RIP ALYSSA we miss u sooo much

HEY my name is steph....I dont have anything at all to say!!!!! LIFES A BITCH I would have never seen any of it coming..none of it at all! I found you in a crazy way but I would never change that for the world. Everone new I was happper then I have been for a long time. When we talked, we laghed and joked, we new wat we were thinking with out saying it, I forgot about all my problems the min. I heard her voice... I thought everything that was said was true I B leaved it all...I dont know how but I did..I new it was too good to be true. I wanted something more than juz a hook up or a short relationship, I wanted something that would last! but I guess u cant have everthing u wish for. Out of no where there was someone else someone that gave u the feeling you give me..I want u to be happy even if i'm not the one to make u happy, I really think and beleave with everything inch of my sole, I could love u better then anyone!!!but this is a two way street...if they are not willing to take a chance how will u know wat u could have had? THE love I have for her is deeper then any ocean, the feelings I have/had were/are all true..but I guess I was a fase for you, and fases cum and go. U are more then a fase...if there is ever anyone else they will be compared to her!!! And I can tell u right now they will never beat wat I had for that short time. I'm going bak to reality now, PLz take my hand, I will never hurt u the way u have hurt me!!! I would/will hold ur heart with both hands never let go...though god times and bad!!!!up and downs!!!u will always be the reason I wake up and press on!!! I will WAIT how ever long it takes for u to see Ur the one for me, the only one!!!I hope one day..any daythat u see me stading in front of u with open arms ready to protect u. Im not mad IDK y..cuz if it was anyone else I would be but I cant be mad..at either of u!! she is a lucky girl!!!I respect wat u want, even if tha is not me. I love you venice, plz cum bak to me someday, when ever ur ready ill be right here u knwo where to find me!!! my love will NEVER die for you!!!! I dont want Ne one else!! im not going to look for ne one else!!!because I found wat I want, and I know wat I want, Im juz waiting for u to see and feel how I do*~::..Love is pain and joy. I will go though as much pain as I have to, juz to feel the joy! Love is an addiction, something I will never get past. I wish I could give u as much joy as u have given me pain. The joy and the pain are in describable. Love…..you feel so high, so warm and tingly then the heartbreak comes, and crushes all ur hope! It’s like I have been chewed up spit out and stepped on. There is nothing anyone can say to give me the smile u out on my face. Knowing ur happy gives me half that smile bak but not all of it. Ur laugh is wat made me so high…the sweet giggle gave me the feeling. The feeling I have to be with out for now. I hope one day any day u see I could love you better then anyone. I’ll never let u fall, I’ll b right be ur side w/ my arms open wide ready to catch u. I’m not like everyone else, ur an angle, I would NEVER hurt you! I cant deny u..::~**~::..It came so fast so strong, so perfect, nobody, could bring me down except the person that brought me up. I guess the love got to heavy for her, and she had to put it down. It was not a genital let down either; it was like being pushed off the highest building you could imagine. Nothing below to slow you down or break your fall. It was like. It was like landing in gravel nothing easy bout it, knee’s scraped, ankles twisted! IDK y but I cant b mad, I juz want 2 know ur happy where u ,r and who u r with. Being safe, but having a fun, laughing, smiling, hugging, kissing feeling warm when it is so cold out side.Sleeping so peacefully at the end of the night…::~**~::..Now I understand the meaning of “Falling in Love” and now that I understand wat it means, I think it should “Love Falling” because the love cums first then the falling. You feel so perfect so confident, like you are in the clouds, nothing can bring you down! It’s like walking on the ceiling, floating though the air, the felling that can take u NE where as long as you have faith. It’s like standing one the tip of a plane, cutting so smoothly though the clouds, the never ending clouds. But juz like all highs you have to cum down. It’s like a knife in though ur heart, when it all cums apart. It’s like someone took a pin to the balloon. It’s like a cold winter night, lying in bed so cold and lonely, trying to understand the words you are hearing, that they have found somebody new. Why the kal it falling…now I know..::~**~::..As the plane starts to move starting to left up, Looking out the window thinking of you and only you! Looking out over the lights seeing ur face, wishing I could reach out and touch you. Kiss ur perfect lips so slow and genital, wishing I could prove my love 4 u, give u some of the faith that I have, if I could do that we would make it though Everything, hands locked 2gether, shoulders touching, feeling the flame we have 4 each other. Soles locked 2gether as one. All I’m doing is waiting for you. I’ll wait an eternity if I have to. As the plane turns my love for u pours out, u are not there to catch it , but its ok because love pouring out of me for you will never stop, never run out! Looking at the sunset trying to understand. I respect u babe, I’ll give u as much time as u need I’ll give u wat ever u want. I love you, all I want is 4 u to love me bak no body said it would be easy, there will be good times and bad times. I have never pored my heart out like this, its hard for me, but if I held it all in I don t know wat I would do. I’m not trying to make u feel bad I juz want u to know wat u let go of. I’ll never b 2 fare B hind u, if u ever trun around I’ll be right there! That’s it that’s all I can say. The words have ran out but feeling have not. Best wishes I love you babygirl..::~* ♥_if u ever trun around I'll be here!!hearts; Layout Created at Chasebadkids.net with LIVE preview!!