k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn]

About Me

CMNT. MSSG. ADD. BLOG. k e n d r a. t a k e n. d e p r e s s i o n l i v e s. p i a n o / r o c k / h a r d c o r e / t e c h n o.d a r e y o u t w i c e t o l o v e m e.I am an antique painting. I stare out of my painting and watch as other people live their lives, as I just sit here stuck. Sometimes people notice me, most times they donâ€™t. Itâ€™s very interesting to hear the way they judge when they donâ€™t think I can hear them. No matter what they say though, all I can do is sit here. The dust in thick layers rests around me, making it even harder to breath in the frame filled with sincere emotions. I like to believe Iâ€™m them: the passerbyâ€™s. I live in fantasy lives for hours. That is, until I realize all it can ever be is a dream. Demons are in this picture, coming out at me from all sides. But when people look here all they see is me. Do they notice the scare in my eye? Do they see the clench in my jaw? No, Iâ€™m just a painting. Sometimes I try to define myself, but I can never figure out the right thing because I donâ€™t even know myself. No oneâ€™s shown me a mirror that reflects my soul. I donâ€™t know what the artist who made me intended me to be. Sometimes I wish he painted me dead. Sometimes I want to just be able to walk in and out as I pleased, though other times Iâ€™m glad for the stillness and predictability of everything. I know that everyday will be filled with the constant presence of strangers and that every night will be an incessant cycle of thoughts. Do I ever sleep? Do I ever fall in love? No, Iâ€™m just a painting.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

this is what converse said to me: You are yourself and dont try to be like anyone else. Chances are you enjoy skate boarding,rock music and stuff like that. You have a lot of friends that like you for who you are. You are the original black converse.

Heroes:

heros: billy:siwwy biwwy boo, i hearts you. kaitiyou're as amazing as chocolate. broho.stop smoking and wake up. lauren: we've been bestie's forever.

My Blog

im so lost

im so sick of being who i am. im so sick of where i am. i miss so many people right now, its not even fair. i feel like crying. =/ i dont know who are my real friends anymore. and i feel like i was u...
Posted by k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn] on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 12:38:00 PST

two-thousand-eight

so im sitting here on the first day of twothousandeight and im looking over the past year, not seeming too great. filled with ex romances and broken hearts. filled with bleeding and getting ripped apa...
Posted by k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn] on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 12:15:00 PST

and so i say to you...

is your life what you want it?mine sure isnt, but im trying to get it there. two summers ago my life changed drastically, i lost all sense of who i was, and what my morals and beliefs were. but im try...
Posted by k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn] on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 12:15:00 PST

no, im not ok

im sick of backstabbing. we're fucking seniors this year, grow up. why cant anyone mature and realize that what they say hurts? i know im not better than anyone else and thats not what im saying, at a...
Posted by k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn] on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 12:15:00 PST

about me. i guess.

im not ashamed of who i am. i dont try to be this perfect girl with the beautiful smile, cuz thats not who i am. who i am is someone who is a survivor. i cut, and fuck you im NOT emo. i've just gone t...
Posted by k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn] on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 12:15:00 PST

ohemgee. more poetry!

Dear Razor you were my only friend. no matter what, til the end. you took all my problems but created more whenever i was with you i only bled and got sore. thank goodness you were there for me but no...
Posted by k e n d r a[strangerdanger|mn] on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 12:15:00 PST