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About Me

Welllll . . . We, well, not no more it's just me, and a lot of space . . our once family, wife Alanna and daughter Arwen Evenstar are/were backwoodzers, in what is left of the most rugged pristine parts of Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. Sequestered and solitary, surrounded by rugged hills, hardwood on the west ridge, mostly spruce around our home and along the craggy east ridge. We are some what self sufficient and live on a non-maintained road that we have to snow-machine out three miles in the winter to where we winter park. We live a house that I have been building as time but mostly money allows. We're off the grid and use solar panels and batteries for most of our juice, though this time of year we have to supplement it with a generator back-up. Our other big luxury is satellite internet, wow, they live where moose and bear wander across their clearing and they have net hook up? Hurray for the 21st century, well at least to some degree. I moved out to this land in 99 after somehow managing to acquirer type 2 diabetes. Had bought this land a couple years prior while still working as an over the road trucker. Had a twenty foot tipi pitched on it and would land for several weeks at a time. The diabetes put the skids to my trucking that I had been involved in for eight years previous and as I couldn’t find a responsible driver I had to dump the tractor and trailer, ouch, big time hit, big time loss. I married five years ago and up until recently have been real content, and actually able to sleep at night. After I married I extended the then 14x24 foot cabin with full loft 26 feet out the back and made it two story. Along the way I also built a Potting Shed for my then future wife, a Garden Shed, for my then future wife’s gardening tools, a small but unique Tool Shed for my chain saws, axes, augers, all that stuff that guys have to make the work around a homestead easy, screws, nuts, bolts, nails, wrenches (notice I said wrenches and not wenches, they live in the house). I had put up a sauna as soon as I finished the main cabin, which I must check real soon as I’ve had the fire going all day and it is just about ready. When low on dough we make do with what nature provides us with, as far as creating this vision goes. A big lake just over the west rise provides us with ample driftwood and rocks. So when times are slow financially I build wonderful little fairy fences and meditation benches all over the 40 acres. Clear thick patches of spruce thinning them, and as I have so many burly spruce use the cleared ones for building, like the porches and furniture whatever I can come up with. The remaining I trim the branches way up with a pole saw in winter while on snow shoes and on a three foot snow pack, that gives an airy lofty cathedral magical aura. Then I establish trails, through the woods and along the creek, building benches in secluded spots with panoramic vistas and wind chimes high in the trees, what you then get when you sit down is instant ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh . . . . the nasty world with all it’s woes looks so much better. We have named our place “Dreamwalkers” , kind of like talk the talk, walk the walk. We dream the dreams then try to bring them forth into what us humans consider reality. Walking around our land especially spring and summer amid the flowers and smells is like taking a walk through our imaginations

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As we live such a sequestered life it makes it hard to have an active social life, which on one hand is why we live the way we do. But even in Marquette the largest town in the are with a university we haven't really run across the minds that we desire. So personally I am just looking for like minds, or unlike, I'm alway open for new ideas, original thinkers. I'm willing to ponder the out of the box stuff. Feel like I'm in a rut here, all I have really is my wife to bounce things off. Even though we have so very much in common and she listens to my rantings she isn't interested enough to really dive in. And that's ok shit I don't want a clone. Would be nice to be able to sit with someone in a coffee shop, or just have my coffee, wine, or whatever here at the key board and bounce ideas.A quote that I really resonate with is by Tolstoy: " I know that most men, including those at ease with problems of the greatest complexity, can seldom accept even the simplest and most obvious truth if it be such as would oblige them to admit the falsity of conclusions which they have delighted in explaining to colleagues, which they have proudly taught to others, and which they have woven, thread by thread, into the fabric of their lives".

My Blog

Release

finger nails bent back-bleeding from clinging - grasping too tight to this absurd vision we call reality .  .  .  i just want to drift .  .  .  dissapate into the void .  .  .
Posted by on Sun, 26 Apr 2009 17:44:00 GMT

Life-Death-Beyond?

4-26-09    Feeling sorry for myself again damn me anyway. Really want to put the 9mm in my mouth and inhale. Went out last night to the only place in Mqt where one can dance, and who do I see first of...
Posted by on Sun, 26 Apr 2009 15:57:00 GMT

Mom

She carried me nine months Snug and warm, immersed withinReleased me on a hot July nightAnd almost died in the process.Fifteen years she helped guide meTaught me with patience and loveLet me go my way...
Posted by on Mon, 08 Dec 2008 18:48:00 GMT

Questions

    Where The Hell Does It Come From    Once when I was maybe ten I was at Boy Scout camp. A week long thing perhaps and we were camped out in small tents, three to a ten...
Posted by on Wed, 03 Dec 2008 06:26:00 GMT

Projection

    I feel like East Berlin (1970)  Concrete Walls, Barbed Wire, Machine Guns,                      ...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Dec 2008 22:09:00 GMT

Lack of Control

    Damn if this isn't one of those real low times where I am drowning myself in sorrow and self piety. Knowing that my own weakness and lack of discipline of my own mind is the cause. ...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Dec 2008 20:39:00 GMT

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Posted by on Sat, 08 Nov 2008 20:32:00 GMT

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Posted by on Thu, 16 Oct 2008 00:06:00 GMT

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Posted by on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 17:07:00 GMT

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Posted by on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 00:44:00 GMT