ModMySpace Profile Customizer"Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous." - Anais Nin
Seek first to understand, then to be understood. A principle I believe to be the first step in geniune compassion and being able to give unconditional love- a principle I live by. If people listened more instead of merely waiting to speak after filtering everything through their own paradigms, there'd probably be a lot less bullshit, misunderstandings, and hate in the world.
All my life I've lived decades in days and I've stored out up thousands of stories waiting to be told- that is why I rarely sleep. I'm a classic insomniac and I tend to stay awake for days at a time. As a result my memory is kinda shit most of the time. I was born with a photographic memory which has kind of waned over the years it seems. I still remember everything, but instead of whole pictures, it's like these random tags are left in my brain that correlate with sounds, smells, visions or textures. At any moment if I come into contact with one of the elements attached to a "memory stamp" it all comes flooding back and if I can't quite remember all the details, I pretty much obsess till I do. It can be a real bitch, because I catalog everything as a significant memory; I have no junk filter. Observant to a fault you might say. Lack of sleep broke my brain. Thus, I tend to spend the majority of my time doing or experiencing things I consider to be invaluable. Indeed life is short, and I'm painfully aware of life's fragility and fleeting nature.
"Perhaps I am doomed to retrace my steps under the illusion that I am exploring, doomed to try and learn what I should simply recognize, learning a mere fraction of what I have forgotten."
If I had to pick one main quality that most seperates me from the masses, it is my sheer work ethic and commitment to anything I undertake. It's never been a question of inherent intelligence or IQ persay (personally if somone is considered a "genius" and hasn't cured something or invented a product vital to the preservation of human life, I could give fuck all about their IQ or Mensa membership), instead I believe it to be more about what it is to truly commit. Nothing is worth committing to unless I'm passionate about it. If I'm passionate about something, that also means I'm willing to die for it. Nothing I consider worth my life should be disrespected by a half ass attempt. If you think about it, what we do in our day to day are the things we live and consequently die for. If in the end you spend your days doing something not worth the price of life or at least not considering it as such, I think that in the end you've only succeeded in wasting it [your life]. 'To waste' is probably the only "sin" by which all the others fit under. So for me, passion is life, life is intense, full of ecstasy, and in the end, completely worth it.
"Beauty will be convulsive or will not be at all."
As to what takes up my time, I love taking photographs. To me it's like reading in between the lines- finding out those secrets about someone they wouldn't otherwise say or perhaps didn't even know existed. I sometimes take pictures professionally, but I try not to make a habit of it. I consider my pictures to be personal, and tend to take the secrets they tell me and develop them into stories and short films. In my opinion reality as we know it, consists of nothing more than our memories and perceptions. Having considered that, I've come to terms with the fact that I'll never really know anything concretely, thus making my pursuit of people and their infinite "realities" all the more exciting and all the more necessary. However abstract the truth is, I do believe that at select moments I catch glimpses of it. Just staring into space fucking blows my mind. It makes everything brand new. It's intoxicating. If staring into space either literally or figuritavely doesn't bore you, we should talk.
"An artist is an artist only because of his exquisite sense of beauty, a sense which shows him intoxicating pleasures, but which at the same time implies and contains an equally exquisite sense of all deformities and all disproportion."
Many people have asked what is it that I do, well, a plethora of things really. Along with Film and Music, I especially have a passion for humanitarian aide, international politics, and foreign policy. I'm a complete knowledge junkie and most notably when it comes to varying cultures and ethnicties. As such, I travel quite alot all over the fucking place to wherever and whomever will have me. I'm not too capable of working for other people in an uninspired capacity. If you can't infuse me with your personality or your vision, chances are I won't be working for you. Suffice to say I do my own thing. I run my own film production company. I have part ownership in a record label. We deal primarily with Jazz Cubano, Descarga, Bolero, Timba, and Reggae- basically music native to Cuba and the nearby islands; a venture inspired by mi abuela. I assist in the production and marketing for various commercial and indie films on a freelance basis. I also work with the IRC, UNHCR, and various missionary organizations when needed and able.
When not working, I'm usually writing, which can also be work. Besides that, I collect knives and swords. I like pretty guns and own a few. I ride motorcycles; and enjoy riding cross country in the summer months. I enjoy restoring old bikes and roadsters with my brothers. I love to Tango and do the Flamenco. I enjoy dancing violently, and do so quite often. I have a tendency to do crazy/dangerous/illegal things. I love to travel and do so spontaneously. I play a few instruments and speak a few languages. I like to build things with my hands; construction/metal work- love it. There's something sobering about hard labor. I like to draw and take pictures of everyone. I especially enjoy painting women. The female physique is simply exquisite. Muses are always welcome. Flying- I'm in the process of getting my commercial pilots license; any other pilots out there, hit me up. I also really want to fucking live on a boat. I love the freedom of the ocean and if I can't live in the sky, why not the sea. I'm working on it.
Lately (as of 11/23/05) my time consists mostly of indulging in a myriad of creative whims. I have this really eclectic list of professions I absolutely must try: like flying hot air balloons and being a truck driver. There's that, plus a few new entrepreneurial ideas in addition to a novel that I'm working on, and a script in development that's become this excruciating labor of love. It's kicking my ass right now, but there moments, wonderous moments, when I think I've got it beat. Think I might also pursue my certification as a helicopter pilot and immerse myself in aeronautical engineering, because I kind of want to build one.
In any case, If you give a fuck about anything I just said, drop me a line. Fuck, if you've even made it this far, you're obligated to at least say "hello".
Fuck a revolution. You cry revolution, when you're the pollution. So what's the solution? (c) - my extended headline if it would fit.
