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About Me

Everyday you wake up, you hope that everything will work in your favor and your day will be perfect. Everyone knows that is a rare case. It wasn't until recently that I think I have discovered who I am, what I want in life, and where I'm going. I made a decision to pack up and move to Chicago. With each passing day, I get more scared. I have moved away on a whim before, but I was not prepared, to say the least. This time I have a job, money, car, and a place to live. I think what scares me is that in the back of my mind, this is it. I finally have my shit together and am headed in the right direction. Recently, a very very close friend of mine made me see and understand that one has to be happy within themselves to be able to please other people and truly be happy. I think I have found that inner peace and can breathe much easier now. I wouldn't doubt that my story in life has to be one of the longest ever. I spent my New Year's in Omaha saying goodbye to a lot of friends, see you later to others, and hi to some new ones. I'm hoping that Chicago will treat me as well as Omaha did, and as well as Des Moines is now. I think it's funny how I finally find some things I want, just in time to move. As much as I'd love to back out on the move to satisfy what I want, I cannot. I'm going into this headstrong and believe it will only make me a better person. I have set some goals for myself and only hope that everything will work out for me and I can achieve them. I am an open book and invite anyone to indulge themselves in me if they think they can handle me. I promise you will never find another person like me. To all of my friends that I'm leaving behind, I wish you the best in your ventures and know that I will always love you and be there for you no matter how far away I am. Remember, it takes 2 seconds to pick up the phone and call.Regarding the pictures on my profile, it tells a story about me, be it past, present or future. Kelly Clarkson's song "Breakaway" fits my life to a T. I realized that you can't always run as it gets you nowhere. However, you can pack up and move to start a better life for yourself. If you can get the pictures, then you can get me. With the eye I will see you. With the ear I will hear you. With the hand I will touch you. With the nose I will smell you. And with the lips, I will finally get to taste you.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet anyone that has a story. I would like to get to know more people and make many new friends. I only hope that the new ones will someday be to me what the old ones are now, and know that they will never disappear no matter what, even into the afterlife. As far as my "idealistic guy" ... he does not exist. I'm currently writing a book about it and, well, can't give any details. If you want to know, ask. All I ask for from people is honesty, stability, personable, reliable, and themselves.

My Blog

It's been a while ....

It's coming up on 2 years that I've been living in Chicago. I've gotta say it has been an amazing journey! It's had its ups and downs, but all-in-all I couldn't be happier. I've grown bored though. I ...
Posted by on Fri, 21 Aug 2009 08:46:00 GMT

The Other Side

ever had that feeling that you have been replaced? for me its not a feeling, its reality. its my own fault but honestly never saw it coming. it hurts thinking about it but this time i had to be selfis...
Posted by on Fri, 15 May 2009 07:00:00 GMT

it is what it is, or is it?

i came here on a mission ... to prove that i can make it and that i dont need anyone. even tho im still here i sometimes feel i failed ... myself. the mission was to prove things to myself. i did it t...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Mar 2009 12:08:00 GMT

And so it goes ...

I believe there is a phrase out there "If it happens, then it was meant to be", or something along those lines. I'm reflecting back on the last 15 months of my life and realizing that life has worked ...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Dec 2008 20:06:00 GMT

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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceablespark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, thenot-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let thehero in your soul perish, in lonely frustr...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Dec 2008 12:28:00 GMT

For the first time ....

1) I let go of ALL inhibitions 2) I did drugs ... not 1 but 4 (none of which were pot) 3) I slept with multiple people simultaneously 4) In one word ... FIST (use your imagination, me, them) 5) I got ...
Posted by on Mon, 01 Dec 2008 13:01:00 GMT

Drowning

You treat me like I'm your world. I would give you the world if I could to help show you how much I truly care. In one hand I have shit, the other I have you .. and yet the result is the same. I let m...
Posted by on Mon, 24 Nov 2008 05:37:00 GMT

Stuck

Have you ever felt like you're giving everything you have towards something you want so bad but things keep coming up? Is it coincidence or fate? Is it not meant to be, or just not meant to be right n...
Posted by on Fri, 07 Nov 2008 21:37:00 GMT

Fantasy (WARNING: X-RATED!)

As we were walking in the door, I shut it behind me and locked it. When I turned around, he looked me in the eye then grabbed me and slammed me into the wall. I didn't know what to think. Should I be ...
Posted by on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 23:32:00 GMT

Thoughts

Its funny the way life works. You can never be fully trained or prepared for what gets thrown at you. I've learned to keep my head down, keep running, and hope for the best. One of these days I will h...
Posted by on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 23:23:00 GMT