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About Me


i fuck up everything and you won't like me. i'll like you for a month or two, then i'll do everything in my power to screw you over. i don't mean to. i don't like it, and i certainly don't like the pain afterwards. but i'm selfish, cruel, untrustworthy and disloyal. and yes, i hate myself. and yes i cry every night wishing i was someone else, but to be fair, none of you know what i've been through, and even now as i'm writing this i'm being a twat. so hate me, dislike me, punch me in the face, i don't care anymore. i give up on me. i simply don't care about myself; at all. for the first time ever, i'm giving up.
joseph dakin is the one person in this world who has still held my hand when i try to run away, he's the one who kisses me when i hurt him, he's the one who wanted me with him at three in the morning, he's the one who still thinks i'm pretty even first thing in the morning and last thing at night, he's the one who hugs me when i tell him about things he doesn't want to hear. he's the one, and i'll never have him.
ever.

My Blog

Jay - Goodbye

So, if anyone has read any of my blogs, you'll know about Jimmy. and how it killed me when he died. then we got Jay and everything seemed perfect?Jay has now gone.He was hit by a car in february. some...
Posted by on Tue, 12 May 2009 06:47:00 GMT

Jimmy - Photo of Jay.

isnt he lovely. x
Posted by on Sun, 14 Sep 2008 18:27:00 GMT

Jimmy - Legacy.

so i guess you're wondering like why i'm posting a blog about jimmy, when died in July? well.. not last night the night beforewe got Jay. Jay Jay Jay (L)Jay is a dog our friend Marc Harvey (...
Posted by on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 19:09:00 GMT

Jimmy - Goodbye Angel.

So the day has finally come, my best friend in the whole wide world died today. there will be a "wake" on saturday for any close friends that want to come down, or anyone who loved jimmy. an excuse to...
Posted by on Tue, 29 Jul 2008 10:19:00 GMT

jimmy 5

so it turns out that its the treatment making jimmy ill, hes been given a really huge injection to stop him being sick, and hes on an all chicken diet lololol. my babys home yay! but for how long? i s...
Posted by on Sat, 12 Jul 2008 15:12:00 GMT

jimmy 4 - the last one?

i may have just said my last goodbye to him. he's been really really sick today and my mum just took him to the emergency vets. he might not come home. i miss him already... my darling jimmy may have ...
Posted by on Sat, 12 Jul 2008 10:18:00 GMT

Jimmy 3

so im home now, and i cried when i saw jimmy. he looked so happy to see me, but at the same time tired, i recieved some terrible news yesterday, when jimmy went for his second lot of big chemo they di...
Posted by on Fri, 11 Jul 2008 20:03:00 GMT

Jimmy 2.

song to listen to that is mine and jimmys. overtheyears - nevershoutnever. listen to it."With the life you arrangeJust remember only god knows if I changeI'll sing along to every songI type a lie for ...
Posted by on Sun, 06 Jul 2008 07:17:00 GMT

Talkkkkk.

PC4PCC4CW4WOMMMMGGGG Someone Talk To Me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by on Fri, 27 Jun 2008 21:50:00 GMT

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Why Add Me Then Not Talk? FFSTalk People. TALKAint That Hard Is It?NAHHHHHHHHHHH
Posted by on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 13:35:00 GMT