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BennuBird

if there was more, she would have more. if this was everything, she had all she could ever want.

About Me

silly, sassy, verbose, passionate, sometimes dark, emotion driven, always girly and maybe more than a little high maintenance. i love apples, ice cream, dancing, high heels (on me!), reading trashy novels, butches, bois & grrls, camping, lakes & rivers & streams & ponds, bananas, josephine, sprawling on hot sand on lazy summer mornings, ink & metal, cleaning my kitchen so i can bake up a storm, boating, tough confident tops, loud music, etymology, power & pain, blue collar attitude, wearing my band on the right, digital cameras, strong arms, control, spreadsheets, buffy, willow, faith and spike, and people who appreciate the subtle & the silly.Layout made by butterflywings*************************************
You Are Strength
You represent both fiery energy and steadfast will.
You are innocent and naive - yet unafraid and undaunted.
Perhaps you don't have the most powerful physical strength...
But your mental powers make up for any amount of muscle.
Your fortune:
Lately, you have been a pillar of ethics and moral strength.
And while things may be difficult, your faith in yourself will come through.
You may need to conquer the animalistic nature of yourself or others, with gentle force.
Although this may seem like the darkest hour for you, victory is near. What Tarot Card Are You?************************************
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: grace... for now!
Birthday: 19 june 1974
Birthplace: motor city!
Eye Color: green
Hair Color: currently? blue-black
Height: 5-feet-no-inches
Right Handed or Left Handed: usually right
Your Heritage: irish & polish, mostly
The Shoes You Wore Today: black kenneth cole sandals
Your Weakness: sex & ice cream
Your Fears: bumble bees, emptiness, being forgotten
Your Perfect Pizza: spicy tomato sauce, hot pepper rings, mushrooms - no cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: learn at least the basics of speaking german
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: *grin*
Thoughts First Waking Up: "josie, move!"
Your Best Physical Feature: it's a tie: either my eyes or my ass
Your Bedtime: 11:11
Your Most Missed Memory: camping with my family
Pepsi or Coke: ick - neither
MacDonalds or Burger King: ick, again - neither
Single or Group Dates: it depends on the date
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: either, so long as it's fresh brewed & unsweetened
Chocolate or Vanilla: both, please!
Cappuccino or Coffee: both!!
Do you Smoke: not anymore
Do you Swear: hell no!
Do you Sing: only to punish evildoers
Do you Shower Daily: oh yes
Have you Been in Love: more than once, baby...
Do you want to go to College: again? that would be the third round... YES!
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: usually
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Do you think you are Attractive: yep
Are you a Health Freak: most of the time
Do you get along with your Parents: yes - they are wicked crazy & fun!
Do you like Thunderstorms: LOVE them!
Do you play an Instrument: air guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: *looks innocent* maybe once... or a lot
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: yes. daily!
In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: ick - no!!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes, a few times
In the past month have you been on Stage: um... sort of...
In the past month have you been Dumped: well... not exactly
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: not that i recall
Ever been Drunk: maybe once
Ever been called a Tease: oh yeah
Ever been Beaten up: oh bother! yes...
Ever Shoplifted: as a snotty teen, yeah
How do you want to Die: fast
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: i may mature, but i refuse to grow up
What country would you most like to Visit: tie: ireland or southern spain
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: anything vibrant
Favourite Hair Color: dark
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: over 5'2'' (at least!)
Weight: um... healthy?
Best Clothing Style: nothing frou-frou. only i get to be frou-frou.
Number of Drugs I have taken: in a boy or girl???
Number of CDs I own: too many, far too many!
Number of Piercings: 8, all in my ears
Number of Tattoos: 2
Number of things in my Past I Regret: just a few, but i live to make up for them
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
You Are a Beagle Puppy
Cheerful, energetic, and happy go lucky.
And you're sense of smell is absolutely amazing! What Breed of Puppy Are You?
You Are Elektra
There's really no superhero with more style than you.
Because who could beat being sexy assasin ninja? What Superhero Are You?

My Interests

in no particularly significant order... fitness, conversation, bdsm, history, buffy the vampire slayer, baking, my furry four-legged children, flirting, haiku (really! i freakin' love haiku!), reading, gender queering, hockey, non-profits, butches & bois & ftms who appreciate femmes, photography, wine, words and sound, shopping, music, all things detroit, pain, camping, toronto & chicago, shoes... and more shoes, boating & swimming, organization, coffee, art, leather & ink & metal, northern michigan & the thumb, driving fast, ritual, asking random questions, being the center of attention, brunch or drinks or movie night with the girls, staying behind the scenes, deprivation and discipline, hot hot showers, live symphony performances, trashy entertainment magazines, people watching

adopt your own virtual pet!

I'd like to meet:

owen, because faith takes practice. my mom, at my age, because i want to know who she is, aside from my mom.
Your Brain is 93% Female, 7% Male
You have the brain of a girly girl
Which isn't a bad thing at all
You're emphatetic, caring, and in tune with emotions.
You're a good friend and give great advice. What Gender Is Your Brain?

