Jasons LiL Princess

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Life is too short to be boring, depressed, and a douchebag.
Internet drama- I will in no way deal with Internet Drama. Don't come to my profile talking shit because you dont like my music, or the way I look, or other random trivial things...don't do it if you think its gonna make you look cool, dont bother sending your friends to talk shit to me... I'll never ever take it seriously..so if I do reply dont expect "fuck you" expect "haha your mom"
The past is the past. I don't believe in regrets.
I strongly advise you to read my profile BEFORE you message me. More than likely, you're not gonna wanna message me. I like it that way.
My Rules (because I'm a diva):
1. Your band is crap, so go plug in somewhere else, to someone that cares.
(if your band was that good, I'd already know about you.)
2. If you're some skeeze looking for some late night action, just leave now.
I'm engaged, thanks.
I'm not here to be hit on, so don't bother... it just gets annoying after a while.
The rest of you lovelies are welcome to friend request me.
Alot of people have asked me how I've been able to deal with people who give me shit when I was so used to cutting, well sometimes when I feel like killing someone, I do a little trick to calm myself down. I'll go over to that persons house and ring the doorbell. When that person comes to the door, I'm gone, but you know what I've left on the porch? A jack-o-lantern with a knife stuck in the side of its head with a note that says 'you'. After that, I usually feel alot better and no harm done.
Life was so much easier when boys had cooties.
I have been through alot of crap these short 19 years of my life.. from all kinds of abuse(mentally and phyically) to rape-I've been pushed aside, thrown on the curb, stepped on, ripped apart, and left alone...I can tell you right now that cutting yourself, doing drugs, or anything that does self harm is stupid And not worth it- I realize that now. Its pointless to hurt yourself for something someone is doing to you...Yes it is rough and you do get down..but remember when its good and gone- They'll eventually get whats coming to them.. All that stuff just makes you tougher and makes life much easier to deal with now...If you have a problem with home or abuse dont bottle it in like I did..it just kills you. I stopped cutting and im still re-vamping myself and my emotions. Its hard, but at the end it just makes me a better person- and No im not looking for sympathy. I'm quite thankful for the good and bad things that have been thrown my way.. Its made me who I am, its made me strong, its made wanna live my life to the fullest, working hard for the big things and loving the little things. Most people have no idea how great they have it till they loose it. Life isn't supposed to be easy. Sometimes you have to keep reminding yourself that a little suffering never hurt anyone. In the End you'll survive with scars, or a story to tell. Be happy with every moment you have to breathe, appreciate your friends, your parents, and always stop to love the little things in life.
I don't care about what people I used to know are doing. I'm glad you moved on. BFD. Keep going. I don't care about your moms hernia removal. I don't want to know you have an irregular period. I don't want to know if it burns when you pee. I don't want to hear who my ex is dating. I'll just have to feel sorry for the girl who got my sloppy seconds.
Change. I loooove change..I never keep one look/style. I wanna do it all. I wanna travel the world. I wanna skydive in a polka dotted bikini..then loose my top in mid air. I wanna jump off a skyscraper while singing 'American Idiot' by Green Day. I need change, I need fun, I need To be around spontaneous people, I need to laugh...without any of it..I'm just like everyone whos stuck in their everyday routines. I dont know what I wanna do in life.. because theres so much to do.
I can be the most random person ever. I wanna live life like everyday is my last. I smile and laugh 97.4% of the time. I usually make an ass out of myself in public and its ok as long as someone gets a laugh out of it. I'm often too stubborn for anyone to deal with. I'm rarely ever serious. I have a horrible temper.. which sometimes gets me into trouble, I'm not afraid to bash your face in right then and there for whatever reason. I find myself often in fight..usually started by silly crap. I love to argue with idiots and I do often. I won't back down if I know I'm right or until I get my point across. I'm uberly sarcastic..but in my own way. VERY opinionated..If I dont like something..you'll know about it. I tend to wear what I'm feeling on my face.. if I see something I don't like, or I think its funny, or weird..you'll know. I find the stupidest things funny. Im pretty aggressive about life, I tend to do the things people are scared to do. I'm probably the coolest chick you'll ever meet. lol jk. I hate sluts, (including the guys) I'd rather be stabbed in the eye with a sp0rk than have to deal with them. I'm a total nut. I AM that chick who dances in public out of no where and puts a fake penis in your cereal box. Therefore..I WIN!
F.A.QHow big are your boobs?
Bigger than your brain.
Why are there so many people on your blocked list? Why are they on there?
People on my blocked list are mostly pervs.. some are people who talk crap to me.. my friends are the only people who are allowed to do that to me. Some are bitchy girls or drippy eyeliner goths... why are they on there? Because.. well they can be.. if you don't like it, well then life just sucks, doesn't it?
Are your lips and/or boobs real?
As real as your dirty butthole.
Will you make me a sign?
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can I fuck you?
No, pervert.
Well, don't you have a big ego? You stuck up vain bitch.
