
†Writing! Mostly random diary entries full of thoughts and musings of the most diverse kind, but I also enjoy writing fiction sometimes. Stories and poems. Hopefully a novel or two some day!
†Atmospheric and dark video games like 'American McGee's Alice'
†Alternative pubs and bars
†Androgyny, especially in young men ;)
†Non-conformism and deviance. The unconventional. Doing apparently wild or crazy things sporadically. Feeling free!
†Feeling loved and wanted, even though I try my best to be independent _A Fragment of 'Invocation to Misery' by Percy B. Shelley:
1.
Come, be happy!—sit near me,
Shadow-vested Misery:
Coy, unwilling, silent bride,
Mourning in thy robe of pride,
Desolation—deified!
2.
Come, be happy!—sit near me:
Sad as I may seem to thee,
I am happier far than thou,
Lady, whose imperial brow
Is endiademed with woe.
3.
Misery! we have known each other,
Like a sister and a brother
Living in the same lone home,
Many years—we must live some
Hours or ages yet to come.
4.
’Tis an evil lot, and yet
Let us make the best of it;
If love can live when pleasure dies,
We two will love, till in our eyes
This heart’s Hell seem Paradise.
5.
Come, be happy!—lie thee down
On the fresh grass newly mown,
Where the Grasshopper doth sing
Merrily—one joyous thing
In a world of sorrowing!
6.
There our tent shall be the willow,
And mine arm shall be thy pillow;
Sounds and odours, sorrowful
Because they once were sweet, shall lull
Us to slumber, deep and dull.
7.
Ha! thy frozen pulses flutter
With a love thou darest not utter.
Thou art murmuring—thou art weeping—
Is thine icy bosom leaping
While my burning heart lies sleeping?
8.
Kiss me;—oh! thy lips are cold:
Round my neck thine arms enfold—
They are soft, but chill and dead;
And thy tears upon my head
Burn like points of frozen lead.
9.
Hasten to the bridal bed—
Underneath the grave ’tis spread:
In darkness may our love be hid,
Oblivion be our coverlid—
We may rest, and none forbid.
10.
Clasp me till our hearts be grown
Like two shadows into one;
Till this dreadful transport may
Like a vapour fade away,
In the sleep that lasts alway.
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Magical individuals and beings ^.^
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Music:
Wide variety of genres, from Gothic to Black Metal to Industrial to Gabba to New Age to Spanish Hip Hop.
†My Dying Bride
†Rammstein
†Skinny Puppy
†Dead Can Dance
†Aphex Twin
†Die Verbannten Kinder Evas
†Forest Stream
†Haggard
†Autumn Tears
†CthoniC
†Psyclon Nine
†Mourning Beloveth
†The Sin:Decay
†London After Midnight
†Bauhaus
†Juno Reactor
†The Kovenant
†Virgin Black
†The Cure
†Ladytron
†Infected Mushroom
†Deathstars
†Forest of Shadows
†Placebo
†Enslavement of Beauty
†Tenochtitlan
†Raventale
†Jesu
†Elvenking
†Sins of Thy Beloved
†Diary of Dreams
†Atari Teenage Riot
†Laibach
†Combichrist
†Pendulum (some)
†Stream of Passion
†Alcest
†The Smashing Pumpkins
†Carpathian Forest
†Waffen SS
†The Crüxshadows
†System of a Down
†Summoning
†Wolfsheim
†Jefferson Airplane
†Avrigus
†Ataraxia
†Mind.In.A.Box
†Hocico
†VNV Nation
†Lacuna Coil
†Theatre of Tragedy
†Mindless Self Indulgence
†Leaves' Eyes
†Evadne
†Abney Park
†Evig Natt
†Aesma Daeva
†Inkubus Sukkubus
†Lacrimosa
†Depeche Mode
†Nine Inch Nails
†Faith and the Muse
†The Birthday Massacre
†Sigur Ros
†Mago de Oz
†Marea
†Apoptygma Berzerk
†Saurom Lamderth
†Funker Vogt
†Amduscia
†Cradle of Filth
†Kamelot
