Hearts For Both

I'M 28 YEARS YOUNG , WILLING TO REACH OUT TO WHO EVER WANTS TO OPEN THEM SELFS TO SOMEONE WHO CAN UNDERSTAND THERE VEIWS AND ALSO MY POINT OF VEIWS OR JUST SAY HI TO , MY LITTLE SISTER HAS WANTED ME TO DO THIS FOR A LONG TIME BUT NEVER REALY UNDERSTANTED WHAT SHE WANTED TILL I WENT TO HER SITE AND SAW HOW HER CREATIVED SIDE AND HAS I READ HER ( ABOUT ME ) IT BROUHT A TEAR TO EYE AND I FELT HER NEXT TO ME ! BUT THERE AS ALWAYS BEEN MILES BETWWEN US AND NOW THAT SHE'S CLOSE WE TRY TO STAY HAS CLOSE HAS WE CAN SOME OF YOU GUYS MAY KNOW HER MYSPACE.COM/CHASITYPOISIN. SHE'S A BIG PART OF MY HEART HER AND OUR BROTHER MYSPACE.COM/ZEROEVIL THEY ARE MY FLICKERS OF LIFE THAT AT ONE TIME KEEP ME GOING ON FOR THEM BUT KNOW I'M A MOTHER OF THREE BEAUFTUL , JOYFUL , PULLING MY HAIR OUT KIDS BUT THERE MINE TILL THE DAY THAY GOD WANTS THEM BACK A DEAR LADY AND VERY INPORTANT PERSON TO ME MY NANA SHE IS NO LONGER HERE , MADE ME REALIZE THAT THE DAY I HAD MY SON , THAT GOD LENDS YOU YOUR KIDS HE LETS YOU ENJOY THERE LAUGHTER AND SMILES , BUT ONE DAY HE WILL WANT THEM BACK, BEFORE YOU OR AFTER . PLEASE DON'T THINK THAT I'M A GOD FREAK BUT JUST SOME THINGS MEAN SOMETHING TO ME , I CAN'T EVEN GO TO CHURTH BUCAUSE I START CRYING I GUESS IT'S JUST MY OWN DEMONS THAT ARE TRYING TO GET FREE. MY LIL SIS TELLS ME THAT FOR ME TO BE HAS OPEN HAS I CAN. I WANT TO OPEN MYSELF TO YOU .- SO THIS IS ME . I WAS NOT A LOVED CHILD ONLY BY THE PERSON THAT SHOULD HAVED LOVED ME MORE, BUT THERE WERE OTHERS THAT LOVED ME AND GIVEN ME THE LOVE THAT I TRY TO GIVE MAY OWN KIDS . I TRY TO GIVE THEM THE LOVE THAT WAS NOT GIVEN TO ME SO I CAN'T REMEMBER IF SHE DID BUT THAT 'S ALL THE DARK. EVEN THOUGH I TRY NOT TO BE LIKE MY MOTHER I STILL HAVE HALF OF HER IN ME AND SOMETIMED THAT HALF OF ME COMES OUT AND I RELIZE IT AND THEY HAVE TO ME BUT IT'S HARD TO HIND THAT PART THAT MADE YOU . I AM AN X GANG MEMBER IN EAST LOS ANGELES AND THAT LIFE WAS GOOD AND BAD , PEOLE DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY BUT IN MY EYES IT WAS A PLACE TO BE ME AND NO ONE SAID YOU CAN'T DO THAT . IT WAS LIKE A FAMILY I NEVER HAD , I WAS NERVER ASK TO DO NOTHING I DIDN'T WANT TO DO . I ALWAYS THOUGHT FOR MY SELF , THE LOVE I NEVER KNEW I GOT TO KNOW . SOME BAD CAME FROM THE GANG I WENT TO JAIL , I COULD NOT WALK THE STREET WITHOUT SOMETHING TO PROTECT MYSELF WITH BUT THAT LIFE WAS GETTING OUT OFF CONTROL AND I TOLD MY SELF THAT NOTHING WAS GONNA GET ME OUT TILL ONE DAY ! I WAS TRICK INTO GOING OUT WITH A GUY . MY ROADDOG SADIE TRICK ME AND TOLD ME LETS GO WITH THEM I SAID NO AND THEY STILL KIDNAPED ME AND THAT NIGHT I FEEL IN LOVE WITH THE MAN THAT I HAVE BEEN WITH 13 YEARS OF MY LIFE WE HAVE BEEN THOUGH ALOT AND HAD THREE KIDS WITH AND GROW UP WITH I'M NOT THAT LITTLE GIRL HE KNEW NO MORE . THE WOMEN THAT I'VE BECOME IS THE WOMEN SETTING HERE BEFORE YOU. WE HAVE BEEN TO OUR OWN HELL AND THEN FOUND OUR HEAVEN TOGTHER,BUT THERE IS ALOT OF THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPEN IN THE MIDDLE. THIS MY TAKE A WHY'LL TO DO EVERYTHING I WANT TO PUT ON MY SPACE PUT TIME IS WHAT HAVE!!!!