Ego? I have no ego. No reason to have one. You're just intimidated by me. ^_^ *pats head* its ok. Vain? I'm not vain at all. If you read my profile instead of having your thumb up your ass, you'd know that.
Why are you so angry?
I'm not, I'm actually a happy fun person. (How non-goth of me!) But then here comes Mr. or Mrs. Idiot and well my not-so-nice side comes out.
How come you don't wear all black and drippy eyeliner?
Because all black is lame. I wear my personality on my body. Sometimes I do wear all black, but its rare. Now go take pics at a cemetary and stop bugging me =)
Do you dye your hair?
I have a few times, but only colors I couldn't grow ex. blue black, blood red, lime green...
So that blonde streak in your hair is real?
Yes, its a birthmark.
Do you model?
Nooooo...
Why do you complain so much?
Because I can. Why are you so nosey?
Why do wear so much makeup?
I dont wear makeup "to cover up my stupid ugly face" as some of you have said. Makeup is my art. Its my passion. Its just what I do..if you think its "ghey" and all that jazz..frankly I dont give a shit.
Your makeup is lyke sooooo cool!!11! What do you use?
Anything from the Color Boutique to Cover Girl...
Do you do your own makeup?
Yep.
Where did you learn to do your makeup?
I'm self taught. I just grab a bunch of colors every day and whatever happens happens.
Can you teach me how to do my makeup like you?
Well, seeing as I'm over the internet, no.
How long does it take you to do your makeup? And how?
10-15 minutes, and with my hands and fingers...?
It says on your profile you hate sex. Are you prude?
Definately not, but unlike most of you people, I don't just sleep with anything that walks. You people sleep around too much. You probably all have STDs.
Are you single? Date me?
No, I am not single. I am in a very good relationship with the love of my life, Jason. I love him so much and I don't wanna date you.
CAM? Can I see your tits?
No you perv.. theres tons of sites you can see tits on, quit bothering me.
How come you have a fiance if you're only 17?
Because I'm in love. If you don't like it or your against it, then tough luck, bitches. Its my life and I'll live it the way I want to. I'm not here to impress anyone but myself. So, if you have something to say about my engagement, although I could handle your critisism, I'd prefer if you kept it to yourself. It'd make both of our lives that much easier.
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Heres the reality on me
I have worked hard to make my profile portray the real me and not just somebody people think I am. I was getting very sick of having to explain everything to everyone, so from now on you people can just read this if you wanna know anything about me cuz I'm pretty sure I've covered it all somewhere in here. You just have to look.
I always joked with my family when I was little, I would always joke saying that I'd play with dolls forever.
Well, that little girl has grown up and for a day, I'll admit that I really did think I would play with dolls forever, until I grew up and faced reality.
My family and I don't really get along too great anymore, so theres more arguing than joking these days. The only person I really have a relationship with anymore is my mom. I feel like sometimes shes the only person in my family who understands me. Me and my sisters used to be really close, but as we grew older, we grew apart. My oldest sister started to do her own thing when she was about 14. I didn't see much of her until she had her first kid. A few years after that she moved away and I saw her when I went to my grandmas house and once when I went to visit her. My other sister started doing her own thing when she was about 16, then she ended up getting pregnant and settling down for awhile. Not for long though. She went back out and started being an idiot again. Now my mom has her daughter and she just had another kid. It got taken away. She says shes trying, and puts on a front for my dad, who doesn't live in California. She tells him shes in rehab, but its not true. The drugs just got hold of her and don't wanna let go. I don't know if she'll ever straighten up. She used to be so smart and had so many dreams.. her brain is like dead weight now.
I would love to believe in everything the way I used to before things happened and I learned the way of the world. I hate knowing how evil the world and all the people in it can actually be. The harsh reality of what people are capable of and what they can do to eachother without any regrets is a terrible thought. I've blocked out alot of my childhood memories thanks to people who acted without thinking about what they were doing as they did it. It's amazing to see how much a person changes throughout the years. I don't like what has been contained within my past but it is because of those experiences I am who I am today.
I have a vivid imagination and use it when ever I have the chance, so I declare the right to be "unlogical" as much as I like. To put it shortly I will at often times seem to contradict myself and not make any sense. My opinion IS my opinion, that doesn't mean it can't change with good arguments or reasons, but it is mine and it's strong. Thats how it is and either you can accept that or you can't...
I like it when someone makes me feel uncertain about myself, not many people can but those who do probably know who they are.
I'm very much into photography and appreciate unusual shots, and the people who can get them.
I hate crowds and most people in general as they tend to be annoying and unintelligent. I am, however, a people watcher and its amazing what people will say or do when they think no one is paying attention. Human nature is disturbing and often a disgusting thing.
