Living Just To Hurt Myself

My name is Josh, and I'm different from you and everyone else. If I told you about my past, you'd want to pity me or you'd never want to talk to me, so I won't put it on here. I only have like two friends, because I have major trusting issues. I'm pretty much a nice guy, but I'm really shy. I hardly speak to people most of the time, because of my shyness and my trusting issues. When I do talk, I ramble and say stupid things. Just ask anyone who talks to me. I drink alot, to get rid of pain. When I drink I'm always alone, even at parties. At parties I usually find a dark corner, and hide in it as I drink. I'm never usually seen in anything but baggy pants and baggy hoodies. I don't really hug people, because they don't usually hug me. I'm shy about the way I look, because I'm ugly. I usually shy away from people, because I'm afraid that they'll betray me like everyone else in my life.Layout made by