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tina ballerina

i cant relate to humans.

About Me

miss anthropy... you can call me peralta. im pretty unbelievable, the best of both and many worlds, im brilliant and unleaveable yet happy to be left alone, my heart is wide and in my eyes, theyre open almost all the time, im here and now and will be when you ask me to and after then, i think too much and feel too strong, i tell the truth because why not? im passionate and full of thought, i have myself and thats a lot, i dont believe in you or god, and only change will never stop, ill never know thats why i hope ill always learn to grow to cope, cuz life is short and days are rough, i dance and laugh and scream and love.http://imakenonsense.blogspot.comstatic.mellow.dramatic /tomorrows born from today... i woke slowly but not up, in silence and unstirring, exanimate with eyes still open, neither focused nor intending. myopic me stared at myself through mirrors cut and pasted, i wondered where she went and who shed been and whats to come. motionless and static ive been lying here so long, waiting just to wait some more and desperate for a song. i know the verses better than i can my own two hands, i kept the melody playing, while inside i died to dance. i tried believing anything that claimed it had a tune, rhythm is my savior, often waves to get me through. i sank in sand so slowly, grabbing on to grains of salt, i gulped the ocean like my tears and swallowed all that hurt. i hid beneath the flowing floor for fear i am unsure, then fought the night who slayed my sight and killed the little girl. the moonlight watched time spin like clocks as i sought a soul to help, but sirens came from somewhere sane and locked me in my cells. comprehension self-inflicted stood guard to block all heart, while i escaped back to my mind, what matters to evade the dark. all the world is just a stage, and life is like the sea, an oscillating swing and sway, consistent chemistry. could it be just right that i might dive, unafraid to ride removed from me? but then she calls and we converge, become serenity. peaceful play and quiet calm come to me by myself, thrilled elation and dysphoria, they crave anothers help. whether stoic, sad, or heathen, dynamics never change, emotion means im moving, so ill always stay this same. now, the moment is my canvas and ive got to paint today, i make the most of what im given so i can throw it all away.

My Interests

love and happiness. growth and inspiration. excitement and contentment. peace and laughter.... at least most of the time. also dancing around my room, swingsets, flashcards, nail polish, multi-colored socks, giant water bottles, music that moves me (or anything that moves me.. so really, just movement in general), redefinition, the bright side of life, evolution as an action, the golden rule, the limit of perfection as x approaches infinity.....

I'd like to meet:

"Autrement dit, elle préfère s'imaginer une relation avec quelqu'un d'absent, plutôt que de créer des liens avec ceux qui sont présents." aanndd "the trick is to get to know people, and trust them to be who they are. instead, we trust them to be who we want them to be, and when theyre not, we cry." we are all exactly the same: we act based on what brings us pleasure and pain. and we are all completely unique: what brings each of us pleasure and pain varies infinitely. aim iamnonsense

Music:

hail music, full of rhythm, the beat is with thee. blessed art thou among wavelengths , and blest is the movement of your vibrations. holy music, mother of sound, pray for us shakers, now and on the dancefloor tonight. awomen. music is my god, dancing my religion, hiphop the gospel, and mk (www.nyub.net) is some kind of priest.

Movies:

ill poop in your butt hole, and then you will poop it back into my butt hole, and then we will keep doing it back and forth. with the same poop. forever.

Television:

fuckin eye ache. i dont have a.d.d.... youre all just really boring... except bill maher.

Books:

"i want to be invisible... but not alone." writers block is my erectile dysfunction.

Heroes:

LADIES suck it up and take it down like vitamin c, the last time we decided to swallow life in someones seed, honey sweet in locus nest from localest of best-hive bees, cures the common folk of common cold and curse relieves all anchors weight like here and now and all its allergies... so heres to cheers to energy, we drink of them, let it will be, their blood, our bones, our hearts, their stones, forevers home is easels greed is peace in homes like hallways clean and closing in upon our seams our minds set sail at dawn and ease disease by our own lines of song the will we're free to steal from hell to heal the world and right its wrongs, in your own stead stand not so still, and starved of stipend since the start, stay out as high on your own seed as time will let you reach to keep to seize the day to save esteem and find yourself is your own key to see the rising sight of setting light to lead us not into a war but out of one from which we're born, when we were failed by brightest sun to find our way from all to none......as i was lost in all my frail, i locked myself inside a jail, a patient of my doctors please, in patience and frugality...conserve yourself till ones worth death, for that is what were here to see, that love is long and lifes a test to find the one that sets us free, and all the leads that we may see along this lonely journey, were only just a little right but still so far from worthy...come on enough, were strong enough to see that life was ours to give and now to take when we would like if they have failed to treat us right, so take a gulp and and plug your nose so you dont taste what you wont know... but if you want you might could feel.. and if we want we might could find the might and will to free the minds and fight the times with peaceful signs.... then fast is straight to back of throat to down to gut and out and done and round about in combat come well fight with them and make it fun...like minerals these men are old and ways of war are ever-boring... as rome took long but short to fall, we build this final warning....

My Blog

my mind sways, never stays, always strays far from the start.

i look good like its my job, sometimes it feels like it is, misunderstood, i play the part, and ply the peels off his lids, i try to charm and then disarm so i can seal without kiss, i mean no harm it...
Posted by tina ballerina on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:17:00 PST

the you in me, the us in them, and theyre all is and ears and limbs.

when all my thoughts just come together like the dots connect and colored, write my time to pass, discover, read my mind when its been weathered, worn and tired of its fetters, tethered crimes of unto...
Posted by tina ballerina on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 09:26:00 PST

wordswordswords

quiet conversations quickly escalate.... like smiling through the tears undried because you laughed so hard you cried at jokes that call and ask you why your life is such a poor punchline.......im fig...
Posted by tina ballerina on Thu, 03 Apr 2008 07:23:00 PST

".... but writing about music is like dancing to architecture."

i do have an abundance of free time on my hands these days.... and good new music is pretty much the only thing i look forward to in life.... finding it, overdosing on it, sharing it.... i could proba...
Posted by tina ballerina on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 09:02:00 PST

im just a girl./feminine mistake.

how could i possibly be on the same intellectual level as you? i mean, without a penis to guide me in the right direction, how should i ever know which way to go? i was born biologically inferior. wit...
Posted by tina ballerina on Mon, 10 Mar 2008 08:25:00 PST

its in our hands.

natural selection suggests that our present genetic makeup has evolved from our past generations' "strongest" survivors. however, we all know the "strongest" (and the mentally, physically, and spiritu...
Posted by tina ballerina on Mon, 01 Oct 2007 09:31:00 PST

book report on a rainy day

bobby seale, on activism: 'Advocating for social change is not just about speaking at a podium... but about INSPIRING party members and other community people.'its great to complain about the world w...
Posted by tina ballerina on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 04:24:00 PST