Music:

cowboy junkies, le tigre, i furiosi, foo fighters, scissor sisters, maroon 5, the butchies, les nubians, neko case, ofra haza, anything strings-based, radiohead, morcheeba, divineMAGgees, the the, bree sharp, u2, daft punk, miles davis, bette midler, smoke city, leona naess, mel torme, sleater kinney, neil diamond, portishead, pixies, pj harvey, frank & dean & sammy, heather nova, nina simone, billie holiday, ella fitzgerald, eartha kitt, diane schurr, kristen vigard, pigface, depeche mode, pizzicato five, the cure, the smiths, cibo matto, the faint, half looking, gorillaz, beastie boys, br-549, kt tunstall, suzy bogus, zero 7, rasputina, cat stevens, dixie chicks, van morrison, fugazi, jill scott, black rebel motorcycle club, chris botti, nada surf, bauhaus, b.b. king, dead can dance, techno/dance/electronica, siouxsie, the creatures, martina mcbride, queen, gangster fun, al green, groove armada, lazy sunday, janes addiction, paul oakenfold, boomkat, keren ann, brian setzer, zucchero, rufus wainright, they might be giants... i could go on, but that would be silly. i love music.
Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is
Crazy by Gnarls Barkley

"I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space" What's Your 2006 Summer Anthem?

Movies:

secretary, practical magic, for love of the game, bound, rebecca, imagine me & you, amelie, casablanca, fight club, better off dead, prey for rock & roll, the princess bride, drop dead gorgeous, the hunger, mary poppins, midnight in the garden of good & evil, the nightmare before christmas, the wedding singer, go fish, matrix, unbreakable, the good girl, the basketball diaries, buffy the vampire slayer, white christmas, bad taste, the crow, spitfire grill, x-men

Television:

buffy the vampire slayer, angel, desperate housewives, dead like me, queer as folk, law and order, law & order svu, csi, cnn in the morning, buffy the vampire slayer, any mind-numbing list of 100 somethings on e! or vh1, the history channel, nip/tuck, lostand buffy the vampire slayer.

Books:

a prayer for owen meany (j. irving), insomnia (s. king), doc & fluff (p. califia), anything dorthy allison, anything flannery o’connor, anything caleb carr, anything banana yoshimoto, the persistant desire: a butch-femme reader (ed. by j. nestle), cheap thrill horror & mystery novels, old pulp novels, harry potter (now i feel like a dork), my 1967 unabridged random house dictionary of the english language with the indo-european language guide & etymology key in the front, dear exile, all e e cummings, the catastrophist, any cookbook, the alchemist, the historian, light coming back, marley & me

Heroes:

anyone who gets back up on the horse after a hard fall.

My Blog

good fences, good neighbors?

"boundaries" - in the psychological sense - are lines we draw in the emotional space that surrounds us. we do it to let others know where we stand on issues and in relationships, and to protect oursel...
Posted by stateofgrace on Sun, 15 Oct 2006 01:29:00 PST

the solution is the problem

there is something more, something deeper. it is richer and fuller than simple unmitigated lust. i don't know what it is, exactly, but it has something to do with completion. fulfillment. it is the en...
Posted by stateofgrace on Fri, 13 Oct 2006 02:10:00 PST

this could only happen to me

somehow, i have angered the posse of squirrels that loiter in my backyard. or maybe, josie upset them - i could see that. but... if she pissed off the flicker-tails, why did they take out their fury o...
Posted by stateofgrace on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 11:34:00 PST

these are sophisticated little beasties

i think they have walkie-talkies, too.  
Posted by stateofgrace on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 11:50:00 PST

stretching toward myself

I'm starting to get it  the fact that there is no certainty. That I could find my bliss in any number of places, with any number of people. I could be with someone or alone and still be miserable& o...
Posted by stateofgrace on Sat, 23 Sep 2006 02:33:00 PST

music speaks when i can not

There was a man back in '95Whose heart ran out of summers But before he died, I asked him Wait, what's the sense in lifeCome over me, Come over me He said, "Son why you got to sing that tune Catch a D...
Posted by stateofgrace on Mon, 18 Sep 2006 03:57:00 PST

all of these things are just like the others

ice cream caramel popcorn long, hot showers josie buffy the vampire slayer desperate housewives sex fluffy pillows strong, dominant butches with a volatile streak good fiction the scent of leather sha...
Posted by stateofgrace on Sun, 17 Sep 2006 12:40:00 PST

Wise Words From Ben Stein

For many years Ben Stein has written a biweekly column called "Monday Night At Morton's." (Morton's is a famous chain of Steakhouses known to be frequented by movie stars and famous people from around...
Posted by stateofgrace on Sun, 10 Sep 2006 10:32:00 PST

what to wear to opening night at the symphony

they're not just footwear... they're an investment!! ...
Posted by stateofgrace on Fri, 08 Sep 2006 08:41:00 PST

Little Pink House... Response .1

less than 48 hours after posting my Little Pink House Mate Needed messages all over the internet, i have my first inquiry - from a great lady who's best friend gave birth to a gal y'all know & lov...
Posted by stateofgrace on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 07:15:00 PST