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Well not much to tell it's all new to me sence i'm starting my life all over. You've herd of hitting rock bottom well that's what being divorced is like.But like my best friend always said "it's all good". You remember when you always said i'd love to be little again and know what I know now. it is kool except finding out the one you thought loved you was with someone else and you wonder how long this has been this way but need to know for your peace of mind and to try and make some kind of sence of what just happened and then you just want to go back in time but you can't and that just seems impossiable to go forward. It is very hard to go forward when you don't know where you have been. I thought I was there but I was way wrong. I only hope this is it cause the only thing left is death and I won't have to worry about takin it with me. I'm going to have to haul ass to get back up there so hang on it's going to be a hell of a ride! Well I can say Hell ain't got shit on mother earth. I know now I'm here for a real reason. I don't know what that is yet, but after everything that's happened to me I'm still here. I should be fucking dead right now but i'm not. I can say that I've learned a couple of things from all this the first is always rembember if you have someone who loves you your half way to the top and what another friend told me. What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger! the only problem with that is I'm tired of getting stronger and last is some thing my daughter said to me. She said Dad even if she did come back we can't trust her anyway! and I hate it when she is right.Because every thing else is just pure shit! 100% bullshit. Oh and one more thing my dad always said to me is "beats a blank" and i hate when he is right because I hate having a blank and not know it. Scottsdale shouldn't be called the west most western town. Well maybe it should be cause it's full of bullshit I know why I moved to Fountain Hills cause most every one here is full of shit GOSSIP. Why do so many people here live without a job. What's up.