I don't assume much, and since things can be taken so many different ways, I will dig deeper until I know exactly what someone or something really means. So I tend to ask alot of questions and get other peoples points of view on things. I don't say things like "Hitler was a good leader." to anger people or for shock value. I'm an equal oppurtunity hater, (I'll hate you for WHO you are not WHAT you are.) In fact, I'd like to take over the world one day, but I have no motivation and its more of a "group project" I don't think I want that kind of pressure. Besides, I like to work my magic from the shadows.. unseen. ^_^
There are those few chosen that I have made my own friends, and I'm quite loyal to them and expect the same in return. I'm choosey about those I consider my friends, but thats because I don't take them for granted once I take them to heart.
I'm a firm believer that what a person does and how they act is more important than how they look. I do not consider everyone "ugly" in a physical sense, probably because until I get to know someone I tend to not pay attention to them anyway, and if I do its with general mild annoyance. But once I see part of their personality I can deem them "ugly" or "beautiful". I probably don't like most of the people this world considers "beautiful"... But I'm ok with that, only means those of real substance I get to myself.......
I'm content in my world, as I've created it. One of my mottos is: "Yes, Im happy in my own little world, they know me here." The sky is still blue in my world; don't think I have my head in the clouds all the time. I tend to be wicked and have an evil streak that shows its self on occasion, but I'm not malicious usually, not saying I haven't been or I can't be... My ideas tend to be set so high that not even I can reach them, but I accept my faults and others and the reality of life does not escape me.
I'm sarcastic, have a bit of a temper and can get very cynical (although I view it as being a realist.) I've been accused of being mean and cruel, but that doesnt bother me like the people who've said it might want it to.
I'm satisfied with who I've become as a person, and although there are things I'd like to better about myself, I don't hate the bad things in me. Rather, I embrace them as a definition of me. Who wants to be perfect anyway? that would just get boring. Screwing up and having issues with yourself makes life interesting, besides everyone else is just as, if not more screwed up than I am anyway...
I'm borderline Antisocial, I go out in public but I hate everything about it, I like going to parties or clubs but I'm pretty picky about who I go with..It's merely an extention of my comfort zone.
I hate the sun, not because I'm dramatic, I know it's essential for some, it just zaps my energy and makes me tired...
Most often its not that I dont care about something, its just I can't be bothered with it..... I don't mean that to be rude but I can't start a movement for everything.
I love music that "speaks" to me...that moves me in ways nothing else can, and I adore artists from Mozart all the way up to many modern bands. Unfortunatly I have no extraordinary talent in the areas of actually playing anything, but I like hearing other's talent anyway. I love singing when I'm on my own, or with very close friends, even if it's done badly.
I don't have a single tattoo because I'd want to change it all the time, theres nothing I'd want etched into my skin forever, or atleast I haven't found it yet. I don't have many piercings. I have two on each lobe and one on my right cartilage -- thats probably spelled wrong and I don't feel like looking it up.. oh well. I had a belly button piercing, but it ripped out.. I have to get it redone maybe next year or something.
I cut for about 5 years and stopped about a year ago for my Jason. I know you're supposed to do it for yourself, but knowing that I actually had someone that I could talk to about it helped me out alot and thats how I quit. I have had times when I felt like I needed to do it, but whenever I get those feelings, I just call Jason and talk to him if I can. If I can't I usually get on here and write in my blog. It helps alot..
I'm happy to say that my arms have pretty much cleared up, theres some scars, but they're not half as bad as they used to be.
I thought I would put this quiz in here because it does kinda describe me. I did cut to forget things and memories of the past that have happened and I can't change and I am a little obsessed with it. Only because I have to see the people that hurt me almost everyday. I can hold grudges for a very long time.. not little things, but if you'd have been through some of the stuff I have, you'd know what I mean.
You cut to forget somthing/someone. Someone else
would eat a whole lot of chocolate when they
don't feel so happy, you lock yourself up and
try to cut your memories away. You look like a
normal person, 'till someone brings up things
you don't want to think about. But it's hard to
forget things you are completely obsessed with,
isn't it?
Yeah I know that I should get over things because there is no way to change the past but I have the scars from it, both emotional and psyical. I also know that its not healthy to dwell on the past but oh well. The way I look at it is if I have health problems that cause me pain then I don't have the urge to cut, especially since I can't do it right now because of a promise I made with someone very special. I know what I did by making the promise and I only regret it while I'm breaking down. Other than that, I am happy that I did make it because I don't have to go back and that is always good. If you're a friend of mine then you know where "back" is but even if you're not a friend, you could probably figure it out. Not that hard to do, you just have to have some brains and actually read my profile.
Random Things You should Know.
I love my friends
I have a fear of driving and of being in cars
My fiancee is the coolest in the world
I have too many hobbies
I wish I could take a nap right now
I talk in my sleep. Thats the one place I know no one can hear me.
I wish I was talking to Jason
For not liking people I sure do have a lot of friends. That's strange
People say I think too much
My favorite band is Green Day
My favorite color is red
My favorite name is Jason
I HATE allergies with a passion
I like LOVE shoes!
I adopted a cute lil' death fetus from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!