someone called me a desperate seeker....i felt offended. and then.....i realized that he was true. i am truly looking for something...out there. ...or inside of me. sometimes it really is some stupid object, like my keys, but mostly it is a meaning, an understanding, a feeling, one or more people, connection...my space (haha)
someone laughed at me once for saying I like people. it is true though. I have strong feelings about, for and because of people. I like the randomness and unexpectedness of human interactions. they (we!) are interesting, boring, stupid, funny, weird, and..... it doesn't mean though that i like everyone and anyone. not at all. i just like studying and taking-part in all what the human world and the "actors" in it can possibly do, respond to, fear from, desire, and experience.
someone told me I should give more credit to myself. though i'm a very critical person- with the practice of self-criticism too, i believe, sometimes i need to be reminded not to be so hard on myself. and maybe, not to be too hard on my environment also. ususally i say: i will try - both, or either.
someone has said I am bitter and ironic. how about cynical?
some say I am intimidating sometimes. that I'm very comfortable with myself in that I don't believe in bullshit. I take it as a compliment.
someone told me I'm not as crazy as I think I am. But I am not normal either.
about me?
self revealing, craving attention, perfectionist, emotionally sensitive, social, vain, not liking to be alone, controlling, a social chameleon, enjoying leadership, putting the needs of others ahead of my own, assertive, making friends easily, always busy, heart over mind, phobic, aggressive, clingy, compassionate, dominant, outgoing, suspicious, hard working, strong
the perfect night would include some bottles of red wine with my fave group of people (drinks of personal taste included) in a comfy apartment after or before a couple of hours out dancing somewhere with a conversation session about love, life, the stratosphere and ice-cream on a nice spring evening - cuz that's just a great beginning of and for everything and anything. all these to follow a day of extensive theater work! and being accompanied by great music - all the time.