†Shade Empire
†Finntroll
†Darkwell
†Draconian
†Shape of Despair
†November's Doom
†Theatres des Vampires
†Macbeth
†Nirvana
†Blutengel
†Epica
†Empyrium
†The Dresden Dolls
†Gothminister
†Hildegard von Bingen
†Sibelian
†Joy Division
†Sisters of Mercy
†Katatonia (older stuff)
†Catatonia
†Kittie
†Melotron
†Midnattsol
†Ministry
†Siouxsie and the Banshees
†Moi Dix Mois
†Moonspell
†Nach Scratch
†Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds
†Sol Invictus
†Current 93
†The 69 Eyes
†Sopor Aeternus & the Ensemble of Shadows
†The Vision Bleak
†The Gathering
†The Dreamside
†The Last Dance
†Rain Fell Within
†Ambeon
†Tyr
†Illnath
†Paradise Lost
†Type O Negative
†Hybris
†Suicide Commando
†Lab 4
†Qntal
†Avril Lavigne
†Helium Vola
†Insomnium
†Schwarz Stein
†Assemblage 23
†Thorns of the Carrion
†Emilie Autumn
†And One
†Rasputina
†Threat Signal
Also a few movie soundtracks:
†Lord of the Rings Trilogy
†Amelie
†The Matrix
†Pan's Labyrinth
Movies:
†The Matrix
†The Lord of the Rings
†The Animatrix
†American Beauty
†Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
†Silent Hill
†Requiem for a Dream
†The Butterfly Effect
†The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things
†The Dark
†Dark Water (Japanese version)
†Sleepy Hollow
†My Neighbour Totoro
†Spirited Away
†The Craft
†Amelie
†The Company of Wolves
†Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
†The Sixth Sense
†Bram Stoker's Dracula
†The Mighty Boosh Live
†American History X
†Pan's Labyrinth
†Interview with the Vampire
†The Exorcism of Emily Rose
†The Amityville Horror
†28 Days Later/28 Weeks Later
†The Corpse Bride
†Edward Scissorhands
†The Nightmare Before Christmas
†Sin City
†Kill Bill 1
Television:
Generally sucks.
Cheese is a kind of meat.
A tasty yellow beef.
I milk it from my teat.
But I try to be discrete.
Oh cheese!
O cheese!
I don't actually own a TV, but alas there is now the evil they call the INTERNET!! *creepy suspense music*
†The Mighty Boosh
†Skins
†Daria
†South Park
Books:
†Tolkien
†Anne Rice
†Poppy Z Brite 'Lost Souls'
†Rachel Klein 'The Moth Diaries'
†Angela Carter 'The Bloody Chamber'
†Gaston Leroux 'The Burgled Heart'
†Michael Ende 'The Neverending Story' and 'Momo'
†'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas'
†'Harry Potter'
†Neil Gaiman 'Coraline', 'Neverwhere', 'Stardust'
†Elizabeth Kostova 'The Historian'
†Douglas Adams 'The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy'
†Edgar Allan Poe 'The Fall of the House of Usher and Other Stories'
†Jacqueline Wilson 'Girls' series
†Silver Ravenwolf 'Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the New Generation'
†Nancy Kilpatrick 'Goth Bible'
†Lewis Carroll 'Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking-Glass'
†Victoria Frances 'Favole' trilogy
†'Fruits Basket' manga by Natsuki Takaya
†Lots of classics, like 'Dracula', 'The Castle of Otranto', 'The Mysteries of Udolpho', 'Romance of the Forest', 'Pride and Prejudice', 'Northanger Abbey' and 'Wuthering Heights'
†Comics:
- 'Johnny the Homicidal Maniac'
- 'Squee'
- 'I Feel Sick'
- 'Lenore'
- 'Growing Up Goth'
- 'Nemi'
- 'Writhe and Shine'
I am strongly drawn towards psychologically disturbing books like 'The Bell Jar' by Sylvia Plath and 'I'm the King of the Castle' by Susan Hill. Themes of mental illness, depression, suicide, etc...fascinate me in what I think is a mostly healthy way. Hiding from things only makes them haunt you more.
