Hailie[H.A.J.] - ProfilesArchive

About Me

So if the devil wear prada,
Adam, Eve wear nada
I'm in between
but way more fresher
but way less effort
Cause when you try hard,
that's when you die hard.
Let's break it down...
My full name is Hailie Ann Carlos.
I'm a senior at Hemet High.
I've been taken since August 16th, 2007.
I plan on going directly into college, most likely for the liberal arts.
I've always been extremely passionate about writing and music.
I've been doing this music since before it was cool to everybody and their cousin.
I adore the rain, overcast weather, the beach and big cities.
I tend to smile a lot.
I'm a hopeless romantic.
All I need is a little romance.
I have hope for the future.
I don't tend to use drugs.
I especially don't smoke weed.
I do drink but not excessively.
I support your ability to make your own decisions.
I don't believe myself to be condescending or dishonest.
I love down to earth, kind hearts.
I don't tolerate prejudice or ignorance.
L O V E I S L O V E
I am passionate about what I believe in but I don't push my beliefs on other people and I ask that you refrain as well.
I'm no where near "perfect" or the person that i'd like to be.
The world is a funny place and i'm searching for my niche.
Best friends = Cam and I
I'm his counting bear...
& some know me as Dig.

Livejournal - hailieann

My Interests

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My ♥ and soul:

My babyboy.
He is my best friend and we understand each other on levels that noone else does. We tend to have the same thoughts at the same times and we never stop laughing. I love him as a best friend and basically my non-sexual life partner. ;]
♥

I'd like to meet:

"Skipping beats, blushing cheeks.
I am... struggling..
Daydreaming; Bed scenes in the corner cafe.
And then I'm left in bits recovering tectonic tremblings.
You get me every time.

Why'd ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you..
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..
Say goodnight and go.

Follow you home, you've got your headphones on and you're dancing.
Got lucky; Beautiful shot: You're taking everything off.
Watch the curtains wide open and you're following the same routine; flicking through the TV, relaxed and reclining and you think you're alone..
One of these days you'll miss your train and come stay with me...
We'll have drinks and talk about things,
Any excuse to stay awake with you...
You'd sleep here, I'd sleep there,
But then the heating may be down again, at my convenience...
We're good,
We're great together..."

"We'll burn like stars. We'll burn as we fall. Watch as the city lights dance for us".

"We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under trees,screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't for two. I rode alone. You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun was stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward, and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message."

Music:

A.F.I.
A Black Rose Burial
Atreyu
Benny Benassi
Birth and Burial
Bjork
Bleeding Through
Blink 182
Bloc Party
The Blood Brothers
Bloodlined Calligraphy
Brand New
Brazil
Bright Eyes
Coheed and Cambria
The Cure
Cursive
Dashboard Confessional<3
Dr. D R E
Dresden Dolls
Eminem
Facing New York
The Faint
Fear Before The March Of Flames
From Autumn to Ashes
Jack Off Jill
Kenny Chesney
The Killers
The Kinison
Ladytron
Lamb of God
Marilyn Manson
Matchbook Romance
Mika Miko
Mindless Self Indulgence
Minus the Bear
Missy Elliott
Muse
My Chemical Romance
Paramore
The Postal Service
See You Next Tuesday
The Sex Pistols
She Wants Revenge
Shiny Toy Guns
Silverstein
Snoop Dogg
Spice Girls
Still Remains
Straylight Run
Suicide Silence
Taking Back Sunday
Tegan and Sarah
Throwdown
Tsunami Bomb
underOATH
Unearth
The Used
Weezer
The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
You Say Party! We Say Die!

"Sing me something soft, sad and delicate or loud and out of key, sing me anything."

Movies:

RHPS
Fight Club
Party Monster
American Beauty
The Boondock Saints
Juno
Girl, Interrupted
Kill Bill 1 & 2
Forrest Gump
Scary Movie 2
Freddy Got Fingered
Nightmare Before Christmas
Love Actually
Gypsy 83
Selena

etc.

Television:

South of Nowhere
The L Word
Degrassi
Arrested Development
Family Guy
America's Next Top Model
Invader Zim
America's Funniest Home Videos
Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
etc.

Books:

Brave New World
V.C. Andrews' books
Party Monster
Helter Skelter
The Harry Potter series
Through Violet Eyes
Black Ice
Running With Scissors
etc.

Heroes:

Oprah
Whoopi Goldberg
Martina Navratilova
Angelina Jolie

"I drink champagne like Marilyn and use it to wash down my vicodin.
My head starts to spin so I drink some more.
My glass in the air when you start to pour.
I'm a champagne whore; I love the bubbles.
Bigger champagne glasses so make it a double.
I stumble out the club at 4 AM , wake up and do it again."
-Amanda Lepore

My Blog

1-15-07

Remember when my words used to impressBrand new love, subtle and freshIf I still knew how to swoonthousands of words would have slipped from my lipsEach one felt from somewhere that only you ownInstea...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 03:12:00 PST

The Urban Hush

It is pouring now.Beneath lamp's shallow light, the rain drops hail down.Dampened concrete speaks volumes to the one in the window watching God's tears as they fall.Skies, thick and black as clouds of...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Thu, 02 Aug 2007 06:02:00 PST

Our Temperatures Rise

Tell me where it is that fall has goneIt's fallen away and left me lostIn rising heat, burning our feetThe water simmers as the season boilsI've read of such things as summer loveSounds like somethin...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Wed, 16 May 2007 08:43:00 PST

I Never Said I Was an Escape Artist

What'll it take to keep my stomach untiedRight now the knots are tangling, no lie, no lieThese feelings are such a bittersweet surprisebut maybe this is what we needed to see you can make the tiesbut...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Fri, 27 Apr 2007 10:38:00 PST

A Victim's Fleeting Thoughts (4-8-07)

Uh oh, I guess it's not that easy to let goRowdy nights and silent fightswithin, without consent from my mindThe heart takes the reigns and calls the painsNot sure what i'm hoping to findNow girl, get...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 09:50:00 PST

Those Unexpected Places (3-26-07)

City sites, concrete canvasThe weather shades a perfect greyThrough the windows of every moody buildingThe calming pace of the rain finds a placeAnywhere near the showers and gustsAnywhere close to th...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 06:24:00 PST

Liquor is Quicker (New)

Empty mind, empty headNot sleeping enough while in that bedBody-to-body count is rising stillNot even a void left to fillKarma strikes, she strikes againReminding me of what trails i've treadMamma's l...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Wed, 04 Apr 2007 08:23:00 PST

The End of Those Days... (older)

Don't let the sun come. It's day but the clouds threaten rain. Puddles and birds, me without you. Those clouds cover the bitterness shading my face. After dreams fail and deflate, look around, this is...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 04:11:00 PST

In sight of land.

The waves come crashing in while our feet feel the sandThe moon full, casting light on the beachFor the rest of my life it's our beach and our sandThe water sleeps soundly while I silently dieIt's th...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Thu, 22 Feb 2007 01:20:00 PST

Synonyms for loss of faith.

There's so much speaking that I should be doingInstead i'm talking to myself not quite out loudIt's hard to hear when the walls are crashing down around youIt's hard be devastated when they're still ...
Posted by Hailie[H.A.J.] on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 08:27:00 PST