elizabeth

i am interested in art... i make it, i look at it, i work with it surrounding me. if you're one of those "i feel dumb looking at art, what does it mean?" so am i, get over it - just enjoy it. i like being heard, talking so loud all night that i lose my voice by morning. i have good things to say, whether it's "you're dumb for not knowing what that painting means" or "OMIGOD you have herpes" (exactly as the music comes to a halt). i like debating until the other person concedes or i need a new beer, it doesn't matter what comes first because i'm not listening to what you have to say anyway. i like taking a nice long drag off my cigarette and then blowing it in someone's direct path - it's my street too, and usually they deserve it. i like to watch the news and yell at the newscasters about the weather and the president. they don't yell back, but it's still cathartic. i hope that everyone in iraq dies, so that my brother can come home, maybe that's not looking at the bigger picture, but i like my brother so what do i care. oh and i also hope that president bush dies, ideally in the same manner that he has inflicted death on so many- alone in a sandpit. i'm also interested in doing things i've never done before like rock climbing, traveling, sky diving and letting someone else have the last word/think they're right (not gonna do the last one, but interested in how it would sound) i'm interested in not being in this school anymore. i'm interested in meeting 3 nice people in this city, because i don't think it exists - other than the one's i knew before i got here. i'm interested in excess and hedonism - you've only got one life. not so much interested in drugs and bad manners - always say "no, thank you" when asked to do drugs. i'm mostly interested in myself though and what point i have to get to before i'm institutionalized for being crazy.