Real Eyes Realize Real Lies

If u don't know me then its impossible to explain the shit that happens to me everyday to teach me and guide me on my quest for self enlightenment and true happiness. which i will gain once i find my true purpose in life and the reason why i was created, then go out and fulfill it. Right now i still and in the preparation phase so i cant be truly prepared for whatever obstacles be thrown my way and treat them all as learning experiences in life to better myself for the next life whatever that may be. Im very deep into the Arts Within the past few years ive been perfecting my crafts So i can bring all thats goin on inside of me out into this world 2 make a difference.Im very involved in my music/arts. I have taught myself everything i kno. I think the best teacher is the one that teaches themself. I draw alot but its my own style very lucid i jus let my hands take over and i dunno wat im drawing till its done even tho nothin is ever truly finished I also have my turntables/ 3 guitars/ keyboard and my voice 2 keep me in rhythm with the universe. Ive been workin on a few projects now. I also am in love with acting it has been a part of my life since i can rember.My link 2 my agency and my portfolio is below. Well i am gonna stop be4 i give too much info. if ur interested in gettin to kno me better or jus interested in some of my insight then read my Blogs, talk to my friends, or jus im me on Hotrod1569.Link to My Acting/Modeling Portfolio at Hollywood Auditions http://www.hollywoodauditions.com/cast05/spencer_rodney.htmN EW PIX USED 4 HOLLYWOOD AUDITIONS.com!!!! Sometimes this beauty is choking me but at least its your hands at my throat Your lashes brush against my cheek coupled with your breath on my neck The world around you falls away and I will still be there I know my words are like daggers but they cut me too And I am sorry for all the fucked up things I say I didn't mean it And I never realized that I can be what I hate Lets be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy I know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth Sometimes I felt so souless I couldn't even look at me It's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change But I'll be damned if I push you away I remember when my dreams were dying and I damned the sun, I damned the sun to pieces I carved hateful thoughts into my chest U took my hand and now its gone.... Now without U Nothing... Nothing has ever felt the same...